somedays i read the site and i just dont know how it is possible that jax really is no longer with us, that it is permanent! how is this fair that we will never see you again?!?! mamma mia is coming back to sheas this feb. my dad bought me and danielle tickets for xmas. i remember the 1st time i saw mamma mia was with jax and grandma bree! what a great time we had. then we brought the fam back for the 2nd time we saw it. danielle and i were talking about it and we are not sure how we can make it through this show that we all had such a connection with. dancing queen….i have a pic on my entertainment stand jax and i dancing at sissys wedding! i miss you terribly jacquie. i wonder if you know how much we all miss you! i love you, i love you soooo much, cousin angela
Hello Hirsch’s My mom showed me an ornament before Christmas that she wanted to buy for her dad since her mom passed away. When I read what was written on it I wanted soo badly to send one to your family. The reason I didnt is because of how powerful the message is, and I figured it would just be too much to handle. It is very simple and poetic and I feel as though I must share it in some way. If you like it enough, I could direct you to where one of these ornaments may be purchased if you desired. Here is the writing on it: God saw her getting tired, a cure not meant to be, so He wrapped His arms around her, and whispered, “Come with Me.” I continue to feel great sorrow for you and Jacquie when I read things like these. Today was my little sisters birthday and I pulled the knife out since mine is next, when I made my wish, I wished for you to be healed from your loss, and I pray that it comes true. With Love, Joe Browning
Beautiful Angel,with this unseasonably mild weather we’ve been experiencing, my mom had been opening all the windows to air out the house. anyway, my mom has some wind chimes in the front yard (small ones, not those huge obnoxious ones), and every time i hear the faint sound of them being blown about by the wind, a calm feeling comes over me. after this happened a few times, i realized that everytime i heard the chimes, i thought of you. so i just wanted to say thank you for once again letting me know you are all around, and for helping me see you in even the smallest of things. i love you and miss you so much. before i go, i wanted to leave you with some lyrics. i told you i was obsessed with the movie Mamma Mia and there is another song that completely reminds me of you. It is called “Chiquitita” and is about best friends helping one another through heartaches etc. Here are some pertinent lyrics, “ChiquititaYou and I cryBut the sun is still in the skyAnd shining above youLet me hear you sing once moreLike you did beforeSing a new songChiquitita”love you so much.xoxoxo <3 delisha <3 xoxoxo
Dear Torey, Sharon and TJ and the entire Hirsch, DePeters family, Wanting to let you know that as always, you are in our hearts and pray for strength for each of you. We wish for comfort and peace as we enter 2009. May you feel Jax’s presence, her strength and her comfort, so that you may also begin to feel peace. Love always, Indie and Pat
Sharon and Torey, I am writing on behalf of all the girls (I hope they don’t mind), I wanted you both to know how special you made our Holiday Dinner. We are amazed at the strength you have, to see us all gathered together that is courage. We know how hard it was for you, but it means the world to us that both of you and TJ are still apart of our lives and will always be. Just as Jacquie is always with us. We really love you and are always always here for you if you ever need anything at all. BELIEVING, Ciao Bellas
Dear Friends & Friends not yet met: I’d like to take a minute to thank everyone for your constant love & support to our family. Of course, this Holiday is very difficult; we are trying to figure out how to navigate through it, without Jacquie. I only put up my tree for Olivia (my granddaughter), & honestly, it doesn’t shine as brightly as Christmases past. And even though we set a place at the table & lit a special candle (we all know that Jax wouldn’t want to miss a meal!) we all felt something missing. As I read all the posts in this website, I continue to be amazed at how Jacquie has affected so many lives. She really was an Angel sent to us to teach us what matters and what’s important in life. I saw a quote that is “so Jacquie”.. “Our lives are not measured by what we have, but by what we give”. She gave us so much in the short time she was here on Earth, and still continues to give from Heaven. What an amazing Angel! So, again, thank you to everyone who writes, or just reads the posts, participates in Marathons, purchase items from the website store, or the Tink Pro Shop, donate blood or platelets, volunteer, make donations, help with fundraisers, or just continue to Believe. Believe that together we will make a difference in this fight against cancer. God Bless you & your families this Holiday Season. To My Dearest Angel Jacquie: Merry Christmas, Sweet Pea! Your Tinkerbell balloon, from the breakfast, still floats through my livingroom, so I know you’re watching over us-thank you! I, also, know that you are with your dad, mom & brother, but they are so sad, I’m not sure they always see or feel the signs of you. Maybe tonight you can give them an extra tight hug to let them know you’re there. Please be patient with us, Jax. Even though you are whole & happy again, we miss you terribly. What can I say? It wouldn’t be so hard, or hurt as bad, if we didn’t love you so much! Forever in my heart, Aunt Sheryl
Sharon, Toreyand T.J. just wanted to let you guys know that you are in my thoughts and prayers during this holiday season. I know what you guys are going through. It is not easy. but you have many family and friends to get you through this. while i was going through some things i found a plaque that i had recieved when the guy i wanted to marry had passed away .Iwould like to share it with everyone. I believe there are angels among us. Sent down to us from somewhere up above. they come down to you and me in our darkest hours. To show us how to live, to teach us how to give. to guide us with a light of love. I hope everyone has a healthy and safe new year.
I know it has ben a long time since I last wrote, but I continue to remember Jacquie each and eery day. I was decorating my Christmas tree and Jacquies ornament was the first to go on, right in the middle, where its the first thing I see when I sit down. Surrounding it are heart and Angel ornaments, both perfect descriptors of Jacquie, today, yesterday, last year, and the day she was born. My grandmother passed away a few months ago so our Christmas was much different than tradition. We held the gathering at our house instead of hers, we didnt have her lasagna, or her physical love. My grandfather toasted her as a mother, a wife, a grandmother, and a great grandmother. It wasnt until that toast that I realised how much I missed her. I also noticed that 5 generations were present in the room. I really don’t know where Im going with this, but I want you to know that I continue to pray for your family and remember Jacquie in my heart and in my actions. Life makes some terrible turns sometimes and we need to try our best to turn with it and stay on the road. My love goes out to the Hirsch family and our guardian angel, Jacquie. ~Joe Browning
Thank you for the beautiful ornament for our tree! It is front and center so everyone can see and remember our time with Jacquie. We all know how hard this time is for you and you are all in our thoughts. We also know how difficult it must have been for you, Torey and TJ, to walk onto 5 East, but we really appreciated the visit. We all hope that you continue to heal as time passes. Thanks again for the special ornament 🙂
I thought of Jaq and your family a lot yesterday. I think of you everyday, but especially yesterday. I hugged my family a little bit tighter this year. I try to remember Jaq’s lesson to cherish each day and let those around you know how much you love them. I gave my mother the book “Why a Daughter Needs a Mother” and explained to her why I got the book. She gave me a huge hug and we cried a few tears. I miss you Jacquie, my sweet angel. Please comfort your family, especially your mom. I wish any of our hugs could make her feel your warmth! Much love and hugs… Kate
Jax, I held my family close yesterday. The words faith, hope, love, and the meaning of Christmas itself, had new meaning to me this year. I don’t think I’ve ever celebrated the season with so much love. That’s because of you and everything that I’ve learned from you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for showing me the things that are important to BELIEVEin. All my love to you. Sharon, Torey, and TJ, The most wonderful gifts that I received this Christmas season, ANY Christmas season, were the lessons taught by your daughter. She was in every note of every Christmas song, she was the sparkle of each beaded ornament, she was the light of each Christmas star… and still, she is the light that is in each of you. Thank you for sharing her with us. When you miss her, turn to your own heart, where you will find her presence most strongly. You need look to further than that. We all love you unconditionally.
I know this Christmas had to be one of the hardest days of your life. We had our tink ornament front and center and were thinking of your beautiful Jacquie. She’s not forgotten – even by those of us who were never lucky enough to meet her. I’m praying for you to have the strength you need to get through this.Barb
I love you-Sharon, Torey, TJ and forever Jax… My heart aches for you today but you are forever being held in it. I am here if you need me- love you. <3 Sadie
Sharon, Torey, and TJ, I just wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas, and let you know that all of the Veras that were purchased at Jax’s party are greatly loved. Miss Peeps especially loved her bag, although I believe her cousin Riley (also a pug) liked it just as much, he wouldn’t keep his head out of it when we opened it! I also wanted to send my deepest thanks to TJ for getting our Jacquie merchandise out to the house in one day, it was wonderful to wake up and come downstairs to my new Jacquie ornament hanging on the tree, right in the middle. God bless, and always remember that Jax is one of those angels that we continually sing about during this season, and all others. Casey
just wanted you all to know you are on my mind all day today (as you are everyday). i hope you are somehow able to find a little peace or comfort in knowing that there must be no better place to celebrate christmas than in heaven. but god knows that christmas will never be the same without having our angel down here with us.in my heart and on my mind 24/7. <3 alicia <3Beautiful Jac, my thoughts randomly drifted to the movie "it’s a wonderful life," and then to the very popular line "every time a bell rings, an angel gets her wings." that now has a new and very special meaning. i love you tink, and i still miss you so much that i ache, not only in my heart but i feel the ache in my bones. thank you for making this christmas a mild one. i know that with the rain yesterday it didn’t even feel like christmas eve, and for me, made the day a little easier. i miss you so much. christmas just isn’t the same without your big heart, bright smile, and warming laugh. i can hear your laugh right now actually, and that makes me so happy. i love you so much.
Merry Christmas, I just finished opening up my gifts and wanted to let you know that the best gift I got this year was a nice big VERA Bradley, I love it. Today is hard for so many reasons for so many people, but I was lucky to find some comfort knowing that Jax was with me today while opening my gifts. I hope that you guys get to have some great thoughts of Jax today, and I hope that you know she is with you always and especially today…and I Believe she is all around all of us. I love you. xoxo Ashley
Dearest Jacquie,I miss you more than words can say on this day my friend. I wish you a Merry Christmas and I know that you are an angel looking down on your family today and shining your love and strength down on them. Pauline’s Christmas card this year that she sent me said, “BELIEVE.” I always will tink and I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU. I’ll see you down in Disney in a couple of weeks :)Love, GirlfriendSharon, Torey and TJ,I wish you all your continued strength and love that you have shown for each other and all of Jacquie’s family, friends near and far, and fans (b/c trust me she has many!) this Christmas Day. I am heading out there to run in a few minutes and I wanted to let you know that you 3 and of course Jacquie are my inspiration for this marathon. I thank you for your donation and continued support for LLS. All four of you are angels to us all 🙂 Merry ChristmasAlways believing,Marietta
Torey, Sharon and TJ Jacquie has been a huge part of our Christmas. After church last night we drove by the Burke Drive house. We thought of all the amazing memories that were made there. We said special prayers for Jacquie and your entire family at church. Santa brought a lot of tink presents. We are not sure he knew to shop at the new Tink store but everyone was so excited. The gifts made Madison, Savannah and Anna smile. Jacquie is everywhere! Praying for all of you. We cannot image how hard this day is for all of you. The Penetrante and Colucci Families
Merry Christmas, Jac. Things just aren’t the same without out. I hope that you’re having a great Christmas in Heaven. Please try to send some love to your family because I’m sure that they could use it.
Sharon, Torey, TJ and Jacquie-You are in or hearts always, but especially during the holidays. I pray that you will somehow find comfort in each other, your family and friends. We believe in you.With Much Love,The Dressels
Jax,I spent some time sitting around thinking today and, as usual, my thoughts led to memories of you. Nothing in particular that stood out, just many happy memories of times we shared at Geneseo. I miss you a lot and think about you often each and every day. I still and will always believe…To the Hirsch family,I wish you the continued strength and grace that you have shown each day of this journey. I hope you are able to lean on each other and friends to get through this difficult time. You have quite a beautiful angel shining down on you!! Merry Christmas, JAX-MA
just wanted to quickly let you know a few things. first, we finally got our tree up and decorated and i saved a special spot on the tree for the most special ornament of all… my TINK ornament!!! i saved it to hang for last, and was so excited to hang it. it goes without saying that it is the brightest ornament on the tree, putting all the rest to shame. and every time i pass the tree, it sparkles at me, and i smile. i am so happy to have a bit of tink hanging on my tree for me to see all the time.i also wanted to let you know that i was getting some of my mom’s decorations around and i found this little pillow that i have never noticed before. i was digging stuff out from storage and there it was staring at me, i was soooo excited…. a beautiful pillow with the sole word BELIEVE on it, with a star next to the BELIEVE*. it made me so happy and every time i see that pillow i get so happy all over again.even though this christmas will not even feel like christmas without our beautiful tink, i will still be comforted by knowing that our angel truly is all around us. i wish i could make this holiday season go away for you. i wish i could put a sleeping spell on you and make tomorrow never happen.i wish i could make your pain go away. for all the human race can do, it seems one thing that can’t be done is erase hurt and pain. all we can do is be the best people we can be, and be the best friends we can be, to try to make the hurt a little less excruciating. please please please if there is anything i can do, you know i am a phone call away. a second doesn’t go by without you all crossing my mind. one last thing, i am obsessed with the movie Mamma Mia (i know it was a play before it was a movie but i am obsessed with the movie). and one of my most favorite songs in the movie is titled “i have a dream” and one of the main lines in the song is “i believe in angels, something good in everything i see”every time i hear that song i immediately think of Jacquie. not only because she is our beautiful angel, but because she has taught us all to enjoy and appreciate the little things, and that there is good all around us.i love you all so much. xoxoxo <3 alicia <3 xoxoxo
Good Christmas Eve, I’ve been trying to think of something to write to you (and Jax) for the last few days, and I just don’t have the right words. I can’t even imagine how hard today and tomorrow are going to be. I’m sure there are going to be tears of sadness, anger, love, and sometimes happiness. Let those tears pour out, it’s okay. The Holiday’s are bittersweet. It is so wonderful or sweet to be able to celebrate with your loved ones and let them know much you care by giving a special gift or cooking a special meal. But it is bitter because you are reminded of the loved ones who arn’t with you physically anymore. I am truly sorry you are going through that bitterness, I really had prayed that Jax would be at home this Christmas. All of us girls hoped that we would be celebrating with Jacquie and that she would be better and we would be shopping and eating and drinking some nice wine with her. I know there isn’t much we can do, but Torey, TJ and Sharon please know I am here for you always and especially now. If there is anything that I could to do help at all please don’t hesitate to call me. I love you and am thinking of you. xoxoAlways Believingxoxo Ashley
Sharon, Torey, and TJ, I know that there are no words that can bring comfort to you all during this time, but please know that you are always always on my mind. I also wanted you to know that when dad and I went to pick up our Veras yesterday, we got the chance to officially “eek” Clarence Center. And I do realize that it sounds funny to say dad had to pick up his Vera, but its true…and I’m pretty sure he was just as excited as I was:) Now lets hope that Miss Peeps will enjoy it as much as we do:) Much love to you all today and everyday. God bless, Casey
Dear Torey, Sharon, and TJ, You will constantly be in our thughts throughout the holidays. We are always thinking of Jacquie, and we are soblessed to know a family like you. Merry Christmas. With great love, The Maranto family
Sharon, Torey, TJ and always Jacquie, Caring…always with you, ahead and behind of you… supporting every step and breath you take. Love, Sara and family
Dear Hirsch’s I love you all very much. I am thinking and praying for you all every day, especially during this holiday season. I know Jacquie is watching over us all with a big smile on her face. Always believing, Mandz
Dear Sharon, Torey, and TJ, We miss you all terribly and love you so much! We all want you to know that we are thinking , praying and loving you from here in NC, CT. We feel connected to you over the past year for so many reasons. I, of course, am so tied to all of you, you make up my high school years. I’m blessed to have my children and husband feel so close to you all. We know the holidays will be difficult, but want you to know, as others have said before us, that we all are here for you. Lean on your friends, talk, we are here and so truly understand and love and feel for you. Take heart in knowing that Jax is here with us, in mind, spirit and love. Wishing you much peace and happiness this season, Love always, Indie, Pat , Anjalie and Ryan
Wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you always but especially during the holiday season. All of my good wishes will be sent to you this holiday season.Thank you for continuing to share your grief and pain on the website. I know you are helping hundreds, thousands, an infinite amount of mothers by sharing your story. Sincerely,Renee
good morning sweet jacquie i saw a rainbow on my way to work strange right!?!? were you saying hi? i miss you everyday!!!!!!!!!! i love you, cousin angela
there are stories of people in accidents, lifting trucks off of others, or pushing rocks away that a bulldozer would have a hard time moving, just normal people that find this moment of inner strength at a time off need…i have it all of the time, that is why my arms are so huge and i cant scratch my back…now that you are trying to picture that in your head, think of huge biceps getting in the way of reaching around to scratch in itch…very good… anyways…this inner strength is something we all have and at this time of year, please reach down in your hearts and in your mind and bodies, to send some of that to sharon torey tj and jacquie… you all have that inside of you, but may not be able to bring it out now… that is ok cause we are all here for you and will do the hard work, and carry you as needed, wherever, whenever… sharon…my quote…”a family that has lost needs friends to lean on and cry on…” use us…do not think of this as a burden…it is a burden we choose to bear and would do it over and over and over… that is love… christmas is the season of giving… remember all that jacquie gave us… may the newest angel in heaven shine down on all of us this christmas… peace
As usual Alicia said perfectly what was on all our minds… is it cheating to just say “ditto”?I love you guys and will be holding you so close this week. It will be a hard one I know – you can get through it. You will feel it and it will hurt so badly – this Christmas season just isn’t as bright without Jacquie physically here. She is here though in all of us and in everything – I see her everywhere as I know all the believers do. Keep going. Walk through this week, Jacquie will be wrapping her arms around you and we will all be sending you strength. I love you very much. Always, always Believing, <3 Sadie
Torey,Sharon and TJ… Thinking about all of you and saying an extra prayer today that God gives you the stength you need moment by moment to get through this Christmas season… Walk through the memories of Jacquie’s life with Joy and celebration that she no longer has cancer…always being reminded of her daily Love that she lavished upon you & all the others in her life…surely it will bring a smile to your face and be of comfort and peace within your hearts…Be assured….God is beside you, every step of the way …just ask for His help…He says he’s closer than a brother…and that he will NEVER leave you or forsake you… for with HIM …all things are possible…Again, just Believe… Love to you all… Karen
hello all, I know it has been decades since I have last written, and for that I feel extremely guilty and like a very cr*ppy friend. so i am warning you now that this is going to be a long one. I am finally back at home in Fairport after being snowed in in Buffalo for a few days. Apparently Rochester did not get the snow storm that pelted Buffalo yesterday. This is the first winter in a long time that I can remember having two blizzards so close to each other. I truly BELIEVE these blizzards and all this snow is Jacquie’s way of saying that she still love white christmases, and ensuring that we have a white christmas this year. christmas and all of the holidays will be very different this year. i know for all of us it will feel like a part of us is missing, like the spark that gave the holidays it’s special light has gone out. i am trying so hard to be cheery and to put on a happy face. trying so hard to constantly keep the things that i am so thankful for, in the forefront of my mind, and trying so hard to smile when i think of our beautiful angel. sharon, torey, tj, i wish i had some better words to say. something that could ease the pain of the holidays. but of course there is nothing i, nor anyone, could say to make it better. i suppose you just have to feel it. the agony, the loss, of this time of year without your angel, will be horrible… but you will all make it out, and jacquie will be oh so proud of you. you will have the proudest angel in heaven. (i know you already do have the proudest angel, but she will somehow be even more proud). and you will have the proudest BELIVERS on earth. i know that i am continuously awed, and humbled, by your constant grace, and strength, and honesty through this horrible time. even before jacquie got sick, she made me want to be a better person. i know i have said this before, but she was one of those friends that you just never wanted to disappoint, because disappointing someone, like jacquie who you hold in such high esteem, is letting yourself and her down. after jacquie was diagnosed, she made me want to be a better person than i had ever tried to be. i was so proud to be her friend, so incredibly proud to call the bravest, most beautiful, wise, and caring person, my friend. and now sharon, torey, tj (and the rest of the extended hirsch clan), i am so proud to call you all my friends. jacquie didn’t become the amazing person we all knew her to be, on her own. the esteem that i have for jacquie has all transferred to you. you all make me want to be a better person, and along the same lines, you are all someone that i would not want to disappoint, and will always try my hardest to not disappoint.so during this holiday season, when the pain is so bad you feel like screaming, and ripping your heart out of your chest, just remember how proud jacquie is of you, even if it’s a day where all you can do is stay in bed and cry, it is still another day that you pushed on and made it through. know that you are all in our hearts, and even though you might feel alone, you are surrounded by a mountain of love. just cling tight to each other and to your memories. i love you all so muchxoxo <3 alicia <3 xoxo
oh goodness just reading that last message i did have to giggle a minute because tj was a hyer child!!! lol..it makes me remember when us girls would come to your house on burke and jacquie and all of us would get into trouble and always blame it on tj and you guys would always believe us! poor tj! love you all so much! miss you always jax, love, cousin angela
Tory, Tinks pro shop is sooooo amazing, and I hope your family has a super happy holiday! your family is always in the Glicks thoughts <3 WE BELIEVE!!!!!!!!!!
Sharon, Thinking of you, thinking of Jacquie with both a smile and a tear and believing in you and every step that you and Torey and TJ take and the ones you are not able to take, each day. Love, Sara
Sharon, Torey, and TJ- just wanted to let you know that i love you, and as much as i believe in jacquie, i believe that much in you too. Jax- so i know my 18th birthday is about 9 months away, but i’ve already decided that my gift to myself that day is going to be a tinkerbell tattoo in your memory. I found this snapshot from peter pan where she’s laughing hysterically, and it reminds me of you, so thats the one i’m getting 🙂 i miss you and i love you so much<3 i will always believe!
Hi Hirsch family,My thoughts and prayers are with you today and throughout the holiday season. I hope you are able to find some happiness in memories of Jacquie.Going along with what Tina said, there is little girl at Stong that was little Brandon’s friend. She is also four years old, and is/was in my niece’s preschool class. She was diagnosed in August with ALL, went into remission, and they found out this past weekend that the cancer is back. I’ve added the link incase anyone wants to check out her story. I just can’t get over the unfairness of such young people suffering and dying from this disease. I BELIEVE there is a cure…we just have to keep the faith!http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/annamckinneyGod Bless!
im cold…it was rainy for two days and it was in the low 40’s…i am wearing a hat and carhartt jackets daily…i did get soft… just that, nothing more… in my thoughts
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Angela says:
December 30, 2008 at 10:12 am -
somedays i read the site and i just dont know how it is possible that jax really is no longer with us, that it is permanent! how is this fair that we will never see you again?!?! mamma mia is coming back to sheas this feb. my dad bought me and danielle tickets for xmas. i remember the 1st time i saw mamma mia was with jax and grandma bree! what a great time we had. then we brought the fam back for the 2nd time we saw it. danielle and i were talking about it and we are not sure how we can make it through this show that we all had such a connection with. dancing queen….i have a pic on my entertainment stand jax and i dancing at sissys wedding! i miss you terribly jacquie. i wonder if you know how much we all miss you! i love you, i love you soooo much, cousin angela
Anonymous says:
December 30, 2008 at 8:54 am -
not a day goes by that i dont think of you guys. i love you with my whole heart.love you forever & always,meg d
Joe Browning says:
December 30, 2008 at 2:43 am -
Hello Hirsch’s My mom showed me an ornament before Christmas that she wanted to buy for her dad since her mom passed away. When I read what was written on it I wanted soo badly to send one to your family. The reason I didnt is because of how powerful the message is, and I figured it would just be too much to handle. It is very simple and poetic and I feel as though I must share it in some way. If you like it enough, I could direct you to where one of these ornaments may be purchased if you desired. Here is the writing on it: God saw her getting tired, a cure not meant to be, so He wrapped His arms around her, and whispered, “Come with Me.” I continue to feel great sorrow for you and Jacquie when I read things like these. Today was my little sisters birthday and I pulled the knife out since mine is next, when I made my wish, I wished for you to be healed from your loss, and I pray that it comes true. With Love, Joe Browning
Anonymous says:
December 29, 2008 at 8:36 pm -
Jax I miss you so much!
Demi Xenos says:
December 29, 2008 at 5:18 pm -
The Hirsch Family, Hey Torey, I love the new Tink Pro shop at the gym. It’s so great. Have a great break. You’re in our thoughts. Love: Demi Xenos
alicia says:
December 29, 2008 at 1:15 pm -
Beautiful Angel,with this unseasonably mild weather we’ve been experiencing, my mom had been opening all the windows to air out the house. anyway, my mom has some wind chimes in the front yard (small ones, not those huge obnoxious ones), and every time i hear the faint sound of them being blown about by the wind, a calm feeling comes over me. after this happened a few times, i realized that everytime i heard the chimes, i thought of you. so i just wanted to say thank you for once again letting me know you are all around, and for helping me see you in even the smallest of things. i love you and miss you so much. before i go, i wanted to leave you with some lyrics. i told you i was obsessed with the movie Mamma Mia and there is another song that completely reminds me of you. It is called “Chiquitita” and is about best friends helping one another through heartaches etc. Here are some pertinent lyrics, “ChiquititaYou and I cryBut the sun is still in the skyAnd shining above youLet me hear you sing once moreLike you did beforeSing a new songChiquitita”love you so much.xoxoxo <3 delisha <3 xoxoxo
Pat and Indie says:
December 29, 2008 at 10:29 am -
Dear Torey, Sharon and TJ and the entire Hirsch, DePeters family, Wanting to let you know that as always, you are in our hearts and pray for strength for each of you. We wish for comfort and peace as we enter 2009. May you feel Jax’s presence, her strength and her comfort, so that you may also begin to feel peace. Love always, Indie and Pat
Sara (albuquerque) says:
December 28, 2008 at 12:25 pm -
Just wishing this was not the way it was – there are no words, no thoughts, no answers…I care. Sara
alicia says:
December 27, 2008 at 10:48 pm -
it’s not enough to say that i miss you.
CIAO BELLAS says:
December 27, 2008 at 6:18 pm -
Sharon and Torey, I am writing on behalf of all the girls (I hope they don’t mind), I wanted you both to know how special you made our Holiday Dinner. We are amazed at the strength you have, to see us all gathered together that is courage. We know how hard it was for you, but it means the world to us that both of you and TJ are still apart of our lives and will always be. Just as Jacquie is always with us. We really love you and are always always here for you if you ever need anything at all. BELIEVING, Ciao Bellas
alicia says:
December 27, 2008 at 3:29 pm -
just sending some love your way.<3 alicia
Aunt Sheryl says:
December 27, 2008 at 11:00 am -
Dear Friends & Friends not yet met: I’d like to take a minute to thank everyone for your constant love & support to our family. Of course, this Holiday is very difficult; we are trying to figure out how to navigate through it, without Jacquie. I only put up my tree for Olivia (my granddaughter), & honestly, it doesn’t shine as brightly as Christmases past. And even though we set a place at the table & lit a special candle (we all know that Jax wouldn’t want to miss a meal!) we all felt something missing. As I read all the posts in this website, I continue to be amazed at how Jacquie has affected so many lives. She really was an Angel sent to us to teach us what matters and what’s important in life. I saw a quote that is “so Jacquie”.. “Our lives are not measured by what we have, but by what we give”. She gave us so much in the short time she was here on Earth, and still continues to give from Heaven. What an amazing Angel! So, again, thank you to everyone who writes, or just reads the posts, participates in Marathons, purchase items from the website store, or the Tink Pro Shop, donate blood or platelets, volunteer, make donations, help with fundraisers, or just continue to Believe. Believe that together we will make a difference in this fight against cancer. God Bless you & your families this Holiday Season. To My Dearest Angel Jacquie: Merry Christmas, Sweet Pea! Your Tinkerbell balloon, from the breakfast, still floats through my livingroom, so I know you’re watching over us-thank you! I, also, know that you are with your dad, mom & brother, but they are so sad, I’m not sure they always see or feel the signs of you. Maybe tonight you can give them an extra tight hug to let them know you’re there. Please be patient with us, Jax. Even though you are whole & happy again, we miss you terribly. What can I say? It wouldn’t be so hard, or hurt as bad, if we didn’t love you so much! Forever in my heart, Aunt Sheryl
SandyBanks says:
December 27, 2008 at 8:27 am -
Sharon, Toreyand T.J. just wanted to let you guys know that you are in my thoughts and prayers during this holiday season. I know what you guys are going through. It is not easy. but you have many family and friends to get you through this. while i was going through some things i found a plaque that i had recieved when the guy i wanted to marry had passed away .Iwould like to share it with everyone. I believe there are angels among us. Sent down to us from somewhere up above. they come down to you and me in our darkest hours. To show us how to live, to teach us how to give. to guide us with a light of love. I hope everyone has a healthy and safe new year.
Joe Browning says:
December 26, 2008 at 8:38 pm -
I know it has ben a long time since I last wrote, but I continue to remember Jacquie each and eery day. I was decorating my Christmas tree and Jacquies ornament was the first to go on, right in the middle, where its the first thing I see when I sit down. Surrounding it are heart and Angel ornaments, both perfect descriptors of Jacquie, today, yesterday, last year, and the day she was born. My grandmother passed away a few months ago so our Christmas was much different than tradition. We held the gathering at our house instead of hers, we didnt have her lasagna, or her physical love. My grandfather toasted her as a mother, a wife, a grandmother, and a great grandmother. It wasnt until that toast that I realised how much I missed her. I also noticed that 5 generations were present in the room. I really don’t know where Im going with this, but I want you to know that I continue to pray for your family and remember Jacquie in my heart and in my actions. Life makes some terrible turns sometimes and we need to try our best to turn with it and stay on the road. My love goes out to the Hirsch family and our guardian angel, Jacquie. ~Joe Browning
Jen (5 east nurse) says:
December 26, 2008 at 3:48 pm -
Thank you for the beautiful ornament for our tree! It is front and center so everyone can see and remember our time with Jacquie. We all know how hard this time is for you and you are all in our thoughts. We also know how difficult it must have been for you, Torey and TJ, to walk onto 5 East, but we really appreciated the visit. We all hope that you continue to heal as time passes. Thanks again for the special ornament 🙂
Anonymous says:
December 26, 2008 at 1:36 pm -
I thought of Jaq and your family a lot yesterday. I think of you everyday, but especially yesterday. I hugged my family a little bit tighter this year. I try to remember Jaq’s lesson to cherish each day and let those around you know how much you love them. I gave my mother the book “Why a Daughter Needs a Mother” and explained to her why I got the book. She gave me a huge hug and we cried a few tears. I miss you Jacquie, my sweet angel. Please comfort your family, especially your mom. I wish any of our hugs could make her feel your warmth! Much love and hugs… Kate
Anonymous says:
December 26, 2008 at 11:33 am -
Jax, I held my family close yesterday. The words faith, hope, love, and the meaning of Christmas itself, had new meaning to me this year. I don’t think I’ve ever celebrated the season with so much love. That’s because of you and everything that I’ve learned from you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for showing me the things that are important to BELIEVEin. All my love to you. Sharon, Torey, and TJ, The most wonderful gifts that I received this Christmas season, ANY Christmas season, were the lessons taught by your daughter. She was in every note of every Christmas song, she was the sparkle of each beaded ornament, she was the light of each Christmas star… and still, she is the light that is in each of you. Thank you for sharing her with us. When you miss her, turn to your own heart, where you will find her presence most strongly. You need look to further than that. We all love you unconditionally.
Sadie’s Mom says:
December 26, 2008 at 9:29 am -
I know this Christmas had to be one of the hardest days of your life. We had our tink ornament front and center and were thinking of your beautiful Jacquie. She’s not forgotten – even by those of us who were never lucky enough to meet her. I’m praying for you to have the strength you need to get through this.Barb
sadie says:
December 26, 2008 at 1:45 am -
I love you-Sharon, Torey, TJ and forever Jax… My heart aches for you today but you are forever being held in it. I am here if you need me- love you. <3 Sadie
Casey Stiokas says:
December 25, 2008 at 6:28 pm -
Sharon, Torey, and TJ, I just wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas, and let you know that all of the Veras that were purchased at Jax’s party are greatly loved. Miss Peeps especially loved her bag, although I believe her cousin Riley (also a pug) liked it just as much, he wouldn’t keep his head out of it when we opened it! I also wanted to send my deepest thanks to TJ for getting our Jacquie merchandise out to the house in one day, it was wonderful to wake up and come downstairs to my new Jacquie ornament hanging on the tree, right in the middle. God bless, and always remember that Jax is one of those angels that we continually sing about during this season, and all others. Casey
alicia says:
December 25, 2008 at 4:08 pm -
just wanted you all to know you are on my mind all day today (as you are everyday). i hope you are somehow able to find a little peace or comfort in knowing that there must be no better place to celebrate christmas than in heaven. but god knows that christmas will never be the same without having our angel down here with us.in my heart and on my mind 24/7. <3 alicia <3Beautiful Jac, my thoughts randomly drifted to the movie "it’s a wonderful life," and then to the very popular line "every time a bell rings, an angel gets her wings." that now has a new and very special meaning. i love you tink, and i still miss you so much that i ache, not only in my heart but i feel the ache in my bones. thank you for making this christmas a mild one. i know that with the rain yesterday it didn’t even feel like christmas eve, and for me, made the day a little easier. i miss you so much. christmas just isn’t the same without your big heart, bright smile, and warming laugh. i can hear your laugh right now actually, and that makes me so happy. i love you so much.
Huer says:
December 25, 2008 at 12:19 pm -
Merry Christmas, I just finished opening up my gifts and wanted to let you know that the best gift I got this year was a nice big VERA Bradley, I love it. Today is hard for so many reasons for so many people, but I was lucky to find some comfort knowing that Jax was with me today while opening my gifts. I hope that you guys get to have some great thoughts of Jax today, and I hope that you know she is with you always and especially today…and I Believe she is all around all of us. I love you. xoxo Ashley
Marietta says:
December 25, 2008 at 11:42 am -
Dearest Jacquie,I miss you more than words can say on this day my friend. I wish you a Merry Christmas and I know that you are an angel looking down on your family today and shining your love and strength down on them. Pauline’s Christmas card this year that she sent me said, “BELIEVE.” I always will tink and I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU. I’ll see you down in Disney in a couple of weeks :)Love, GirlfriendSharon, Torey and TJ,I wish you all your continued strength and love that you have shown for each other and all of Jacquie’s family, friends near and far, and fans (b/c trust me she has many!) this Christmas Day. I am heading out there to run in a few minutes and I wanted to let you know that you 3 and of course Jacquie are my inspiration for this marathon. I thank you for your donation and continued support for LLS. All four of you are angels to us all 🙂 Merry ChristmasAlways believing,Marietta
The Penetrante Family says:
December 25, 2008 at 11:32 am -
Torey, Sharon and TJ Jacquie has been a huge part of our Christmas. After church last night we drove by the Burke Drive house. We thought of all the amazing memories that were made there. We said special prayers for Jacquie and your entire family at church. Santa brought a lot of tink presents. We are not sure he knew to shop at the new Tink store but everyone was so excited. The gifts made Madison, Savannah and Anna smile. Jacquie is everywhere! Praying for all of you. We cannot image how hard this day is for all of you. The Penetrante and Colucci Families
Anonymous says:
December 25, 2008 at 10:56 am -
Merry Christmas, Jac. Things just aren’t the same without out. I hope that you’re having a great Christmas in Heaven. Please try to send some love to your family because I’m sure that they could use it.
The Xu-Friedman Family says:
December 25, 2008 at 10:29 am -
To Hirsch family, Happy Holidays! Just let you know that you are in our thoughts! The Xu-Friedman family
cmd says:
December 25, 2008 at 2:42 am -
Sharon, Torey, TJ and Jacquie-You are in or hearts always, but especially during the holidays. I pray that you will somehow find comfort in each other, your family and friends. We believe in you.With Much Love,The Dressels
M.A. says:
December 24, 2008 at 7:24 pm -
Jax,I spent some time sitting around thinking today and, as usual, my thoughts led to memories of you. Nothing in particular that stood out, just many happy memories of times we shared at Geneseo. I miss you a lot and think about you often each and every day. I still and will always believe…To the Hirsch family,I wish you the continued strength and grace that you have shown each day of this journey. I hope you are able to lean on each other and friends to get through this difficult time. You have quite a beautiful angel shining down on you!! Merry Christmas, JAX-MA
alicia says:
December 24, 2008 at 6:26 pm -
just wanted to quickly let you know a few things. first, we finally got our tree up and decorated and i saved a special spot on the tree for the most special ornament of all… my TINK ornament!!! i saved it to hang for last, and was so excited to hang it. it goes without saying that it is the brightest ornament on the tree, putting all the rest to shame. and every time i pass the tree, it sparkles at me, and i smile. i am so happy to have a bit of tink hanging on my tree for me to see all the time.i also wanted to let you know that i was getting some of my mom’s decorations around and i found this little pillow that i have never noticed before. i was digging stuff out from storage and there it was staring at me, i was soooo excited…. a beautiful pillow with the sole word BELIEVE on it, with a star next to the BELIEVE*. it made me so happy and every time i see that pillow i get so happy all over again.even though this christmas will not even feel like christmas without our beautiful tink, i will still be comforted by knowing that our angel truly is all around us. i wish i could make this holiday season go away for you. i wish i could put a sleeping spell on you and make tomorrow never happen.i wish i could make your pain go away. for all the human race can do, it seems one thing that can’t be done is erase hurt and pain. all we can do is be the best people we can be, and be the best friends we can be, to try to make the hurt a little less excruciating. please please please if there is anything i can do, you know i am a phone call away. a second doesn’t go by without you all crossing my mind. one last thing, i am obsessed with the movie Mamma Mia (i know it was a play before it was a movie but i am obsessed with the movie). and one of my most favorite songs in the movie is titled “i have a dream” and one of the main lines in the song is “i believe in angels, something good in everything i see”every time i hear that song i immediately think of Jacquie. not only because she is our beautiful angel, but because she has taught us all to enjoy and appreciate the little things, and that there is good all around us.i love you all so much. xoxoxo <3 alicia <3 xoxoxo
Anonymous says:
December 24, 2008 at 5:25 pm -
always thinking of you. love you always whit
Huer says:
December 24, 2008 at 3:58 pm -
Good Christmas Eve, I’ve been trying to think of something to write to you (and Jax) for the last few days, and I just don’t have the right words. I can’t even imagine how hard today and tomorrow are going to be. I’m sure there are going to be tears of sadness, anger, love, and sometimes happiness. Let those tears pour out, it’s okay. The Holiday’s are bittersweet. It is so wonderful or sweet to be able to celebrate with your loved ones and let them know much you care by giving a special gift or cooking a special meal. But it is bitter because you are reminded of the loved ones who arn’t with you physically anymore. I am truly sorry you are going through that bitterness, I really had prayed that Jax would be at home this Christmas. All of us girls hoped that we would be celebrating with Jacquie and that she would be better and we would be shopping and eating and drinking some nice wine with her. I know there isn’t much we can do, but Torey, TJ and Sharon please know I am here for you always and especially now. If there is anything that I could to do help at all please don’t hesitate to call me. I love you and am thinking of you. xoxoAlways Believingxoxo Ashley
Casey Stiokas says:
December 24, 2008 at 3:34 pm -
Sharon, Torey, and TJ, I know that there are no words that can bring comfort to you all during this time, but please know that you are always always on my mind. I also wanted you to know that when dad and I went to pick up our Veras yesterday, we got the chance to officially “eek” Clarence Center. And I do realize that it sounds funny to say dad had to pick up his Vera, but its true…and I’m pretty sure he was just as excited as I was:) Now lets hope that Miss Peeps will enjoy it as much as we do:) Much love to you all today and everyday. God bless, Casey
Anonymous says:
December 24, 2008 at 2:02 pm -
Dear Torey, Sharon, and TJ, You will constantly be in our thughts throughout the holidays. We are always thinking of Jacquie, and we are soblessed to know a family like you. Merry Christmas. With great love, The Maranto family
Sara (albuquerque) says:
December 24, 2008 at 1:31 pm -
Sharon, Torey, TJ and always Jacquie, Caring…always with you, ahead and behind of you… supporting every step and breath you take. Love, Sara and family
Amanda Cavarella says:
December 23, 2008 at 11:27 pm -
Dear Hirsch’s I love you all very much. I am thinking and praying for you all every day, especially during this holiday season. I know Jacquie is watching over us all with a big smile on her face. Always believing, Mandz
The Christie’s says:
December 23, 2008 at 7:56 pm -
Dear Sharon, Torey, and TJ, We miss you all terribly and love you so much! We all want you to know that we are thinking , praying and loving you from here in NC, CT. We feel connected to you over the past year for so many reasons. I, of course, am so tied to all of you, you make up my high school years. I’m blessed to have my children and husband feel so close to you all. We know the holidays will be difficult, but want you to know, as others have said before us, that we all are here for you. Lean on your friends, talk, we are here and so truly understand and love and feel for you. Take heart in knowing that Jax is here with us, in mind, spirit and love. Wishing you much peace and happiness this season, Love always, Indie, Pat , Anjalie and Ryan
Anonymous says:
December 23, 2008 at 7:05 pm -
Sharon, Torey and TJ… I wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you during the holidays….. Lynn and Brooks
Renee Weinrieb says:
December 23, 2008 at 4:43 pm -
Wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you always but especially during the holiday season. All of my good wishes will be sent to you this holiday season.Thank you for continuing to share your grief and pain on the website. I know you are helping hundreds, thousands, an infinite amount of mothers by sharing your story. Sincerely,Renee
Sara (albuquerque) says:
December 23, 2008 at 11:16 am -
A Hug and strength coming from Albuquerque. Jacquie- seeing your smile, missing you.
Angela says:
December 23, 2008 at 11:00 am -
good morning sweet jacquie i saw a rainbow on my way to work strange right!?!? were you saying hi? i miss you everyday!!!!!!!!!! i love you, cousin angela
Michael Stoughton says:
December 23, 2008 at 9:38 am -
there are stories of people in accidents, lifting trucks off of others, or pushing rocks away that a bulldozer would have a hard time moving, just normal people that find this moment of inner strength at a time off need…i have it all of the time, that is why my arms are so huge and i cant scratch my back…now that you are trying to picture that in your head, think of huge biceps getting in the way of reaching around to scratch in itch…very good… anyways…this inner strength is something we all have and at this time of year, please reach down in your hearts and in your mind and bodies, to send some of that to sharon torey tj and jacquie… you all have that inside of you, but may not be able to bring it out now… that is ok cause we are all here for you and will do the hard work, and carry you as needed, wherever, whenever… sharon…my quote…”a family that has lost needs friends to lean on and cry on…” use us…do not think of this as a burden…it is a burden we choose to bear and would do it over and over and over… that is love… christmas is the season of giving… remember all that jacquie gave us… may the newest angel in heaven shine down on all of us this christmas… peace
Sadie says:
December 23, 2008 at 12:05 am -
As usual Alicia said perfectly what was on all our minds… is it cheating to just say “ditto”?I love you guys and will be holding you so close this week. It will be a hard one I know – you can get through it. You will feel it and it will hurt so badly – this Christmas season just isn’t as bright without Jacquie physically here. She is here though in all of us and in everything – I see her everywhere as I know all the believers do. Keep going. Walk through this week, Jacquie will be wrapping her arms around you and we will all be sending you strength. I love you very much. Always, always Believing, <3 Sadie
Anonymous says:
December 22, 2008 at 4:03 pm -
Torey,Sharon and TJ… Thinking about all of you and saying an extra prayer today that God gives you the stength you need moment by moment to get through this Christmas season… Walk through the memories of Jacquie’s life with Joy and celebration that she no longer has cancer…always being reminded of her daily Love that she lavished upon you & all the others in her life…surely it will bring a smile to your face and be of comfort and peace within your hearts…Be assured….God is beside you, every step of the way …just ask for His help…He says he’s closer than a brother…and that he will NEVER leave you or forsake you… for with HIM …all things are possible…Again, just Believe… Love to you all… Karen
alicia says:
December 22, 2008 at 1:58 pm -
hello all, I know it has been decades since I have last written, and for that I feel extremely guilty and like a very cr*ppy friend. so i am warning you now that this is going to be a long one. I am finally back at home in Fairport after being snowed in in Buffalo for a few days. Apparently Rochester did not get the snow storm that pelted Buffalo yesterday. This is the first winter in a long time that I can remember having two blizzards so close to each other. I truly BELIEVE these blizzards and all this snow is Jacquie’s way of saying that she still love white christmases, and ensuring that we have a white christmas this year. christmas and all of the holidays will be very different this year. i know for all of us it will feel like a part of us is missing, like the spark that gave the holidays it’s special light has gone out. i am trying so hard to be cheery and to put on a happy face. trying so hard to constantly keep the things that i am so thankful for, in the forefront of my mind, and trying so hard to smile when i think of our beautiful angel. sharon, torey, tj, i wish i had some better words to say. something that could ease the pain of the holidays. but of course there is nothing i, nor anyone, could say to make it better. i suppose you just have to feel it. the agony, the loss, of this time of year without your angel, will be horrible… but you will all make it out, and jacquie will be oh so proud of you. you will have the proudest angel in heaven. (i know you already do have the proudest angel, but she will somehow be even more proud). and you will have the proudest BELIVERS on earth. i know that i am continuously awed, and humbled, by your constant grace, and strength, and honesty through this horrible time. even before jacquie got sick, she made me want to be a better person. i know i have said this before, but she was one of those friends that you just never wanted to disappoint, because disappointing someone, like jacquie who you hold in such high esteem, is letting yourself and her down. after jacquie was diagnosed, she made me want to be a better person than i had ever tried to be. i was so proud to be her friend, so incredibly proud to call the bravest, most beautiful, wise, and caring person, my friend. and now sharon, torey, tj (and the rest of the extended hirsch clan), i am so proud to call you all my friends. jacquie didn’t become the amazing person we all knew her to be, on her own. the esteem that i have for jacquie has all transferred to you. you all make me want to be a better person, and along the same lines, you are all someone that i would not want to disappoint, and will always try my hardest to not disappoint.so during this holiday season, when the pain is so bad you feel like screaming, and ripping your heart out of your chest, just remember how proud jacquie is of you, even if it’s a day where all you can do is stay in bed and cry, it is still another day that you pushed on and made it through. know that you are all in our hearts, and even though you might feel alone, you are surrounded by a mountain of love. just cling tight to each other and to your memories. i love you all so muchxoxo <3 alicia <3 xoxo
Angela says:
December 22, 2008 at 9:55 am -
oh goodness just reading that last message i did have to giggle a minute because tj was a hyer child!!! lol..it makes me remember when us girls would come to your house on burke and jacquie and all of us would get into trouble and always blame it on tj and you guys would always believe us! poor tj! love you all so much! miss you always jax, love, cousin angela
Allie Glick says:
December 21, 2008 at 2:36 pm -
Tory, Tinks pro shop is sooooo amazing, and I hope your family has a super happy holiday! your family is always in the Glicks thoughts <3 WE BELIEVE!!!!!!!!!!
Sara (albuquerque) says:
December 21, 2008 at 1:48 pm -
Sharon, Thinking of you, thinking of Jacquie with both a smile and a tear and believing in you and every step that you and Torey and TJ take and the ones you are not able to take, each day. Love, Sara
Anonymous says:
December 21, 2008 at 8:31 am -
Sharon, Torey, and TJ- just wanted to let you know that i love you, and as much as i believe in jacquie, i believe that much in you too. Jax- so i know my 18th birthday is about 9 months away, but i’ve already decided that my gift to myself that day is going to be a tinkerbell tattoo in your memory. I found this snapshot from peter pan where she’s laughing hysterically, and it reminds me of you, so thats the one i’m getting 🙂 i miss you and i love you so much<3 i will always believe!
amber from geneseo says:
December 19, 2008 at 7:05 pm -
Hi Hirsch family,My thoughts and prayers are with you today and throughout the holiday season. I hope you are able to find some happiness in memories of Jacquie.Going along with what Tina said, there is little girl at Stong that was little Brandon’s friend. She is also four years old, and is/was in my niece’s preschool class. She was diagnosed in August with ALL, went into remission, and they found out this past weekend that the cancer is back. I’ve added the link incase anyone wants to check out her story. I just can’t get over the unfairness of such young people suffering and dying from this disease. I BELIEVE there is a cure…we just have to keep the faith!http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/annamckinneyGod Bless!
Michael Stoughton says:
December 19, 2008 at 6:01 pm -
im cold…it was rainy for two days and it was in the low 40’s…i am wearing a hat and carhartt jackets daily…i did get soft… just that, nothing more… in my thoughts