Hirsch Family, I was in SDT w/ Jacquie. I posted on here a few months back, but I just want to let you know that I’ve been thinking a lot about Jacquie lately, particularly how strong she was in her fight. Yes, I’ve been thinking about how much I miss her and what an unbelievably wonderful person she was, but I’ve also been thinking about how she’s such an inspiration. Whenever I’m having a bad day, I think about what she went through and how strong she was in her fight, and I am able to get through whatever it is. Keep believing and holding on — you have lots of support — people who love you and are there for you always. Love in Jacquie, Melanie <3
Jacquita,Like so many others, the amount that I miss you seems to only be getting greater each day. Today I was driving home from school and was thinking about you, of course, and I just felt this really horrible pain in my chest and I couldn’t breathe. I felt like 10000 bricks got stacked all at once upon my chest. I think I got that feeling because I was thinking how badly I just wanted to call you, and give you some gossip, or hear some of your stories, or just hear your voice. This may sound crazy, but your voice is probably one of my most favorite sounds of all time. When you got sick, most of the time when we talked (despite all of the cr*p you constantly endured), you somehow managed to sound cheery, and I can’t even tell you how happy that made me. So anyway I just wanted to call you so bad today, just talk to you, let you know how things are going, and just hear your voice. I know people say I can still talk to you, and I know that… and you know that I still talk to you (and my Dad) a heck of a lot. But I guess one of the hardest things to get over is that I can’t tell you things the way I used to. Like so many others, and as I have expressed before, I can’t wait to go to bed every night because it’s when I am asleep that one of my biggest wishes can come true: I can tell you things like I used to. So tonight, as every night, my biggest wish is to see you in my dreams. You were more full of life than anyone else I have ever met, and that is probably (one of the) huge reasons why we all feel such a void. You didn’t sit back and watch life happen around you, you made your life happen. So I just wanted to let you know how sorely missed you are. I love you beautiful girl. Keep shining down on us, there are a lot of us who could use a little bit of Jacquie Light in our lives.Still in my heart and on my mind always <3 delisha <3 xoxoxoxo
you guys looked so handsome on the news last nite i got chills…im so proud to say that you are family, what a wonderful thing you did! i love you all so much, love, cousin angela
The foundation and all who support and believe in the foundation are amazing and such an incredible gift to others. To the Hirsches…your commitment, your energy, and your heart and soul are admired by us and so many others. We believe in all you are doing. Sara and family
Good Morning Hirsch Family. I just wanted to drop by to let you know you continue to be in our hearts and prayers. every day. and we continue to Believe.
Just wanted to let you know that I’m still thinking about you and Jacquie every single day and reading the blog to check in on you. I am so glad that Jacquie’s foundation is still doing so much good. We all just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other….
hey jacquie, i have a story for you.tonight, for some reason, i was thinking an extra special amount about you, and while sitting at my boyfriends house, i began to cry. When he asked what was up, i told him all about you. How wonderful you are, your beautiful smile, all the funny things that you said that i still laugh about, and he shared with me an interesting theory. He believes that a spirit never dies, only the human body, and you know what jax, in your case, i think he’s right. Obviously, everytime i see a tink, or see the words believe, hope, or laugh, i think of you. But i also believe that in the past few months, there have been moments when you’ve been there with me. Whether its driving in the car saving me from a terrible fate, sitting in AP physics wanting to drop, or awaiting those college acceptance letters, i know you’re there. Helping me to make the right choices, and to keep going even when i dont think i can, just like you did. I just want to thank you for being such an incredible role model, and for keeping an eye on me from up there. I love you so much, and I have always and will always believe in you. You’re beautiful, and i miss you.just thought i’d let you know 🙂
Hello Hirsch Family, I just wanted to let you know that this weekend, we passed out some of Jacquies bracelets and her story was told to many. My family was here for my grandmothers funeral and they all noticed our the purple bracelets and asked what they were for. So Jacquie’s story has now been spread even more in North Carolina and Pennsylvania. I am so glad to hear about the success of the Vera party and letters…I really hope all goes well at the meeting. Much love to you all! God bless, Casey
Good Morning! I was flipping through my People magazine this weekend, it’s cover was the Travolta family, and the main story was about the tragic loss of their son…I read one quote that a friend of the Travolta family said and it really hit home…I thought I’d share (I apologize if I don’t get it word for word I forgot to bring it to work with me today). “They (the Travolta’s) have Emma and they will be okay, but for now they just need time to plain grieve.” I think that’s true for you guys too, you have all of us and each other, you will be okay. But for now you need to grieve. LOVE YOU. XO Ash
Im so so happy to the success of the Vera Party and all the stories/letters! There is never any doubt in my mind that all of Jacquie’s events will be a success. She has touched so many and deserves only the best from us! I BELIEVE that months from now or maybe a year we will all be carrying around Jacquie’s very own vera bradley bag, just like we carry her in our hearts now and always. A thank you to you all for sharing with all of us, and making it possible for us to celebrate Jax together. Love always, Nichole Love you tink<3
Hi Sharon, I have frequently wanted to write but not always sure what to say…as many people are probably in the same predicament. I truly appreciate that we have had an opportunity to share our feelings about the most difficult, undeserving , unreal events that have occured to our families. And so sorry that is what brings us together. I know the love that I feel & other parents for their children is like no other…And having to bear such a loss is soooooooo unfair…& not quite sure how everyone does it…but like being dealt with a child with cancer WE DID NOT have a choice. I Know that I feel an obligation to try & make my other childrens life happy as I feel they need me too..& think that is what makes me put one foot in front of the other. I wish there was some great advice or answer…but all I seem to come up with is questions…so for now know you are not alone, & hope today is a ok day….(I’m not sure I can say they will ever be great) When Jamie was not responding the last few days I would tell her stories & sing to her too….(You probably sang alot better than I)Today is a sunny day…& the last song I sang to Jamie was “You are my sunshine”on 12/11/07…I could not complete the song! Try & keep strong…thinking of you &Torey,Tj & forever Jacquie….. Robin Badding & family
i always feel a little bit better after i can let go of a few words, jac, so i just have a few things to tell you tonight. you know how i feel about music and just the other day i changed the 6 cds that were in my car to 6 older cds that i havent listened to in a long time. anyway, one cd is gavin degraw and let me tell you.. i used to love him. he had this song that he played live at almost every show and i dont think it ever made it onto a cd but it’s called dreams.. and if i could share a few lines with you, i think you’d know why this song has been played in my car every day since i replaced my cds.. “i feel your spirit when you’re near meand when you’re away,somehow, somewhere i’ll see you again,but until then i’ve got dreams.dreams i will share when i see you again,and i’ll see you again pretty soon, i pray,but until then – i’ve got dreams..” and it’s been such a release to be able to listen to this song really loud, belt out the words, cry if i feel the need to, or smile wide on days when it feels better to remember you through a smile and not through tears. i miss you SO MUCH jacquie. i miss the way you used to pick me up from ontario in your old blue car and how you would zoom out of the loading dock and sometimes hit the curb, i miss the way you and i would take pictures with sabrina and lauren and make mean faces at them while they smiled their “IM A PRINCESS” smile. i miss the most random, vivid memories all of the time and i am so FRUSTRATED these days that i don’t get to make anymore memories with you. i miss your terrible clapping dance, and how you refused to do it anymore after i pointed it out to you. i really wish you were going to be with me for my last semester. i really don’t know why it is hitting me so hard these days. i love you so much and i can’t wait to see you again. but until then… i’ve got dreams<3 - your samanthamum
Sharon, Torey and TJ, Sending my prayers to you and all your family. I think about you all everyday. I can not even begin to imagine what you are giong through. I miss Jacquie so much. Just know that there are so many people with you and believing in your strength. I love you all. Jax-I miss you more than anything. I love you and always believe in you tink <3 Keep shining down on us beautiful angel. Love always, Amanda
Good Morning, I’m just sitting at work waiting for a file to load (yes, Saturday and I’m working again…Citi never sleeps is our motto lol). Anyways, I just wanted to share a dream I had…I don’t dream of my Mom often, but when I do it’s always kind of the same…I dream that she is back, that she isn’t sick anymore and is ours again. Life is normal. Normally in my dreams we talk and laugh (I don’t ever remember what about). Well the other night I had the same dream except that she HUGGED me. I swear she actually came down from Heaven and hugged me, I felt it in my bones. I told my Dad about the dream and he had the same reaction I did…we both KNOW that it was my Mom’s way of telling me that Jax is with her (and all the other Mom’s up in heaven) and that she is ok. I hope you are able to find some comfort in my dream : ) I love you guys and can’t wait to hear what happens with the Vera Bradley stories!! XOXO Ashley.
Sharon, Torey, TJ and Jacquie too, Last night I felt so angry as I was in my kitchen washing dishes and thinking about when I am back in Clarence the next time and all the thoughts and plans we had (and do have) of you all living around the corner. Tears were so on the surface and I thought if my heart and stomach ache this way, I can not even begin to imagine how yours feel at all the thoughts of plans and ideas. Elise was wishing to see Jacquie and said to me in a sad quiet voice…I wanted to see her and I can’t, I bet her mom and dad are so sad and cry. I told her yes and they always will. I imagine it does only get harder because it just is not the way it should be. Last night was tough and the weirdest part was the kids asked for popcorn which they never do and I had to make it the old fashioned way and Sharon, I still have it fly all over the kitchen just like that night babysitting TJ when Karen and I had it popping all over your Burke house Kitchen. Connor said “Mom it is still popping and going everywhere”. Missing you and sending you an extra breath to help with the steps you take.Love, Sara and family
Always Always Always thinking of you. I love you guys. I dream about Jacquie a lot – as do a lot of the believers I know… anyways my dream last night just left me feeling so comforted. It felt like Jacquie and I had actually gotten to hang out. We were playing wii in my dream. I play Wii a lot because I’m a nerd and I always imagine that Jax is laughing at me – especially during hoola hooping. Anyways last night in my dream I was playing Wii and Jax came over to join me. She sat down on my couch with her beautiful long hair and I kind of stroked it for a second and said “how ya feelin?” and she grinned and said “Great”. It was the most real dream I’ve had and I felt so comforted because of it. That was probably too long of a story but I wanted to share because somehow I know Jacquie is feeling great. We aren’t. The people left here on earth are feeling the opposite of great and feeling an oh so very big hole in our lives. I wish you – Sharon, Torey and TJ, as well as the extended Jacquie family many dreams like mine. I hope you feel Jacquie near you everyday because knowing her I know she is doing what she can to help everyone through this impossible journey or making through each day without her. I love you guys and am always holding you in my heart. Forever believing, <3 Sadie
It’s so exciting to hear about all of the events that are going on for Jacquie. I am just amazed at how Jacquie’s supporters have really come together to beat this effing cancer. We will find a cure with so many people BELIEVING and spreading Jacquie’s message. Her beautiful smile is shining down…Sending all my love and thoughts to you Hirsch’s, and all of Jax’s believers
I just wanted to send my love. Sharon, Torey, TJ, I know you are still struggling so much. 4 months and 2 days doesn’t feel much better than it did at day 1… it might in fact feel worse. I just want you to know how badly I wish I could make it not hurt so bad. There is this John Mayer song that I love call “Dreaming with a Broken Heart.” Sharon, I think it really mimics your latest post. It goes,”when you’re dreaming with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest part.” I can’t imagine how hard it is to get yourself out of bed everyday, to face the day, and its inevitable challenges. But you do it! You get yourself out of bed. That is the boldest statement that you can make, you get out of bed, and you face the day. Whether you have tears streaming down your face the whole time after you get out of bed, or if you just sit in front of tv, or if you’re at a meeting with Vera Bradley corporate reps making a beautiful pitch for a Jacquie print. You are facing each day. Not to be annoying with the lyrics, but John Mayer has another song which I think is a good companion to that last one, this one is called “the heart of life.” and this one goes,” Pain throws your heart to the groundLove turns the whole thing aroundNo it won’t all go the way it shouldBut i know the heart of life is good.”I know life without Jacquie is not good, to say the least. I just think that for you, Jacquie was the heart of your life (obviously, along with TJ and Torey), and she brought so many amazing experiences and joys. So that’s why the loss is so big. If she wasn’t as amazing as she was, the loss wouldn’t be so hard. I guess it’s almost like the more you miss her, the harder it is to be without her, is equivalent to how wonderful your time with her was. If that makes any sense…Anyway, I’m rambling. I just wanted to send you my love and let you know I think about you guys all the time. And especially today! With the Vera reps… I can’t wait to hear about it. I hope all of our stories helped sway them… even though they never met jacquie, i believe that through our love for her, they have to know that she could light a room brighter than anyone else could.I love you so much.In my heart and on my mind always<3 alicia <3Jac- I tell you this all the time, but just know that I miss you terribly, and I love you so much. You still mean the world to me.
Jacquie I am leaving tomorrow for Disney and my heart is still breaking for you… I am so honored to be running 26.2 miles in your name for LLS, but I wish were going to Disney together, looking for tink and all the tink stuff, being goofy and meeting him too… I love you girlfriend and I will make you proud on Sunday. I miss you and you will be constantly on my mind during the race, as you always are. Smile down on me tink… I will need it. btw I know you think its crazy that I am doing this 🙂 I much rather be eating mariazzas with you!Love,Marietta
Hello, I know it has been a long time, sorry!! I have thought of you all so much though Fudd is doing amazing. Think it might have some thing to do with his “angel”?!!! I sure do!!!!! Thinking of you today,and always Jess & Fudd
Hello Hirsch Family, I have not written in a while, and for that I am sorry. Its been a little stressful around the Stiokas house these past few weeks, but I know that Jax has been sending her Tink dust down to help us smile. I know I am super late, but Torey, happy birthday, I know it must have been a tough one. On another note, I just wanted to let you know that the lilac bush I am getting you is called Yankee Doodle and its a beautiful dark purple just for Jax. Sending my love and prayers, and always always Believing. God bless, Casey
Sharon, Tory and TJ: We were so saddened when we received Jean’s Christmas card with a note and obit about Jackie. How devastating to all of you. In looking at her pictures what a beautiful young lady she was. I remember her as a small little girl who loved my mini-biscuits for breakfast. Please know our thoughts and prayers are with you in this difficult time. But you know what a legacy she has left. God Bless. Love, Mike and Connie
My Vera Bradley story: “Wheeeeeeew!” was my first thought when we entered The Perfect Gift in Clarence Center for “Jacquie Hirsch’s First Annual Vera Bradley Purse Party”. No, it wasn’t because I had driven my wife and daughter over 110 miles in a sometimes blinding snowstorm. Nor was it because of the vision of a store completely packed with ladies, all there for a “Vera” party. It was because I spotted TJ and Torey Hirsch in the crowd and knew that I wouldn’t be the only guy in the place! I had spent well over an hour on the internet the night before, “cramming” for my first party, studying the current styles and patterns. My mission was to purchase my first “Vera” as a travel bag for our dog “Miss Peeps”. My wife and daughter were there to get Christmas gifts as well. The staff at The Perfect Gift couldn’t have been more accommodating and gracious with directions, suggestions, and many great snacks. I found the large display of “Veras” and started to look at the varied patterns and styles. I finally found a small duffle that looked like it might work perfectly for Miss Peeps. Trouble started when I went to get a hands-on look at the duffle bag. It seems that the shoulder strap from my bag had become entangled with a strap to a purse, two items away, that a determined shopper was examining. Thinking someone was going to take her “Vera”, she grabbed and pulled to keep it in her possession. Well, it probably would have been easier to redefine borders in the Mid-East than it was to convince this lady that I wasn’t interested in her treasure, but only wanted to look at my own. We laughed at the situation, untangled the bags and went on our way. So much for my first experience with full-contact “Vera” shopping. It was a great evening that I wouldn’t have missed for the world. My only wish is that next year we’ll all be “studying” the new “Jacquie Line” at the Second Annual event. Believing Always, Harry
Hi Sharon, Torey and TJ,I just wanted to tell you how much it meant to all of us that you stopped by our dinner. It must have been so difficult for you. Throughout the night many of our conversations turned to Jacquie and your family. She will always be a part of our ciao bella dinners and I hope from now on all of you will be too. I put the picture frame over my dresser so that I would see it every day. It is my own personal reminder to make each day count. On a side note I am so happy that the foundation is giving a grant to Roswell and I know my mom will be too! I love and miss you all! Please take care and let us know if you need anything.Still Believing,Liz (Brace)
Sharon, Torey, TJ and Jacquie, Always remembering and wondering and thinking and supporting and wishing and caring. With you even though I am many miles away. Love to you and a hug and strength- Sara
Happy Birthday Torey! 🙂 The update said that Jacquie was so very close with Torey, and that some times she even asked for advice and opinions from him. This makes me feel so much better, because I do the same thing. Sometimes when I dont feel comfortable asking my friends for advice, I wil usually go right to my dad. My dad feels probably very important when I ask him for advice, and I dont know what I would do without him and his great advice! I know that if a daughter asks their dad for advice, then that dad must be an amazing one. Torey, I know that you are such a great father, and that you would do anything for your children. I also know that Jacquie loves you Torey, with all of her heart, and I know that she is your little girl, and nothing can ever ever change that. I hope 2009 brings happiness to your family. With love, Natalie M.
I feel like I have so much I want to say… but it all boils down to I love you. And I miss Jacquie. Always thinking of you guys and always always believing <3 ~Sadie
Jac,Hello beautiful Angel. I just had to write to you because I miss you so much, and when I write to you on here I feel like you still, somehow, know what I am saying. Like your Mom, and countless others, I cannot believe that nearly 4 months has gone by. Sometimes it feels like a blink of an eye and others it feels like time has crept by, but no matter how long it has been, it has always been too long since I have seen or talked to you. Like Sammie, I ALWAYS see you in my dreams. I look forward to these dreams so much, because in them you are always so happy, and when I wake up the thing I always remember the most is your smile and laugh. As I learned after my Dad passed, although it often hurts like h*ll to wake up to reality, I treasure these dreams so much. It may sound strange but sometimes I feel like we’re building new memories, even if they are just dreams. So keep on visiting me please. After two wonderful weeks at home with my Mom and family, I have to head back to Buffalo tonight. School (and work) start again on Monday. Oh Jac, I don’t want to go back. This year has been so hard, and I hate being away from home so much. I often find myself just wishing it will be August 2010 already (so school and the bar will be over). I hate thinking that I am wishing for time to pass, for these years to go by. You have helped teach me that life should be cherished, and I hate that I am wishing this time away. Each day when I find myself just waiting for law school to be over, I try to remind myself of everything I learned from you. What you went through, I can never even begin to imagine, and I know I am so lucky to have the opportunities I have. So my New Years resolution this year (and you know I never make those because I always thought them to be so silly), is to be more grateful for the things i love and for even those i don’t. I don’t want to disappoint you so I am going to try my hardest to stick to it. Ugh Jac I just miss you so much. And I wonder if this ache will ever go away. I need you to know that still every little thing reminds me of you. What a gift you were (and still are) to all of us. Oh and guess what? I went to color me mine a few days ago just to pop in to see Ramsey, and I wasn’t going to paint any pottery because well you know, I’m not the most artistically inclined person. But as I was sitting there I was thinking “wouldn’t it be nice to paint something with Tink?” and literally a minute later I turned around and saw a WHOLE TINK DISPLAY!!!! So needless to say, I quickly bought a Tink and painted it as well as I could… I even painted a purple bracelet on her wrist (like your grandpa did in your tink painting).I love you so much. I’m sorry this is so long. <3 delisha <3 IN MY HEART AND ON MY MIND ALWAYS
Good Morning!! We had to come into work today and I of course have spent the better part of my morning searching through the site. I know I’ve said this before but Thank You for keeping the web site updated, I find alot of comfort in it. We are glad you like the picture frame and poem, Jacquie will always be at everything we (the Ciao Bellas) do, our dinners, our wine nights, our weddings, everything. She is always in our hearts and on our minds (just like you guys!). I love you and am always believing!! xoxox Ashley
I wish I could say what is in side of me, jacquie was my best friend and i wanted her to be a part of our family she was my daughter that I was so proud of.
the hirsch’s – i hope that 2009 finds a way to bring peace and happiness to your hearts. i love you guys times infinity!tinkerbell – everywhere i go, i see purple bracelets, tinkerbells, and “we believe”…we’re all thinking of you always, please continue to keep us believers safe in 2009. i miss you and i love you.
Happy New Year to Everyone!! I know how hard the Holidays are for everyone who checks this site, so I wanted to send my love and a hug your way. Hirsch’s-I love you!! And hope that that 2009 only brings you happiness and love. Keep Believing!! Love you Jax! xo Ash
Dearest Sharon, Torey and TJ,I wish all of you comfort today as you start a new year without Jacquie here. She is your angel and I know that she is with you all, helping you get through this pain. She is a constant reminder to us all to make 2009 the best year yet, because Jacquie made her whole life the best by living it to the fullest. Jacquie I wish I had your spirit and your strength. I love you girlfriend and you continue to inspire me and always will. Kristin came to the fundraiser in the city for the marathon last Saturday and it was so good to see her. You continue to bring people together tink… you always will. I BELIEVE in you always.Love,girlfriend
I just wanted to write about the Vera Party. I wasn’t able to go that night so I went 2 days earlier. I purchased about 25 vera things and felt so good buying them. I brought them home and Courtney and I decided who would get what. The next day I decided to go back to make sure that every girl/woman in our lives would get a Vera this year and help support the cause. I bought for ages 12 through 82 and all were thrilled and absolutely loved their Veras. I had only 2 Veras before this. I told everyone the specaial reason as to why they received a Vera this year in Jacquie’s honor. It felt good to buy and be able to contribrute to Jacquie’s cause too. I wish so much that she could be here to be with all of us and my heart breaks for you as I know how diffult the holiday season is as well as each day that passes. You as always are in my thoughts and prayers. Vera should agree to the Jacquie pattern because she continues to touch so many hearts and her Vera could be shared everywhere a little Tink magic. Take Care
Sharon and Torey, The words do not come easily as we think of you this holiday. We continue to remember your family in prayer that each day will somehow be a little easier. You have so many wonderful memories of Jacquie and how she loved life . Know she is so proud of her Mom, Dad, and big Brother . You have all been such a positive influence on so many people. Do want to thankyou for making a donation to the Mission. It just shows your caring for all those around you as you continually think of others. Love Marcia and Family
DEAR SHARON AND FAMILY, MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS HAVE BEEN YOU THOUGHOUT THIS SEASON…THE HOLIDAYS ARE SO HARD. NICHOLE SAID THAT YOU AND TORY STOPPED AT THE GATHERING OF THE BELLA’S…THAT PLEASED THEM SO MUCH AS THEY KNEW HOW HARD EVERYTHING WAS. MY FRIEND JACK LAHAIR WENT TO SLOAN YESTERDAY FROM SYRACUSE AND IS NOW BEING EVALUATED FOR HIS TRANSPLANT. UNFORTUNATELY HE IS NOT YET IN REMISSION WHICH POSES A PROBLEM. WE ARE ALL PRAYING FOR THIS TO CHANGE BEFORE THEY DO ANOTHER TEST ON FRIDAY. I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THIS,NOT SURE WHY BUT I DID. I BELIEVE GOD WILL HEAR OUR PRAYERS .
We were just thinking about you and how difficult these past months have been. We wish you a peaceful new year filled with many happy memories of Jacquie. You are always in our thoughts and prayers. Happy New Year. Love, The Meholick Family
My only comfort this holiday season is that our loved one and Jacquie are together in a better place. When you mentioned the “empty chair” it really hit home as to how much they are missed.
i’m just so bad at putting to words what i’m feeling inside, so i’ll tell you a story. jacko, i dream about you every single night. somewhere in my hours and hours of dreams you ALWAYS appear. Last night was quite the interesting one. you were sitting on the floor of the restaurant i worked at (don’t worry.. in my dream it had carpet) and i was sitting with you and you were writing thank you cards to people (for what, i cannot imagine) BUT the funniest part of it was… you were wearing your stinkin purple northface and white SDT hat. i have so many memories of us being together with you in that northface and hat. i actually woke up crying this morning, which i don’t think has ever happened to me in my entire life. the dream i had last night was so real and vivid and powerful i could have sworn that i almost smelled you and could really hear you. big, this is my last semester at geneseo ever. this is it!! i remember, you being the stubborn princess you are, didnt write a senior will for everyone but you wrote one to me. it’s in a card and i have it hanging on my wall — all the things you left to me when you graduated (slash left for the summer but had to come back for a semester bc you couldnt stand to be away from me). you, of course, mentioned ali bc i’d been stalking her for the passed year-ish already, our unbelievably similar past relationship status, call on me, folly family fun nights, and well.. all the seriously important things like all the times we spent together. i can’t tell you how many times i look at it, jac. GOD I WISH YOU WERE HERE SO FREAKING MUCH. i seriously am besides myself these days with thinking about the permanence of you not being around. i can’t even quite grasp it yet. i am so happy, though, that you sent justine back to me in one piece =). i have a feeling that if i thought she took care of me in the past, it’s probably gonna be multiplied by 700 for the next few months. you know how i’m obsessed with books? well i just got the most beautiful book mark that says believe with a purple ribbon! how did barnes and noble know that purple ribbon was yours? you are everywhere i look, there is a piece of you in every single minute of every single day and i thank god for it. i know this was approximately 17 pages, but i feel better now. i can’t wait to see you in my dreams tonight, jac, i really get great advice from you there. (Gosh that sounds so weird) but seriously, i really feel as though you are with me. i miss you so much. every day a little bit more. “i’ll close my eyes and believe, that wherever you are, you’re an angel for me…” i love you, biggles, your samanthamum forever and for always<3
TJ Torey and Sharon, You guys have been in my thoughts a lot over the last week. I bring Jacquie with me everywhere I go, and never take off my bracelet. I’ve been able to tell so many people about her (people are usually curious about a purple bracelet on a 6’4″ 230 lb. guy!) I hope you are able to find some level of peace and happiness in the coming new year. – Rory
Amanda Cavarella says:
January 14, 2009 at 6:13 pm -
You are always in my thoughts and prayers <3 Always believing, Amanda
Melanie Friedson says:
January 14, 2009 at 4:07 pm -
Hirsch Family, I was in SDT w/ Jacquie. I posted on here a few months back, but I just want to let you know that I’ve been thinking a lot about Jacquie lately, particularly how strong she was in her fight. Yes, I’ve been thinking about how much I miss her and what an unbelievably wonderful person she was, but I’ve also been thinking about how she’s such an inspiration. Whenever I’m having a bad day, I think about what she went through and how strong she was in her fight, and I am able to get through whatever it is. Keep believing and holding on — you have lots of support — people who love you and are there for you always. Love in Jacquie, Melanie <3
alicia says:
January 14, 2009 at 3:21 pm -
Jacquita,Like so many others, the amount that I miss you seems to only be getting greater each day. Today I was driving home from school and was thinking about you, of course, and I just felt this really horrible pain in my chest and I couldn’t breathe. I felt like 10000 bricks got stacked all at once upon my chest. I think I got that feeling because I was thinking how badly I just wanted to call you, and give you some gossip, or hear some of your stories, or just hear your voice. This may sound crazy, but your voice is probably one of my most favorite sounds of all time. When you got sick, most of the time when we talked (despite all of the cr*p you constantly endured), you somehow managed to sound cheery, and I can’t even tell you how happy that made me. So anyway I just wanted to call you so bad today, just talk to you, let you know how things are going, and just hear your voice. I know people say I can still talk to you, and I know that… and you know that I still talk to you (and my Dad) a heck of a lot. But I guess one of the hardest things to get over is that I can’t tell you things the way I used to. Like so many others, and as I have expressed before, I can’t wait to go to bed every night because it’s when I am asleep that one of my biggest wishes can come true: I can tell you things like I used to. So tonight, as every night, my biggest wish is to see you in my dreams. You were more full of life than anyone else I have ever met, and that is probably (one of the) huge reasons why we all feel such a void. You didn’t sit back and watch life happen around you, you made your life happen. So I just wanted to let you know how sorely missed you are. I love you beautiful girl. Keep shining down on us, there are a lot of us who could use a little bit of Jacquie Light in our lives.Still in my heart and on my mind always <3 delisha <3 xoxoxoxo
Angela says:
January 14, 2009 at 10:09 am -
you guys looked so handsome on the news last nite i got chills…im so proud to say that you are family, what a wonderful thing you did! i love you all so much, love, cousin angela
tramadol says:
January 14, 2009 at 1:23 am -
Sara (albuquerque) says:
January 13, 2009 at 11:37 am -
The foundation and all who support and believe in the foundation are amazing and such an incredible gift to others. To the Hirsches…your commitment, your energy, and your heart and soul are admired by us and so many others. We believe in all you are doing. Sara and family
cmd says:
January 13, 2009 at 8:09 am -
Good Morning Hirsch Family. I just wanted to drop by to let you know you continue to be in our hearts and prayers. every day. and we continue to Believe.
Jess Dixon says:
January 12, 2009 at 9:19 pm -
Just wanted to let you know that I’m still thinking about you and Jacquie every single day and reading the blog to check in on you. I am so glad that Jacquie’s foundation is still doing so much good. We all just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other….
meg d says:
January 12, 2009 at 8:56 pm -
hey jacquie, i have a story for you.tonight, for some reason, i was thinking an extra special amount about you, and while sitting at my boyfriends house, i began to cry. When he asked what was up, i told him all about you. How wonderful you are, your beautiful smile, all the funny things that you said that i still laugh about, and he shared with me an interesting theory. He believes that a spirit never dies, only the human body, and you know what jax, in your case, i think he’s right. Obviously, everytime i see a tink, or see the words believe, hope, or laugh, i think of you. But i also believe that in the past few months, there have been moments when you’ve been there with me. Whether its driving in the car saving me from a terrible fate, sitting in AP physics wanting to drop, or awaiting those college acceptance letters, i know you’re there. Helping me to make the right choices, and to keep going even when i dont think i can, just like you did. I just want to thank you for being such an incredible role model, and for keeping an eye on me from up there. I love you so much, and I have always and will always believe in you. You’re beautiful, and i miss you.just thought i’d let you know 🙂
Casey Stiokas says:
January 12, 2009 at 6:13 pm -
Hello Hirsch Family, I just wanted to let you know that this weekend, we passed out some of Jacquies bracelets and her story was told to many. My family was here for my grandmothers funeral and they all noticed our the purple bracelets and asked what they were for. So Jacquie’s story has now been spread even more in North Carolina and Pennsylvania. I am so glad to hear about the success of the Vera party and letters…I really hope all goes well at the meeting. Much love to you all! God bless, Casey
Huer says:
January 12, 2009 at 9:19 am -
Good Morning! I was flipping through my People magazine this weekend, it’s cover was the Travolta family, and the main story was about the tragic loss of their son…I read one quote that a friend of the Travolta family said and it really hit home…I thought I’d share (I apologize if I don’t get it word for word I forgot to bring it to work with me today). “They (the Travolta’s) have Emma and they will be okay, but for now they just need time to plain grieve.” I think that’s true for you guys too, you have all of us and each other, you will be okay. But for now you need to grieve. LOVE YOU. XO Ash
Bowers says:
January 11, 2009 at 5:50 pm -
Im so so happy to the success of the Vera Party and all the stories/letters! There is never any doubt in my mind that all of Jacquie’s events will be a success. She has touched so many and deserves only the best from us! I BELIEVE that months from now or maybe a year we will all be carrying around Jacquie’s very own vera bradley bag, just like we carry her in our hearts now and always. A thank you to you all for sharing with all of us, and making it possible for us to celebrate Jax together. Love always, Nichole Love you tink<3
Anonymous says:
January 11, 2009 at 1:09 pm -
i love all four of you, and i will always believe.<3 meg
Robin says:
January 11, 2009 at 11:48 am -
Hi Sharon, I have frequently wanted to write but not always sure what to say…as many people are probably in the same predicament. I truly appreciate that we have had an opportunity to share our feelings about the most difficult, undeserving , unreal events that have occured to our families. And so sorry that is what brings us together. I know the love that I feel & other parents for their children is like no other…And having to bear such a loss is soooooooo unfair…& not quite sure how everyone does it…but like being dealt with a child with cancer WE DID NOT have a choice. I Know that I feel an obligation to try & make my other childrens life happy as I feel they need me too..& think that is what makes me put one foot in front of the other. I wish there was some great advice or answer…but all I seem to come up with is questions…so for now know you are not alone, & hope today is a ok day….(I’m not sure I can say they will ever be great) When Jamie was not responding the last few days I would tell her stories & sing to her too….(You probably sang alot better than I)Today is a sunny day…& the last song I sang to Jamie was “You are my sunshine”on 12/11/07…I could not complete the song! Try & keep strong…thinking of you &Torey,Tj & forever Jacquie….. Robin Badding & family
lil sammie says:
January 11, 2009 at 1:27 am -
i always feel a little bit better after i can let go of a few words, jac, so i just have a few things to tell you tonight. you know how i feel about music and just the other day i changed the 6 cds that were in my car to 6 older cds that i havent listened to in a long time. anyway, one cd is gavin degraw and let me tell you.. i used to love him. he had this song that he played live at almost every show and i dont think it ever made it onto a cd but it’s called dreams.. and if i could share a few lines with you, i think you’d know why this song has been played in my car every day since i replaced my cds.. “i feel your spirit when you’re near meand when you’re away,somehow, somewhere i’ll see you again,but until then i’ve got dreams.dreams i will share when i see you again,and i’ll see you again pretty soon, i pray,but until then – i’ve got dreams..” and it’s been such a release to be able to listen to this song really loud, belt out the words, cry if i feel the need to, or smile wide on days when it feels better to remember you through a smile and not through tears. i miss you SO MUCH jacquie. i miss the way you used to pick me up from ontario in your old blue car and how you would zoom out of the loading dock and sometimes hit the curb, i miss the way you and i would take pictures with sabrina and lauren and make mean faces at them while they smiled their “IM A PRINCESS” smile. i miss the most random, vivid memories all of the time and i am so FRUSTRATED these days that i don’t get to make anymore memories with you. i miss your terrible clapping dance, and how you refused to do it anymore after i pointed it out to you. i really wish you were going to be with me for my last semester. i really don’t know why it is hitting me so hard these days. i love you so much and i can’t wait to see you again. but until then… i’ve got dreams<3 - your samanthamum
Amanda Cavarella says:
January 10, 2009 at 8:26 pm -
Sharon, Torey and TJ, Sending my prayers to you and all your family. I think about you all everyday. I can not even begin to imagine what you are giong through. I miss Jacquie so much. Just know that there are so many people with you and believing in your strength. I love you all. Jax-I miss you more than anything. I love you and always believe in you tink <3 Keep shining down on us beautiful angel. Love always, Amanda
Huer says:
January 10, 2009 at 11:19 am -
Good Morning, I’m just sitting at work waiting for a file to load (yes, Saturday and I’m working again…Citi never sleeps is our motto lol). Anyways, I just wanted to share a dream I had…I don’t dream of my Mom often, but when I do it’s always kind of the same…I dream that she is back, that she isn’t sick anymore and is ours again. Life is normal. Normally in my dreams we talk and laugh (I don’t ever remember what about). Well the other night I had the same dream except that she HUGGED me. I swear she actually came down from Heaven and hugged me, I felt it in my bones. I told my Dad about the dream and he had the same reaction I did…we both KNOW that it was my Mom’s way of telling me that Jax is with her (and all the other Mom’s up in heaven) and that she is ok. I hope you are able to find some comfort in my dream : ) I love you guys and can’t wait to hear what happens with the Vera Bradley stories!! XOXO Ashley.
Sara (albuquerque) says:
January 10, 2009 at 11:18 am -
Sharon, Torey, TJ and Jacquie too, Last night I felt so angry as I was in my kitchen washing dishes and thinking about when I am back in Clarence the next time and all the thoughts and plans we had (and do have) of you all living around the corner. Tears were so on the surface and I thought if my heart and stomach ache this way, I can not even begin to imagine how yours feel at all the thoughts of plans and ideas. Elise was wishing to see Jacquie and said to me in a sad quiet voice…I wanted to see her and I can’t, I bet her mom and dad are so sad and cry. I told her yes and they always will. I imagine it does only get harder because it just is not the way it should be. Last night was tough and the weirdest part was the kids asked for popcorn which they never do and I had to make it the old fashioned way and Sharon, I still have it fly all over the kitchen just like that night babysitting TJ when Karen and I had it popping all over your Burke house Kitchen. Connor said “Mom it is still popping and going everywhere”. Missing you and sending you an extra breath to help with the steps you take.Love, Sara and family
Sadie says:
January 9, 2009 at 9:00 pm -
Always Always Always thinking of you. I love you guys. I dream about Jacquie a lot – as do a lot of the believers I know… anyways my dream last night just left me feeling so comforted. It felt like Jacquie and I had actually gotten to hang out. We were playing wii in my dream. I play Wii a lot because I’m a nerd and I always imagine that Jax is laughing at me – especially during hoola hooping. Anyways last night in my dream I was playing Wii and Jax came over to join me. She sat down on my couch with her beautiful long hair and I kind of stroked it for a second and said “how ya feelin?” and she grinned and said “Great”. It was the most real dream I’ve had and I felt so comforted because of it. That was probably too long of a story but I wanted to share because somehow I know Jacquie is feeling great. We aren’t. The people left here on earth are feeling the opposite of great and feeling an oh so very big hole in our lives. I wish you – Sharon, Torey and TJ, as well as the extended Jacquie family many dreams like mine. I hope you feel Jacquie near you everyday because knowing her I know she is doing what she can to help everyone through this impossible journey or making through each day without her. I love you guys and am always holding you in my heart. Forever believing, <3 Sadie
Pinchoff says:
January 9, 2009 at 2:02 pm -
It’s so exciting to hear about all of the events that are going on for Jacquie. I am just amazed at how Jacquie’s supporters have really come together to beat this effing cancer. We will find a cure with so many people BELIEVING and spreading Jacquie’s message. Her beautiful smile is shining down…Sending all my love and thoughts to you Hirsch’s, and all of Jax’s believers
alicia says:
January 8, 2009 at 11:25 pm -
I just wanted to send my love. Sharon, Torey, TJ, I know you are still struggling so much. 4 months and 2 days doesn’t feel much better than it did at day 1… it might in fact feel worse. I just want you to know how badly I wish I could make it not hurt so bad. There is this John Mayer song that I love call “Dreaming with a Broken Heart.” Sharon, I think it really mimics your latest post. It goes,”when you’re dreaming with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest part.” I can’t imagine how hard it is to get yourself out of bed everyday, to face the day, and its inevitable challenges. But you do it! You get yourself out of bed. That is the boldest statement that you can make, you get out of bed, and you face the day. Whether you have tears streaming down your face the whole time after you get out of bed, or if you just sit in front of tv, or if you’re at a meeting with Vera Bradley corporate reps making a beautiful pitch for a Jacquie print. You are facing each day. Not to be annoying with the lyrics, but John Mayer has another song which I think is a good companion to that last one, this one is called “the heart of life.” and this one goes,” Pain throws your heart to the groundLove turns the whole thing aroundNo it won’t all go the way it shouldBut i know the heart of life is good.”I know life without Jacquie is not good, to say the least. I just think that for you, Jacquie was the heart of your life (obviously, along with TJ and Torey), and she brought so many amazing experiences and joys. So that’s why the loss is so big. If she wasn’t as amazing as she was, the loss wouldn’t be so hard. I guess it’s almost like the more you miss her, the harder it is to be without her, is equivalent to how wonderful your time with her was. If that makes any sense…Anyway, I’m rambling. I just wanted to send you my love and let you know I think about you guys all the time. And especially today! With the Vera reps… I can’t wait to hear about it. I hope all of our stories helped sway them… even though they never met jacquie, i believe that through our love for her, they have to know that she could light a room brighter than anyone else could.I love you so much.In my heart and on my mind always<3 alicia <3Jac- I tell you this all the time, but just know that I miss you terribly, and I love you so much. You still mean the world to me.
alicia says:
January 8, 2009 at 11:08 pm -
Nicole says:
January 8, 2009 at 10:07 pm -
Punkin, I miss you… your on my mind everyday. Love you so much.
Marietta says:
January 8, 2009 at 9:03 pm -
Jacquie I am leaving tomorrow for Disney and my heart is still breaking for you… I am so honored to be running 26.2 miles in your name for LLS, but I wish were going to Disney together, looking for tink and all the tink stuff, being goofy and meeting him too… I love you girlfriend and I will make you proud on Sunday. I miss you and you will be constantly on my mind during the race, as you always are. Smile down on me tink… I will need it. btw I know you think its crazy that I am doing this 🙂 I much rather be eating mariazzas with you!Love,Marietta
Anonymous says:
January 8, 2009 at 5:03 pm -
Hello, I know it has been a long time, sorry!! I have thought of you all so much though Fudd is doing amazing. Think it might have some thing to do with his “angel”?!!! I sure do!!!!! Thinking of you today,and always Jess & Fudd
Sara (albuquerque) says:
January 8, 2009 at 11:20 am -
Always with you and always believing in you.
Casey Stiokas says:
January 7, 2009 at 8:37 pm -
Hello Hirsch Family, I have not written in a while, and for that I am sorry. Its been a little stressful around the Stiokas house these past few weeks, but I know that Jax has been sending her Tink dust down to help us smile. I know I am super late, but Torey, happy birthday, I know it must have been a tough one. On another note, I just wanted to let you know that the lilac bush I am getting you is called Yankee Doodle and its a beautiful dark purple just for Jax. Sending my love and prayers, and always always Believing. God bless, Casey
Connie and Mike Willeford says:
January 7, 2009 at 9:54 am -
Sharon, Tory and TJ: We were so saddened when we received Jean’s Christmas card with a note and obit about Jackie. How devastating to all of you. In looking at her pictures what a beautiful young lady she was. I remember her as a small little girl who loved my mini-biscuits for breakfast. Please know our thoughts and prayers are with you in this difficult time. But you know what a legacy she has left. God Bless. Love, Mike and Connie
Michael Stoughton says:
January 6, 2009 at 6:45 pm -
just a hello from phoenix to all… hello all… peace to the hirsches
Harry says:
January 6, 2009 at 5:59 pm -
My Vera Bradley story: “Wheeeeeeew!” was my first thought when we entered The Perfect Gift in Clarence Center for “Jacquie Hirsch’s First Annual Vera Bradley Purse Party”. No, it wasn’t because I had driven my wife and daughter over 110 miles in a sometimes blinding snowstorm. Nor was it because of the vision of a store completely packed with ladies, all there for a “Vera” party. It was because I spotted TJ and Torey Hirsch in the crowd and knew that I wouldn’t be the only guy in the place! I had spent well over an hour on the internet the night before, “cramming” for my first party, studying the current styles and patterns. My mission was to purchase my first “Vera” as a travel bag for our dog “Miss Peeps”. My wife and daughter were there to get Christmas gifts as well. The staff at The Perfect Gift couldn’t have been more accommodating and gracious with directions, suggestions, and many great snacks. I found the large display of “Veras” and started to look at the varied patterns and styles. I finally found a small duffle that looked like it might work perfectly for Miss Peeps. Trouble started when I went to get a hands-on look at the duffle bag. It seems that the shoulder strap from my bag had become entangled with a strap to a purse, two items away, that a determined shopper was examining. Thinking someone was going to take her “Vera”, she grabbed and pulled to keep it in her possession. Well, it probably would have been easier to redefine borders in the Mid-East than it was to convince this lady that I wasn’t interested in her treasure, but only wanted to look at my own. We laughed at the situation, untangled the bags and went on our way. So much for my first experience with full-contact “Vera” shopping. It was a great evening that I wouldn’t have missed for the world. My only wish is that next year we’ll all be “studying” the new “Jacquie Line” at the Second Annual event. Believing Always, Harry
Liz Fassl says:
January 6, 2009 at 11:55 am -
Hi Sharon, Torey and TJ,I just wanted to tell you how much it meant to all of us that you stopped by our dinner. It must have been so difficult for you. Throughout the night many of our conversations turned to Jacquie and your family. She will always be a part of our ciao bella dinners and I hope from now on all of you will be too. I put the picture frame over my dresser so that I would see it every day. It is my own personal reminder to make each day count. On a side note I am so happy that the foundation is giving a grant to Roswell and I know my mom will be too! I love and miss you all! Please take care and let us know if you need anything.Still Believing,Liz (Brace)
Amanda Cavarella says:
January 6, 2009 at 8:10 am -
Constantly thinking of you all and keeping you in my prayers. I miss you so much Jacquie and I will always believe in you love, mandz
angela says:
January 5, 2009 at 11:10 am -
happy birthday uncle torey! hope you had a good day! i know jacquie is making fun of you getting old, lol! love and miss you all cousin angela
Sara (albuqeurque) says:
January 4, 2009 at 8:48 pm -
Sharon, Torey, TJ and Jacquie, Always remembering and wondering and thinking and supporting and wishing and caring. With you even though I am many miles away. Love to you and a hug and strength- Sara
Natalie M. says:
January 4, 2009 at 8:21 pm -
Happy Birthday Torey! 🙂 The update said that Jacquie was so very close with Torey, and that some times she even asked for advice and opinions from him. This makes me feel so much better, because I do the same thing. Sometimes when I dont feel comfortable asking my friends for advice, I wil usually go right to my dad. My dad feels probably very important when I ask him for advice, and I dont know what I would do without him and his great advice! I know that if a daughter asks their dad for advice, then that dad must be an amazing one. Torey, I know that you are such a great father, and that you would do anything for your children. I also know that Jacquie loves you Torey, with all of her heart, and I know that she is your little girl, and nothing can ever ever change that. I hope 2009 brings happiness to your family. With love, Natalie M.
Sadie says:
January 3, 2009 at 6:33 pm -
I feel like I have so much I want to say… but it all boils down to I love you. And I miss Jacquie. Always thinking of you guys and always always believing <3 ~Sadie
alicia says:
January 3, 2009 at 3:30 pm -
Jac,Hello beautiful Angel. I just had to write to you because I miss you so much, and when I write to you on here I feel like you still, somehow, know what I am saying. Like your Mom, and countless others, I cannot believe that nearly 4 months has gone by. Sometimes it feels like a blink of an eye and others it feels like time has crept by, but no matter how long it has been, it has always been too long since I have seen or talked to you. Like Sammie, I ALWAYS see you in my dreams. I look forward to these dreams so much, because in them you are always so happy, and when I wake up the thing I always remember the most is your smile and laugh. As I learned after my Dad passed, although it often hurts like h*ll to wake up to reality, I treasure these dreams so much. It may sound strange but sometimes I feel like we’re building new memories, even if they are just dreams. So keep on visiting me please. After two wonderful weeks at home with my Mom and family, I have to head back to Buffalo tonight. School (and work) start again on Monday. Oh Jac, I don’t want to go back. This year has been so hard, and I hate being away from home so much. I often find myself just wishing it will be August 2010 already (so school and the bar will be over). I hate thinking that I am wishing for time to pass, for these years to go by. You have helped teach me that life should be cherished, and I hate that I am wishing this time away. Each day when I find myself just waiting for law school to be over, I try to remind myself of everything I learned from you. What you went through, I can never even begin to imagine, and I know I am so lucky to have the opportunities I have. So my New Years resolution this year (and you know I never make those because I always thought them to be so silly), is to be more grateful for the things i love and for even those i don’t. I don’t want to disappoint you so I am going to try my hardest to stick to it. Ugh Jac I just miss you so much. And I wonder if this ache will ever go away. I need you to know that still every little thing reminds me of you. What a gift you were (and still are) to all of us. Oh and guess what? I went to color me mine a few days ago just to pop in to see Ramsey, and I wasn’t going to paint any pottery because well you know, I’m not the most artistically inclined person. But as I was sitting there I was thinking “wouldn’t it be nice to paint something with Tink?” and literally a minute later I turned around and saw a WHOLE TINK DISPLAY!!!! So needless to say, I quickly bought a Tink and painted it as well as I could… I even painted a purple bracelet on her wrist (like your grandpa did in your tink painting).I love you so much. I’m sorry this is so long. <3 delisha <3 IN MY HEART AND ON MY MIND ALWAYS
Huer says:
January 3, 2009 at 7:21 am -
Good Morning!! We had to come into work today and I of course have spent the better part of my morning searching through the site. I know I’ve said this before but Thank You for keeping the web site updated, I find alot of comfort in it. We are glad you like the picture frame and poem, Jacquie will always be at everything we (the Ciao Bellas) do, our dinners, our wine nights, our weddings, everything. She is always in our hearts and on our minds (just like you guys!). I love you and am always believing!! xoxox Ashley
sue pelych says:
January 2, 2009 at 8:37 pm -
I wish I could say what is in side of me, jacquie was my best friend and i wanted her to be a part of our family she was my daughter that I was so proud of.
meg dressel says:
January 2, 2009 at 9:21 am -
the hirsch’s – i hope that 2009 finds a way to bring peace and happiness to your hearts. i love you guys times infinity!tinkerbell – everywhere i go, i see purple bracelets, tinkerbells, and “we believe”…we’re all thinking of you always, please continue to keep us believers safe in 2009. i miss you and i love you.
Huer says:
January 1, 2009 at 6:50 pm -
Happy New Year to Everyone!! I know how hard the Holidays are for everyone who checks this site, so I wanted to send my love and a hug your way. Hirsch’s-I love you!! And hope that that 2009 only brings you happiness and love. Keep Believing!! Love you Jax! xo Ash
Marietta says:
January 1, 2009 at 5:23 pm -
Dearest Sharon, Torey and TJ,I wish all of you comfort today as you start a new year without Jacquie here. She is your angel and I know that she is with you all, helping you get through this pain. She is a constant reminder to us all to make 2009 the best year yet, because Jacquie made her whole life the best by living it to the fullest. Jacquie I wish I had your spirit and your strength. I love you girlfriend and you continue to inspire me and always will. Kristin came to the fundraiser in the city for the marathon last Saturday and it was so good to see her. You continue to bring people together tink… you always will. I BELIEVE in you always.Love,girlfriend
The Battaglia’s says:
January 1, 2009 at 10:19 am -
I just wanted to write about the Vera Party. I wasn’t able to go that night so I went 2 days earlier. I purchased about 25 vera things and felt so good buying them. I brought them home and Courtney and I decided who would get what. The next day I decided to go back to make sure that every girl/woman in our lives would get a Vera this year and help support the cause. I bought for ages 12 through 82 and all were thrilled and absolutely loved their Veras. I had only 2 Veras before this. I told everyone the specaial reason as to why they received a Vera this year in Jacquie’s honor. It felt good to buy and be able to contribrute to Jacquie’s cause too. I wish so much that she could be here to be with all of us and my heart breaks for you as I know how diffult the holiday season is as well as each day that passes. You as always are in my thoughts and prayers. Vera should agree to the Jacquie pattern because she continues to touch so many hearts and her Vera could be shared everywhere a little Tink magic. Take Care
Marcia says:
December 31, 2008 at 9:01 pm -
Sharon and Torey, The words do not come easily as we think of you this holiday. We continue to remember your family in prayer that each day will somehow be a little easier. You have so many wonderful memories of Jacquie and how she loved life . Know she is so proud of her Mom, Dad, and big Brother . You have all been such a positive influence on so many people. Do want to thankyou for making a donation to the Mission. It just shows your caring for all those around you as you continually think of others. Love Marcia and Family
BECKY ROSELLI says:
December 31, 2008 at 12:49 pm -
DEAR SHARON AND FAMILY, MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS HAVE BEEN YOU THOUGHOUT THIS SEASON…THE HOLIDAYS ARE SO HARD. NICHOLE SAID THAT YOU AND TORY STOPPED AT THE GATHERING OF THE BELLA’S…THAT PLEASED THEM SO MUCH AS THEY KNEW HOW HARD EVERYTHING WAS. MY FRIEND JACK LAHAIR WENT TO SLOAN YESTERDAY FROM SYRACUSE AND IS NOW BEING EVALUATED FOR HIS TRANSPLANT. UNFORTUNATELY HE IS NOT YET IN REMISSION WHICH POSES A PROBLEM. WE ARE ALL PRAYING FOR THIS TO CHANGE BEFORE THEY DO ANOTHER TEST ON FRIDAY. I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THIS,NOT SURE WHY BUT I DID. I BELIEVE GOD WILL HEAR OUR PRAYERS .
Anonymous says:
December 31, 2008 at 8:55 am -
We were just thinking about you and how difficult these past months have been. We wish you a peaceful new year filled with many happy memories of Jacquie. You are always in our thoughts and prayers. Happy New Year. Love, The Meholick Family
a friend from Clarence says:
December 30, 2008 at 8:00 pm -
My only comfort this holiday season is that our loved one and Jacquie are together in a better place. When you mentioned the “empty chair” it really hit home as to how much they are missed.
lil sammie says:
December 30, 2008 at 3:44 pm -
i’m just so bad at putting to words what i’m feeling inside, so i’ll tell you a story. jacko, i dream about you every single night. somewhere in my hours and hours of dreams you ALWAYS appear. Last night was quite the interesting one. you were sitting on the floor of the restaurant i worked at (don’t worry.. in my dream it had carpet) and i was sitting with you and you were writing thank you cards to people (for what, i cannot imagine) BUT the funniest part of it was… you were wearing your stinkin purple northface and white SDT hat. i have so many memories of us being together with you in that northface and hat. i actually woke up crying this morning, which i don’t think has ever happened to me in my entire life. the dream i had last night was so real and vivid and powerful i could have sworn that i almost smelled you and could really hear you. big, this is my last semester at geneseo ever. this is it!! i remember, you being the stubborn princess you are, didnt write a senior will for everyone but you wrote one to me. it’s in a card and i have it hanging on my wall — all the things you left to me when you graduated (slash left for the summer but had to come back for a semester bc you couldnt stand to be away from me). you, of course, mentioned ali bc i’d been stalking her for the passed year-ish already, our unbelievably similar past relationship status, call on me, folly family fun nights, and well.. all the seriously important things like all the times we spent together. i can’t tell you how many times i look at it, jac. GOD I WISH YOU WERE HERE SO FREAKING MUCH. i seriously am besides myself these days with thinking about the permanence of you not being around. i can’t even quite grasp it yet. i am so happy, though, that you sent justine back to me in one piece =). i have a feeling that if i thought she took care of me in the past, it’s probably gonna be multiplied by 700 for the next few months. you know how i’m obsessed with books? well i just got the most beautiful book mark that says believe with a purple ribbon! how did barnes and noble know that purple ribbon was yours? you are everywhere i look, there is a piece of you in every single minute of every single day and i thank god for it. i know this was approximately 17 pages, but i feel better now. i can’t wait to see you in my dreams tonight, jac, i really get great advice from you there. (Gosh that sounds so weird) but seriously, i really feel as though you are with me. i miss you so much. every day a little bit more. “i’ll close my eyes and believe, that wherever you are, you’re an angel for me…” i love you, biggles, your samanthamum forever and for always<3
Rory says:
December 30, 2008 at 12:20 pm -
TJ Torey and Sharon, You guys have been in my thoughts a lot over the last week. I bring Jacquie with me everywhere I go, and never take off my bracelet. I’ve been able to tell so many people about her (people are usually curious about a purple bracelet on a 6’4″ 230 lb. guy!) I hope you are able to find some level of peace and happiness in the coming new year. – Rory
alicia says:
December 30, 2008 at 11:47 am -
sharon, that was a beautiful post. jacquie’s home always and forever will be in all your hearts. love you, keep staying strong.love,alicia