If they make camoflague vera bradley bags, i’m in for two… hoping all of you some peace… tj…always a big brother…mopar rules, sorry torey…throw another log on that fire for me…pass the meatloaf sharon…i wish i had words for you…here are a few…albacore tuna…two toed sloth…michael clean your room i need you all to know i think about you and jacquie…it keeps me going forward with a new spirit… hang in there all…she is all around you
Sharon, I love that you felt Jacquie hugging you yestarday morning. My tears began to fall just like yours while reading your post, which is usually the case, and I am so happy that you had found that feeling and warmth you had been waiting to feel. Jacquies everywhere but always with you and in your house, I know this because there was no one better for Jacquie then you, and no where else she would rather be then at home! Expect more hugs, I know she can’t resist 🙂 My bear has a permanent spot in my bed too!..Miss you guys*
So I took a mini vacation with my husband and Cody. We went to Orlando for 4 days and spent most of our time at Universal, super hero land. I thought about Jacquie every day. For every spiderman, hulk,& iron man tee shirt, there were 2 Tinks, ON shirts, camis hats, & butts. And they were on every size of butt imaginable. I imagine what Jacquie might have said 🙂 After a long day at the park we went to Cody’s favorite restaurant, Hard Rock Cafe and there on the menu was the drink I had to order: A PINK TINK. We toasted to Jacquie with Cody’s favorite quote: MAKE IT COUNT. The quote, for those who don’t know is from the modern Titanic movie…a toast by the character Jack Dawson about life. Jacquie, Sharon and Torey knew my son Cody (who has Down syndrome) because he was a regular gymnastics fan when his sister competed, first at GBGC and then at North HS. Jacquie and Cody teach me every day to MAKE IT COUNT. Sharon, Torey and TJ teach me every day to make it count. I hope as each month passes it is easier for all of you to have joy in your lives again. Still Believing,Judy
I was soooo excited to get my ’EFF cancer’ t-shirt in the mail. I will wear it proudly and tell even more people about how amazing Jacquie and all of you are! I am thinking of you all constantly. I wish I was going to be home for the Vera party… Your family is truly amazing, teaching Jacquie’s lessons each and every day. Always Believing….
Dear Sharon, I know I have said this many times to you before, but I pray for you so much….. At all different times of the day or night. When ever I think of you,Torey, T.J. and Jacquie, I say a prayer. You are never far from my heart. Believing in your strength and courage. Missy
I am very excited for the Vera Bradley Party, I know Jacquie will bel there with us all! I think and pray for your entire family all the time. I miss you Jacquie and I am always believing, Love always, Amanda
This is the first time I have written on here, even though I have checked the website just about eveyday for the last 6 months. I hope you know how many people are really praying for you each and every day. I just wanted to let you know that I have joined the bone marrow registery and hopefully will be able to donate to someone who needs it. I have really been inspired by Jacquie and realize that I should be thankful and take advantage of every day. Hopefully the registry will find a match and I will be able to help someone fight this horrible disease.
It feels like yesterday that we went to Jacquie’s first “Vera” Party…it feels like she is talking to us and desperately sending us love and high spirits. Just like she spoke to us through that REAL Life Tinker Bell interview on ABC. Jacquie is everywhere, she always will be. I swear I can hear her talk, laugh, and crack a joke my way every night when I go to sleep. No wonder she always loved that “place between awake and sleeping”…because now thats where we always see her.I love you jax ~ Nicki
Sharon, Torey & TJ…I’m Praying for ALL of you today… may God continue to give you the strength, comfort and peace… Knowing without a doubt…that Jacquie has been taken home…where she is NEVER alone…you have been left with her amazing memories….while she flies amongst the angels…gently holding each of your hands…Listen to God …he is whispering to each of you…her soul is safe, her spirit is whole …she is just in the other room….and someday… before you know it…you’ll all be united again…as if time stood still…her sweet voice is telling you over and over … mom, dad, TJ… I love you sooooh much… please know I’m OK…Get on with your life and LIVE it like it’s your last…I want you all to laugh again… I want you to enjoy the sunshine and the rain…. it’s as if I can hear her too…. you have one amazing daughter… you have been so Blessed…. As I read your post today Sharon, I couldn’t help but think that it would be a good idea for you to try and call Lindsey’s mom , tell her exactly how you felt when hearing the sad news of her daughter…and then “share your story”… No one REALLY understands as well as someone who’s been there… I’m certain you may be of comfort to her …I love how you share your honest and painful feelings with us….keep writing …. others are learning from you…Just like Jax…so many learned from her… the apple didn’t fall too far ….now did it???Sharon you will be fine…make the call…you won’t regret it…. I Love You…Karen
sharon, i think that when we see people they do not see our “grief” but they feel the loss of our twinkle and the ache in our heart. They may not always know of jacquie’s story, but i can guarantee they sense the impact of the person we are all missing. And that is a continuation of jacquie’s impact on humanity- all the way from heaven. Gia told me the other day not to cry for jacquie because she was with Jesus. I told her that my tears are for her mom(you) who no longer has her around every day. When will they stop falling? Never, but maybe there will one day be a little more control over them. Loving you so much and holding on tight!!
how much fun is the vera party for jacquie going to be…she still brings the party and good times, i love you for that jacquie you never seem to stop reminding us to have fun and u are still with us! i love you forever! cousin angela
I am so sorry I have been so sporadic with my postings… it’s not because I don’t think of you all the time, it’s not because Jacquie doesn’t cross my mind 100x a day, it’s not because I don’t check the website (believe me, it is still always the first website I check whenever I go online). I have so much I want to say regarding the tragedy with Lindsay Matthews, and regarding Sharon’s latest post… but right now I just don’t think I can physically get it out. Just know that you are on my mind and in my heart ALL of the time.xoxo <3 alicia <3 xoxo
Good Afternoon!! A Vera Bradley party!!! I know that Jax is up there smiling big!! I still remember how excited she was to go with you (Sharon) to pick out a new vera after she had gotten sick, when the Perfect Gift opened up just for you guys. She said she felt “normal” for the day! I can still hear the excitement in her voice when she told us about it. I can’t wait to go to a Vera party dedicated to Jacquie!! xoxoxoxo Always believing, Ashley
A lot of times living so far away from the East coast is tough….I would love to be able to go to the Vera Bradley event/fundraiser and support the cause. I will have to send my mom for both of us!!! Thinking of you all with smiles and tears. Sara
Jacquie- I miss you, not a day goes by that you or your family are not in my thoughts and prayers. I still come visit your sight almost every day. I am constantly reminded of you and how you would want us all to live. I think we’re all doing our best, but how we all miss you beautiful girl!Sharon, Torey, TJ- everyday you’re in my thoughts and prayers…I hope that with each day your pain eases a little. I don’t think it’s something that will ever fully go away, but you will find a new normal. You will find a way to go on. And though Jacquie, is not physically with you, she is at your side at all times, making sure you all make it through this.
Hello Hirsch family, I was driving down the back roads through Geneseo today and as I approached a particular spot, I felt a presence in the passenger seat, and it hit me…this is where Jax would throw her eek out everyday on our way to school. She is with us each and every day, and even though we miss her so much, she is still here. On a side note, Dad and I are planning on coming on December 12 and we are extremely excited to see you! Sending my love and prayers, God bless, Casey
I’ve been meaning to write for the past week. I was friends with and went to highschool with Lindsay, and she was in my math classes because she was smarter than her grade. Everything that has been said about her couldn’t be more true, she was kind, compassionate, beautiful (inside and out), and so caring. I’d like to speak on behalf of both her and Jacquie in saying that there’s no doubt in my mind they are friends now (probably very good ones too). I know what you mean when you say hearing about that made you relive everything. When i went to the services for her it took everything i had not to scream for both her family and yours. I believed she would make it through because like you i couldn’t imagine this world losing another young person with so many dreams. This past week and a half I had a lot of trouble going to class. I didn’t see the point. Early in the week i managed to drag myself into going and i went to drive to class and just as i pulled out of my driveway, there parked on the side of the road was a minivan with a big TINK sticker on the back. I didn’t skip since then because i knew that was jax’s sign telling me i had to keep going. I hope you all know how often i think of you guys. I love you and i miss you. Always be on the lookout for those signs, she’s always watching 🙂
Jacquie, I missed you so much today..like everyday. Everytime i drive to work i listen to rascal flatts, and some mornings i do cry when i hear “Stand”, one of my all time fav songs. I want you to know I miss you, and I still see you almost every night in my dreams…especially when i most neeed it. It’s hard to know you’re not here…. I love you, and you have inspired me to be brave Love you always
Just letting you know I am thinking of you all today and always. Jax-I miss you so much and I continue to be inspired by you and the strength of your family. I love you and always believe in you. Love always, Amanda
Everyday but always on Saturday…a quite moment hits me hard and I recall, remember and think about you and your entire family. Missing you Jacquie, thinking of you Sharon,Torey and TJ- always! Sara and family
Sharon,I am Renee’s mom…i just read you entry about the young girl at genesco..you said you don’t think you know how to comfort that family but i think that you do…all you have done is so comforting to all of us who read you entries. you are braver than you think. it will take years i am sure for you to feel any better but you do so much to help all. Two days after Jax died a very good friend of ours enter the hospital to begin the same journey and he is still fighting to get to the place for the transplant…it so helps for me to be able to go back and read some of your entries about when you were at this stage. Yesterday he applied for a clinical trail as a last hope. please,in all your prayers,say one for him…he is 61 yrs old but that too is too young. Again i want to say how honored i am for having known Jax if only a little bit and being able to donate a few times for her…it truly was an honor to get to help in such a small way. always praying for you and your family and mine(renee and nichole)..becky roselli
Jacquie, Today I smiled and saw your beautiful smile in my eyes, as I sat, listened to your song “Stand” on your website and looked at the balloon pictures! Sharon- Hello to you, TJ and Torey. Next time we are in Clarence Center …Connor and Elise would love to see Shelby again and of course you and you know Elise will want to see TJ (hee hee)!!Love to you, Sara
Jacquie, Even though you are not physically with us, I know you are still here with us everyday in spirit. I know this because somehow everyday I feel your presence. Whether it is a tinkerbell sticker on the back of a car or the warm sun, I know you are here and I know you are in peace. I am still so touched by your strength and courage. I will never stop believing in you Jacquie.
Sharon, Reading your post I was once again amazed (though I’ve learned not to be surprised) by your compassion and grace. I was so with you praying for Lindsay. I believed that Geneseo and Buffalo would finally get a miracle… because how could the world be so unfair to take another away from us? I know that reading and hearing about Lindsay I did relive everything that we went through the week of September 6th and it was hard. I hate that you had to go through that again. I read a book once a few years ago called “90 Minutes in Heaven”. It is written by a man who was in a car accident and was actually dead for 90 minutes. The paramedics left him and went to work on others because he was dead. Well 90 minutes later he came back and he remembers everything that happened in that 90 minutes. He remembers heaven. Now maybe some people might not believe him but I did. He spoke genuinely and truthfully and it gave me comfort to know that something good awaits. One thing he talked about in great detail was the group of people waiting to greet him in heaven. He said that it was people he knew such as relatives and friends but also people he didn’t know on earth but was somehow linked to. I am certain that Jacquie was there to welcome Lindsay in. She may not have personally known her but they are certainly connected. I also know that anywhere I was to go, if Jax were a part of my welcoming committee I would be very happy to be there. This doesn’t change the fact that those of us here on earth are left with huge holes in our hearts and those holes may never be filled again. But for me knowing that Jax and Lindsay are okay, they are happy and free and together. It helps me.I love you all and think of you always. Always and forever believing, <3 Sadie
Dear Sharon,I’ve been thinking about you a lot since September 6th. I worry so about you- I think all of us moms and daughters do. I think that it is odd that if you were to have major surgery the doctors would tell you that it can take up to three years for your body to fully heal, and even then, you can’t expect to be exactly the same. Yet, somehow, you are expected to heal from a hole in your heart- move on- continue your life. HA.I can’t even imagine how you manage to go on. And, although your posts always make my heart break, I am so glad you continue to post…. to express your grief. Your body and soul have have gone through great trauma. Take the time you need to heal, and don’t beat yourself up for needing it. Remember to take care of yourself, as you did Jax. And remember to laugh with TJ and eat well- two things Jacquie enjoyed. You will be honoring your beautiful daughter, and helping yourself at the same time. :)Love to you, Torey and TJ
Dear Sharon Torey and T.J., Just Always know Im sending prayers of strength and love your way. Everywhere I turn I see The word BELIEVE,……and I do. Missy
I just wanted to share that after watching the horrible news story on Lindsay Matthews, I noticed that the purse/bag left on the road was a pink Vera Bradley bag.My thoughts and prayers are with the Matthews family.
Hirsch’s, I think about you every day…every long and busy day. I am frequently going through my day when suddenly something will remind me of you…so yesterday, right in the middle of the grocery store, i started to cry…i walked by a set of tink stickers and there you have it…i am so sorry about the girl at geneseo…i will pray for her family as well as yours…i miss you all and love you
Sharon,Today was especially difficult to get through reading your post. I feel for Lindsey’s family the way you do, and not only that but you said it perfect when you think of what another family is going through is like re-living the feelings we felt the week of September 6th. I want you to know that the way you share, talk, and give words of encouragement and advice in your posts is so comforting to me. I feel like I’m listening to you the way that Jax listened to you for 23 years. And you are so right, she wasn’t afraid to think for herself, be different, and voice her opinions. Just as you were in awe, I know I speak for “the girls” when I say we were all always in awe of how unique, strong, and different Jacquie was. I miss her so much, I know she is there but I miss knowing shes a phone call away – it hurts me to think about this, but it helps talking and remembering how special she is. so from the bottom of my heart, thank you.love,Nicki
I read your update today and felt compelled to write..my daughter was a friend of Jax and my son is a friend of Lindsay Matthews. Too much tragedy and sadness in such a short period of time. I think Karen Matthews would benefit greatly from speaking with you. Lindsay is every bit the wonderful person you read about.
So today I was driving along and suddenly I noticed the car in front of me had a tiny border plate around the license plate and it was black with stars and caught my attention…It said “Tink” on top and then “perfect pixie” on the bottom. I have never seen this one before and I smiled, I knew it was Jacquies special touch on my day as I have not seen one in awhile.Thanks Jacquie!! So sad to hear of the young girl in Geneseo. As I read your words Sharon, I immediately had strong thoughts of she and her family at such a heartbreaking time. Take care of you. Always thinking of you and caring! Sara
The news about young Lindsay is very sad to hear, but does remind me about something I read in one of Lance Armstrong’s books. He said that if he had to choose a way to die, it would be cancer. This sounds extremely profound, but he then goes on to explain why. He says its because the person gets a lot of time to say goodbye to all of his family and friends. I kow an eternity wouldn’t be long enough to say goodbye to Jacquie but you had longer than the loved ones of Lindsay, which makes her tragic accident even more painful. I will be sure to pray for her family and of course yours.
Hello Everyone. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about you, and pray for you as you struggle through what must still seem to be a nightmare. Please know that you are all cared for, and as much as we all tried in our own ways to fight for Jackie, we are still standing and fighting with you to make it through each day. In my own selfish way, I fear that God will take one of my children away sooner than should be. That fear has changed my perspective though – it has taught me to allow myself time to just enjoy life’s little moments with my kids and with my family. It has taught me to appreciate those moments of frustration as much as I cherish the moments of joy. Thank you to your family – and to Jackie for that life lesson. Sharon – I have not heard from you, and I worry about you. Please let me know when you are ready to talk. I am here for you any day, any time. With Love and Friendship Always, Kristen
Good Morning, Just wanted to send some love your way… I was thinking about one of the times that we were having a girls night in Jax’s room at Roswell, and I was blocking the door, the nurse came pushing in and slammed right into my chair, needless to say my chair ended up getting jammed in the handle and we had a h*ll of a time trying to get the chair “unstuck.” We laughed and laughed that night…I think of those times when I get sad. I hope you guys can remember a time when you all laughed with Jax over the past year and think of that today!! love you!! xoxox Ashley
Two nights ago I had a dream about Jacquie. I was surprised because I think about her all the time and this is only the second dream I have had of her. I never told anyone this but Thursday Sept. 4th, the night before traveling to Buffalo I dreamt of Jacquie. I was traveling to Spain on the 14th to live for 3 months and my friends were begging me to make the trip up to say goodbye. I finally agreed and booked my ticket. Nearly 30 minutes later I had gotten the news of Jacquie’s condition. “Everything happens for a reason” Jacquie would always say. At that time that statement was more than true.Worried about Jacquie I could barely sleep, but I managed to dose off for a few hours, only dreaming of her. She was happy and had a huge smile. She had her long blonde hair back and was perfectly straight (just the way she liked it). I was so excited to dream about her. Not only because it gave me hope but because that was the first time since Sept. 2007 that I had dreamt of her. Two nights ago I dreamt of her again. I had just returned from Paris, where I spent 4 days constantly thinking about Jacquie. I walked down the Champs de Elysees and passed the Disney store where a beautiful picture of Tink was placed on the front window. Of course I was thinking about her but after having seen that picture I knew that she was there with me.Returning back from Spain I checked the website. I could not stop thinking about her. I was full of regret and just wanted one more chance to talk to her. My dream that night was so real. I went to visit her knowing that that was the last time I would be able to see her. We hugged and cried and I gave her a kiss. I told her that I loved her and that she was my best friend. Sharon you consoled me and gave me a huge hug. Waking up from this dream I knew that that was my goodbye to her. Not being able to back in September I finally had my chance. I know that this does not mean that I will never see or think about Jacquie, it just means that I was able to remind her how much I cared about her and how much I loved her. She was my best friend. I was so lucky to have her in my life and I never took our relationship for granted. Jacquie, my best friend, you will never be forgotten. You continue to inspire me and hundreds more. You give people the courage and strength to live their lives and savor every moment. You were the best teacher I ever had. Not only through your battle but from the last 5 years of being your friend. I admire you and cant wait to meet again. You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That’s where I’ll always love you… That’s where I’ll be waiting. -Tinkerbell
hi, going along with sadie’s post, i am sorry for not posting much lately… things are getting so crazy with school (its getting to be that dreaded time). my thoughts still go to jacquie, and all of you, countless times throughout the day. keep hanging in there. i would always tell jac, you are stronger than you know, and sharon, torey, tj, extended hirsch family, believers etc. the same applies to all of you. YOU ARE STRONGER THAN YOU KNOW. sending infinite amounts of love to you all day and night long.in my heart & on my mind alwaysxoxoxo <3 alicia <3 xoxoxo
just wanted to say hi and we are thinking of all of you always! We love you and still believe. sharon you are stronger than you realize- we’ve all seen it over and over through the years. and we are all behind you to get you through whatever you need, however you need- that’s what friends and family do for each other!!
Hello Hirsch’s, I’m sorry that I haven’t written in a while. It isn’t for lack of thinking of you. I think of you constantly. Last weekend was my birthday. Last year Jax sent me a card and called me and was so great. This year there was such a conspicuous hole there. I just miss her so much. My friend Molly did make me a cake though and put a Tink candle on it. Plus at work they put a Tink balloon on my desk. Jax is spreading her Tink magic everywhere. I love you all very much and hope that today brings you some smiles. I hope that we get to see you soon. <3 Sadie
Sharon and family, you can rest assure that one cancer patient you are helping…everytime I start to doubt or need a little guidance this is the place I come. I listen to the site music and I remember how I need to fight the fight and continue to try and make my life that, something a person would follow and look up too. I have the same doubt and feeling of questioning why…but at the end of the day I believe in God and my purpose. I have joined in the fight of all fights for not myself but for all those who fight our fight, with each minute I try to make the best of each day. To be thankful is an understatment! Doubt is part of what what we are all made of. I know that each of us has a purpose and as hard as it may seem we fufill it even if we don’t realize we are doing it. What you need to be thankful for is Jacquie knew it before most of us would have. I can tell you that I will be at the next light the night walk not for myself but for Jacquie. Please believe in God and he will get you though this.
Sharon, I’ve started this a thousand times but I never can finish because there’s nothing I can say to ease the pain. I feel it everyday with you. Love, Mrs. P
I and the kids were driving this past weekend, came to a stop and what do I see in the back of the car in front of me, but a sticker of Tink!!! I have NEVER seen a sticker of tink on a car EVER!!! Not even the one time we went to Disney World!!! I even looked at the liscence plate to see if the car was from NY, in the off chance it was someone who was from Buffalo. Nope, it was a CT plate. To me, it was a sign that Jacquie is indeed here, looking around, looking over all of us. She is, we just need to be aware of the signs. It was a reminder to me to remind you, the Hirsch’s that this is so! Man, counting the days, the minutes, another anniversary, its not easy, not fun and very painful! I’ve been and am there! An anniversary, 6 years of my lost one comes this week. You don’t stop counting anniversaries, but you do eventually, unbelievably learn to live, in a different way. We are for the better and worst, shaped by the ones we love. And we should/must live on for the ones we love and for ourselves. It’s a choice. Like Karen said below, start with getting out of a chair, or bed. Life will be different, there will be a void in your heart, but the key is to live because there still is life and people who need us , and there are people we still do need in our lives. I’ve discovered that trying to figure out why?, what was the plan?, there was no plan! why now?, why our loved one who past?…it just doesn’t work, no answers ever seem to satisfy our minds. I guess the only thing that does work is why not me? What about all those people who are enduring x, y or z? Is the pain the most for us, who are here, or those who are gone? Life is hard, and unpredictable but it also can still be fullfilling. We are here, and if we don’t try to live, we will surely hurt not only ourselves but those who are here and we care about. You must choose in your own time, to engage or not… all in very, very small baby steps with the understanding that things are different now, but they don’t have to be hopeless and in time we can even enjoy , laugh and feel good, even for a minute,while still not forgetting our Jacquie, because for sure, she is laughing and enjoying with us……. She keeps sending signs that this is so!!!
For Jacquie, When I allow myself to listen to “Stand” I think about every memory of your tremendous fight against ALL and I think about how incredibly brave, strong and courageous you were with every step you went through and how loved and admired you will always be by so very many people including me! Sharon- a hand is always there if you squeeze really tight even though I am way out in NM. SaraPS: Nice Michael, that was a classic, So glad you are finally working on typing without looking.
Dear Sharon and the rest of the amazing Hirsch family, I continue to check the posts on this site almost daily and my heart breaks to think about what this last year and a half has been like for you. I’ve never written a message because I’ve never known the right words to take away even some of the pain you must feel. I was a friend of Jacquie’s, I didn’t know her as well as many others seem to, but I can honestly say she was truly beautiful inside and out. Sharon-I read your recent post about not feeling strong..you are SO strong, so much stronger than you even realize and that strength is what I am sure helped Jacquie on so many days when perhaps maybe she didn’t feel so strong on her own. -A daughter needs a mother to help them stand on days they would rather stay in bed!-I am sure you more than did this for Jacquie..not just while she was sick but through her entire life!!! You are very courageous, and I know your strength will get you through this difficult time, and on the days you don’t feel so strong you must know there is an army of friends, family, and strangers ready to help carry you through. I heard the most beautiful quote this week for the first time and I just have to share it… “The will of God will never take you where the grace of God will not protect you”. Though so many things in this world seem to make no sense at all, and though none of us can understand WHY this had to happen…there is a lot of comfort in that quote and I feel that in it holds some truth. Thank you again, Hirsch family for sharing your family and your thoughts with us.I know it is far from easy, but I think your family is teaching all of us how to live better lives, to be better friends, parents, siblings and people. Your family has touched me in a way too powerful for words. I’m thinking of you guys all of the time, try to smile at the littlest things or at happy memories of Jacquie because you are amazing people and certainly deserve to smile once in a while :o) I don’t think I ever saw Jacquie without a smile on her face and I am sure she wouldn’t want you walking around without smiles on YOUR faces!
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Michael Stoughton says:
November 19, 2008 at 5:37 pm -
If they make camoflague vera bradley bags, i’m in for two… hoping all of you some peace… tj…always a big brother…mopar rules, sorry torey…throw another log on that fire for me…pass the meatloaf sharon…i wish i had words for you…here are a few…albacore tuna…two toed sloth…michael clean your room i need you all to know i think about you and jacquie…it keeps me going forward with a new spirit… hang in there all…she is all around you
Caitlin Burgher says:
November 19, 2008 at 4:16 pm -
Sharon, I love that you felt Jacquie hugging you yestarday morning. My tears began to fall just like yours while reading your post, which is usually the case, and I am so happy that you had found that feeling and warmth you had been waiting to feel. Jacquies everywhere but always with you and in your house, I know this because there was no one better for Jacquie then you, and no where else she would rather be then at home! Expect more hugs, I know she can’t resist 🙂 My bear has a permanent spot in my bed too!..Miss you guys*
Judy Redding says:
November 19, 2008 at 3:44 pm -
So I took a mini vacation with my husband and Cody. We went to Orlando for 4 days and spent most of our time at Universal, super hero land. I thought about Jacquie every day. For every spiderman, hulk,& iron man tee shirt, there were 2 Tinks, ON shirts, camis hats, & butts. And they were on every size of butt imaginable. I imagine what Jacquie might have said 🙂 After a long day at the park we went to Cody’s favorite restaurant, Hard Rock Cafe and there on the menu was the drink I had to order: A PINK TINK. We toasted to Jacquie with Cody’s favorite quote: MAKE IT COUNT. The quote, for those who don’t know is from the modern Titanic movie…a toast by the character Jack Dawson about life. Jacquie, Sharon and Torey knew my son Cody (who has Down syndrome) because he was a regular gymnastics fan when his sister competed, first at GBGC and then at North HS. Jacquie and Cody teach me every day to MAKE IT COUNT. Sharon, Torey and TJ teach me every day to make it count. I hope as each month passes it is easier for all of you to have joy in your lives again. Still Believing,Judy
Jen L says:
November 19, 2008 at 12:03 pm -
my love, thoughts, and prayers are with you hirsch’s. i think of jacquie everyday.
Pinchoff says:
November 19, 2008 at 10:04 am -
I was soooo excited to get my ’EFF cancer’ t-shirt in the mail. I will wear it proudly and tell even more people about how amazing Jacquie and all of you are! I am thinking of you all constantly. I wish I was going to be home for the Vera party… Your family is truly amazing, teaching Jacquie’s lessons each and every day. Always Believing….
John says:
November 19, 2008 at 8:00 am -
Ralf says:
November 18, 2008 at 9:10 pm -
Missy says:
November 18, 2008 at 8:00 pm -
Dear Sharon, I know I have said this many times to you before, but I pray for you so much….. At all different times of the day or night. When ever I think of you,Torey, T.J. and Jacquie, I say a prayer. You are never far from my heart. Believing in your strength and courage. Missy
Amanda Cavarella says:
November 18, 2008 at 12:29 pm -
I am very excited for the Vera Bradley Party, I know Jacquie will bel there with us all! I think and pray for your entire family all the time. I miss you Jacquie and I am always believing, Love always, Amanda
Nick Minunni says:
November 18, 2008 at 9:24 am -
This is the first time I have written on here, even though I have checked the website just about eveyday for the last 6 months. I hope you know how many people are really praying for you each and every day. I just wanted to let you know that I have joined the bone marrow registery and hopefully will be able to donate to someone who needs it. I have really been inspired by Jacquie and realize that I should be thankful and take advantage of every day. Hopefully the registry will find a match and I will be able to help someone fight this horrible disease.
Max says:
November 18, 2008 at 2:22 am -
Nicki LaGree says:
November 18, 2008 at 2:19 am -
It feels like yesterday that we went to Jacquie’s first “Vera” Party…it feels like she is talking to us and desperately sending us love and high spirits. Just like she spoke to us through that REAL Life Tinker Bell interview on ABC. Jacquie is everywhere, she always will be. I swear I can hear her talk, laugh, and crack a joke my way every night when I go to sleep. No wonder she always loved that “place between awake and sleeping”…because now thats where we always see her.I love you jax ~ Nicki
Karen Kacko Calandra says:
November 17, 2008 at 5:45 pm -
Sharon, Torey & TJ…I’m Praying for ALL of you today… may God continue to give you the strength, comfort and peace… Knowing without a doubt…that Jacquie has been taken home…where she is NEVER alone…you have been left with her amazing memories….while she flies amongst the angels…gently holding each of your hands…Listen to God …he is whispering to each of you…her soul is safe, her spirit is whole …she is just in the other room….and someday… before you know it…you’ll all be united again…as if time stood still…her sweet voice is telling you over and over … mom, dad, TJ… I love you sooooh much… please know I’m OK…Get on with your life and LIVE it like it’s your last…I want you all to laugh again… I want you to enjoy the sunshine and the rain…. it’s as if I can hear her too…. you have one amazing daughter… you have been so Blessed…. As I read your post today Sharon, I couldn’t help but think that it would be a good idea for you to try and call Lindsey’s mom , tell her exactly how you felt when hearing the sad news of her daughter…and then “share your story”… No one REALLY understands as well as someone who’s been there… I’m certain you may be of comfort to her …I love how you share your honest and painful feelings with us….keep writing …. others are learning from you…Just like Jax…so many learned from her… the apple didn’t fall too far ….now did it???Sharon you will be fine…make the call…you won’t regret it…. I Love You…Karen
sue says:
November 17, 2008 at 5:10 pm -
sharon, i think that when we see people they do not see our “grief” but they feel the loss of our twinkle and the ache in our heart. They may not always know of jacquie’s story, but i can guarantee they sense the impact of the person we are all missing. And that is a continuation of jacquie’s impact on humanity- all the way from heaven. Gia told me the other day not to cry for jacquie because she was with Jesus. I told her that my tears are for her mom(you) who no longer has her around every day. When will they stop falling? Never, but maybe there will one day be a little more control over them. Loving you so much and holding on tight!!
Angela says:
November 17, 2008 at 2:23 pm -
how much fun is the vera party for jacquie going to be…she still brings the party and good times, i love you for that jacquie you never seem to stop reminding us to have fun and u are still with us! i love you forever! cousin angela
alicia says:
November 17, 2008 at 1:34 pm -
I am so sorry I have been so sporadic with my postings… it’s not because I don’t think of you all the time, it’s not because Jacquie doesn’t cross my mind 100x a day, it’s not because I don’t check the website (believe me, it is still always the first website I check whenever I go online). I have so much I want to say regarding the tragedy with Lindsay Matthews, and regarding Sharon’s latest post… but right now I just don’t think I can physically get it out. Just know that you are on my mind and in my heart ALL of the time.xoxo <3 alicia <3 xoxo
Huer says:
November 17, 2008 at 12:13 pm -
Good Afternoon!! A Vera Bradley party!!! I know that Jax is up there smiling big!! I still remember how excited she was to go with you (Sharon) to pick out a new vera after she had gotten sick, when the Perfect Gift opened up just for you guys. She said she felt “normal” for the day! I can still hear the excitement in her voice when she told us about it. I can’t wait to go to a Vera party dedicated to Jacquie!! xoxoxoxo Always believing, Ashley
Sara (albuquerque) says:
November 17, 2008 at 12:43 am -
A lot of times living so far away from the East coast is tough….I would love to be able to go to the Vera Bradley event/fundraiser and support the cause. I will have to send my mom for both of us!!! Thinking of you all with smiles and tears. Sara
Melissa says:
November 16, 2008 at 10:22 pm -
Jacquie- I miss you, not a day goes by that you or your family are not in my thoughts and prayers. I still come visit your sight almost every day. I am constantly reminded of you and how you would want us all to live. I think we’re all doing our best, but how we all miss you beautiful girl!Sharon, Torey, TJ- everyday you’re in my thoughts and prayers…I hope that with each day your pain eases a little. I don’t think it’s something that will ever fully go away, but you will find a new normal. You will find a way to go on. And though Jacquie, is not physically with you, she is at your side at all times, making sure you all make it through this.
Casey Stiokas says:
November 16, 2008 at 10:06 pm -
Hello Hirsch family, I was driving down the back roads through Geneseo today and as I approached a particular spot, I felt a presence in the passenger seat, and it hit me…this is where Jax would throw her eek out everyday on our way to school. She is with us each and every day, and even though we miss her so much, she is still here. On a side note, Dad and I are planning on coming on December 12 and we are extremely excited to see you! Sending my love and prayers, God bless, Casey
Lil lil/Ali says:
November 16, 2008 at 2:18 pm -
I’ve been meaning to write for the past week. I was friends with and went to highschool with Lindsay, and she was in my math classes because she was smarter than her grade. Everything that has been said about her couldn’t be more true, she was kind, compassionate, beautiful (inside and out), and so caring. I’d like to speak on behalf of both her and Jacquie in saying that there’s no doubt in my mind they are friends now (probably very good ones too). I know what you mean when you say hearing about that made you relive everything. When i went to the services for her it took everything i had not to scream for both her family and yours. I believed she would make it through because like you i couldn’t imagine this world losing another young person with so many dreams. This past week and a half I had a lot of trouble going to class. I didn’t see the point. Early in the week i managed to drag myself into going and i went to drive to class and just as i pulled out of my driveway, there parked on the side of the road was a minivan with a big TINK sticker on the back. I didn’t skip since then because i knew that was jax’s sign telling me i had to keep going. I hope you all know how often i think of you guys. I love you and i miss you. Always be on the lookout for those signs, she’s always watching 🙂
Anonymous says:
November 16, 2008 at 1:20 am -
Jacquie, I missed you so much today..like everyday. Everytime i drive to work i listen to rascal flatts, and some mornings i do cry when i hear “Stand”, one of my all time fav songs. I want you to know I miss you, and I still see you almost every night in my dreams…especially when i most neeed it. It’s hard to know you’re not here…. I love you, and you have inspired me to be brave Love you always
Amanda Cavarella says:
November 15, 2008 at 11:25 pm -
Just letting you know I am thinking of you all today and always. Jax-I miss you so much and I continue to be inspired by you and the strength of your family. I love you and always believe in you. Love always, Amanda
Sara (albuquerque) says:
November 15, 2008 at 3:23 pm -
Everyday but always on Saturday…a quite moment hits me hard and I recall, remember and think about you and your entire family. Missing you Jacquie, thinking of you Sharon,Torey and TJ- always! Sara and family
becky roselli says:
November 15, 2008 at 12:33 pm -
Sharon,I am Renee’s mom…i just read you entry about the young girl at genesco..you said you don’t think you know how to comfort that family but i think that you do…all you have done is so comforting to all of us who read you entries. you are braver than you think. it will take years i am sure for you to feel any better but you do so much to help all. Two days after Jax died a very good friend of ours enter the hospital to begin the same journey and he is still fighting to get to the place for the transplant…it so helps for me to be able to go back and read some of your entries about when you were at this stage. Yesterday he applied for a clinical trail as a last hope. please,in all your prayers,say one for him…he is 61 yrs old but that too is too young. Again i want to say how honored i am for having known Jax if only a little bit and being able to donate a few times for her…it truly was an honor to get to help in such a small way. always praying for you and your family and mine(renee and nichole)..becky roselli
Sara (albuquerque) says:
November 14, 2008 at 5:56 pm -
Jacquie, Today I smiled and saw your beautiful smile in my eyes, as I sat, listened to your song “Stand” on your website and looked at the balloon pictures! Sharon- Hello to you, TJ and Torey. Next time we are in Clarence Center …Connor and Elise would love to see Shelby again and of course you and you know Elise will want to see TJ (hee hee)!!Love to you, Sara
Angela says:
November 14, 2008 at 1:03 pm -
Missing you more today than ever!!!! I Love you, cousin Angela
Amanda Parisi says:
November 14, 2008 at 11:56 am -
Jacquie, Even though you are not physically with us, I know you are still here with us everyday in spirit. I know this because somehow everyday I feel your presence. Whether it is a tinkerbell sticker on the back of a car or the warm sun, I know you are here and I know you are in peace. I am still so touched by your strength and courage. I will never stop believing in you Jacquie.
Sadie says:
November 14, 2008 at 8:54 am -
Sharon, Reading your post I was once again amazed (though I’ve learned not to be surprised) by your compassion and grace. I was so with you praying for Lindsay. I believed that Geneseo and Buffalo would finally get a miracle… because how could the world be so unfair to take another away from us? I know that reading and hearing about Lindsay I did relive everything that we went through the week of September 6th and it was hard. I hate that you had to go through that again. I read a book once a few years ago called “90 Minutes in Heaven”. It is written by a man who was in a car accident and was actually dead for 90 minutes. The paramedics left him and went to work on others because he was dead. Well 90 minutes later he came back and he remembers everything that happened in that 90 minutes. He remembers heaven. Now maybe some people might not believe him but I did. He spoke genuinely and truthfully and it gave me comfort to know that something good awaits. One thing he talked about in great detail was the group of people waiting to greet him in heaven. He said that it was people he knew such as relatives and friends but also people he didn’t know on earth but was somehow linked to. I am certain that Jacquie was there to welcome Lindsay in. She may not have personally known her but they are certainly connected. I also know that anywhere I was to go, if Jax were a part of my welcoming committee I would be very happy to be there. This doesn’t change the fact that those of us here on earth are left with huge holes in our hearts and those holes may never be filled again. But for me knowing that Jax and Lindsay are okay, they are happy and free and together. It helps me.I love you all and think of you always. Always and forever believing, <3 Sadie
cmd says:
November 13, 2008 at 11:52 pm -
Dear Sharon,I’ve been thinking about you a lot since September 6th. I worry so about you- I think all of us moms and daughters do. I think that it is odd that if you were to have major surgery the doctors would tell you that it can take up to three years for your body to fully heal, and even then, you can’t expect to be exactly the same. Yet, somehow, you are expected to heal from a hole in your heart- move on- continue your life. HA.I can’t even imagine how you manage to go on. And, although your posts always make my heart break, I am so glad you continue to post…. to express your grief. Your body and soul have have gone through great trauma. Take the time you need to heal, and don’t beat yourself up for needing it. Remember to take care of yourself, as you did Jax. And remember to laugh with TJ and eat well- two things Jacquie enjoyed. You will be honoring your beautiful daughter, and helping yourself at the same time. :)Love to you, Torey and TJ
missy says:
November 13, 2008 at 7:36 pm -
Dear Sharon Torey and T.J., Just Always know Im sending prayers of strength and love your way. Everywhere I turn I see The word BELIEVE,……and I do. Missy
Nicki LaGree says:
November 13, 2008 at 5:27 pm -
I just wanted to share that after watching the horrible news story on Lindsay Matthews, I noticed that the purse/bag left on the road was a pink Vera Bradley bag.My thoughts and prayers are with the Matthews family.
sue says:
November 13, 2008 at 5:13 pm -
Hirsch’s, I think about you every day…every long and busy day. I am frequently going through my day when suddenly something will remind me of you…so yesterday, right in the middle of the grocery store, i started to cry…i walked by a set of tink stickers and there you have it…i am so sorry about the girl at geneseo…i will pray for her family as well as yours…i miss you all and love you
Nicki LaGree says:
November 13, 2008 at 5:10 pm -
Sharon,Today was especially difficult to get through reading your post. I feel for Lindsey’s family the way you do, and not only that but you said it perfect when you think of what another family is going through is like re-living the feelings we felt the week of September 6th. I want you to know that the way you share, talk, and give words of encouragement and advice in your posts is so comforting to me. I feel like I’m listening to you the way that Jax listened to you for 23 years. And you are so right, she wasn’t afraid to think for herself, be different, and voice her opinions. Just as you were in awe, I know I speak for “the girls” when I say we were all always in awe of how unique, strong, and different Jacquie was. I miss her so much, I know she is there but I miss knowing shes a phone call away – it hurts me to think about this, but it helps talking and remembering how special she is. so from the bottom of my heart, thank you.love,Nicki
Diane Klein (Jess’s mom) says:
November 13, 2008 at 3:20 pm -
I read your update today and felt compelled to write..my daughter was a friend of Jax and my son is a friend of Lindsay Matthews. Too much tragedy and sadness in such a short period of time. I think Karen Matthews would benefit greatly from speaking with you. Lindsay is every bit the wonderful person you read about.
Sara (albuquerque) says:
November 13, 2008 at 2:54 pm -
So today I was driving along and suddenly I noticed the car in front of me had a tiny border plate around the license plate and it was black with stars and caught my attention…It said “Tink” on top and then “perfect pixie” on the bottom. I have never seen this one before and I smiled, I knew it was Jacquies special touch on my day as I have not seen one in awhile.Thanks Jacquie!! So sad to hear of the young girl in Geneseo. As I read your words Sharon, I immediately had strong thoughts of she and her family at such a heartbreaking time. Take care of you. Always thinking of you and caring! Sara
Joe Browning says:
November 13, 2008 at 2:22 pm -
The news about young Lindsay is very sad to hear, but does remind me about something I read in one of Lance Armstrong’s books. He said that if he had to choose a way to die, it would be cancer. This sounds extremely profound, but he then goes on to explain why. He says its because the person gets a lot of time to say goodbye to all of his family and friends. I kow an eternity wouldn’t be long enough to say goodbye to Jacquie but you had longer than the loved ones of Lindsay, which makes her tragic accident even more painful. I will be sure to pray for her family and of course yours.
aunt val says:
November 13, 2008 at 11:19 am -
today is another day…i will mourn today, but i will do this day justice, in your honor.
Kristen Klyczek says:
November 13, 2008 at 9:51 am -
Hello Everyone. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about you, and pray for you as you struggle through what must still seem to be a nightmare. Please know that you are all cared for, and as much as we all tried in our own ways to fight for Jackie, we are still standing and fighting with you to make it through each day. In my own selfish way, I fear that God will take one of my children away sooner than should be. That fear has changed my perspective though – it has taught me to allow myself time to just enjoy life’s little moments with my kids and with my family. It has taught me to appreciate those moments of frustration as much as I cherish the moments of joy. Thank you to your family – and to Jackie for that life lesson. Sharon – I have not heard from you, and I worry about you. Please let me know when you are ready to talk. I am here for you any day, any time. With Love and Friendship Always, Kristen
Huer says:
November 13, 2008 at 8:47 am -
Good Morning, Just wanted to send some love your way… I was thinking about one of the times that we were having a girls night in Jax’s room at Roswell, and I was blocking the door, the nurse came pushing in and slammed right into my chair, needless to say my chair ended up getting jammed in the handle and we had a h*ll of a time trying to get the chair “unstuck.” We laughed and laughed that night…I think of those times when I get sad. I hope you guys can remember a time when you all laughed with Jax over the past year and think of that today!! love you!! xoxox Ashley
justine diaz says:
November 13, 2008 at 7:35 am -
Two nights ago I had a dream about Jacquie. I was surprised because I think about her all the time and this is only the second dream I have had of her. I never told anyone this but Thursday Sept. 4th, the night before traveling to Buffalo I dreamt of Jacquie. I was traveling to Spain on the 14th to live for 3 months and my friends were begging me to make the trip up to say goodbye. I finally agreed and booked my ticket. Nearly 30 minutes later I had gotten the news of Jacquie’s condition. “Everything happens for a reason” Jacquie would always say. At that time that statement was more than true.Worried about Jacquie I could barely sleep, but I managed to dose off for a few hours, only dreaming of her. She was happy and had a huge smile. She had her long blonde hair back and was perfectly straight (just the way she liked it). I was so excited to dream about her. Not only because it gave me hope but because that was the first time since Sept. 2007 that I had dreamt of her. Two nights ago I dreamt of her again. I had just returned from Paris, where I spent 4 days constantly thinking about Jacquie. I walked down the Champs de Elysees and passed the Disney store where a beautiful picture of Tink was placed on the front window. Of course I was thinking about her but after having seen that picture I knew that she was there with me.Returning back from Spain I checked the website. I could not stop thinking about her. I was full of regret and just wanted one more chance to talk to her. My dream that night was so real. I went to visit her knowing that that was the last time I would be able to see her. We hugged and cried and I gave her a kiss. I told her that I loved her and that she was my best friend. Sharon you consoled me and gave me a huge hug. Waking up from this dream I knew that that was my goodbye to her. Not being able to back in September I finally had my chance. I know that this does not mean that I will never see or think about Jacquie, it just means that I was able to remind her how much I cared about her and how much I loved her. She was my best friend. I was so lucky to have her in my life and I never took our relationship for granted. Jacquie, my best friend, you will never be forgotten. You continue to inspire me and hundreds more. You give people the courage and strength to live their lives and savor every moment. You were the best teacher I ever had. Not only through your battle but from the last 5 years of being your friend. I admire you and cant wait to meet again. You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That’s where I’ll always love you… That’s where I’ll be waiting. -Tinkerbell
alicia says:
November 12, 2008 at 11:18 pm -
hi, going along with sadie’s post, i am sorry for not posting much lately… things are getting so crazy with school (its getting to be that dreaded time). my thoughts still go to jacquie, and all of you, countless times throughout the day. keep hanging in there. i would always tell jac, you are stronger than you know, and sharon, torey, tj, extended hirsch family, believers etc. the same applies to all of you. YOU ARE STRONGER THAN YOU KNOW. sending infinite amounts of love to you all day and night long.in my heart & on my mind alwaysxoxoxo <3 alicia <3 xoxoxo
the keilly’s says:
November 12, 2008 at 10:16 pm -
just wanted to say hi and we are thinking of all of you always! We love you and still believe. sharon you are stronger than you realize- we’ve all seen it over and over through the years. and we are all behind you to get you through whatever you need, however you need- that’s what friends and family do for each other!!
Sadie says:
November 12, 2008 at 1:25 pm -
Hello Hirsch’s, I’m sorry that I haven’t written in a while. It isn’t for lack of thinking of you. I think of you constantly. Last weekend was my birthday. Last year Jax sent me a card and called me and was so great. This year there was such a conspicuous hole there. I just miss her so much. My friend Molly did make me a cake though and put a Tink candle on it. Plus at work they put a Tink balloon on my desk. Jax is spreading her Tink magic everywhere. I love you all very much and hope that today brings you some smiles. I hope that we get to see you soon. <3 Sadie
Ralf says:
November 12, 2008 at 6:48 am -
christine seiders cornwell says:
November 11, 2008 at 11:00 pm -
Sharon and family, you can rest assure that one cancer patient you are helping…everytime I start to doubt or need a little guidance this is the place I come. I listen to the site music and I remember how I need to fight the fight and continue to try and make my life that, something a person would follow and look up too. I have the same doubt and feeling of questioning why…but at the end of the day I believe in God and my purpose. I have joined in the fight of all fights for not myself but for all those who fight our fight, with each minute I try to make the best of each day. To be thankful is an understatment! Doubt is part of what what we are all made of. I know that each of us has a purpose and as hard as it may seem we fufill it even if we don’t realize we are doing it. What you need to be thankful for is Jacquie knew it before most of us would have. I can tell you that I will be at the next light the night walk not for myself but for Jacquie. Please believe in God and he will get you though this.
Mrs. P says:
November 11, 2008 at 8:36 pm -
Sharon, I’ve started this a thousand times but I never can finish because there’s nothing I can say to ease the pain. I feel it everyday with you. Love, Mrs. P
Indie says:
November 11, 2008 at 8:35 pm -
I and the kids were driving this past weekend, came to a stop and what do I see in the back of the car in front of me, but a sticker of Tink!!! I have NEVER seen a sticker of tink on a car EVER!!! Not even the one time we went to Disney World!!! I even looked at the liscence plate to see if the car was from NY, in the off chance it was someone who was from Buffalo. Nope, it was a CT plate. To me, it was a sign that Jacquie is indeed here, looking around, looking over all of us. She is, we just need to be aware of the signs. It was a reminder to me to remind you, the Hirsch’s that this is so! Man, counting the days, the minutes, another anniversary, its not easy, not fun and very painful! I’ve been and am there! An anniversary, 6 years of my lost one comes this week. You don’t stop counting anniversaries, but you do eventually, unbelievably learn to live, in a different way. We are for the better and worst, shaped by the ones we love. And we should/must live on for the ones we love and for ourselves. It’s a choice. Like Karen said below, start with getting out of a chair, or bed. Life will be different, there will be a void in your heart, but the key is to live because there still is life and people who need us , and there are people we still do need in our lives. I’ve discovered that trying to figure out why?, what was the plan?, there was no plan! why now?, why our loved one who past?…it just doesn’t work, no answers ever seem to satisfy our minds. I guess the only thing that does work is why not me? What about all those people who are enduring x, y or z? Is the pain the most for us, who are here, or those who are gone? Life is hard, and unpredictable but it also can still be fullfilling. We are here, and if we don’t try to live, we will surely hurt not only ourselves but those who are here and we care about. You must choose in your own time, to engage or not… all in very, very small baby steps with the understanding that things are different now, but they don’t have to be hopeless and in time we can even enjoy , laugh and feel good, even for a minute,while still not forgetting our Jacquie, because for sure, she is laughing and enjoying with us……. She keeps sending signs that this is so!!!
Sara (albuquerque) says:
November 11, 2008 at 7:09 pm -
For Jacquie, When I allow myself to listen to “Stand” I think about every memory of your tremendous fight against ALL and I think about how incredibly brave, strong and courageous you were with every step you went through and how loved and admired you will always be by so very many people including me! Sharon- a hand is always there if you squeeze really tight even though I am way out in NM. SaraPS: Nice Michael, that was a classic, So glad you are finally working on typing without looking.
Pam says:
November 11, 2008 at 7:02 pm -
Dear Sharon and the rest of the amazing Hirsch family, I continue to check the posts on this site almost daily and my heart breaks to think about what this last year and a half has been like for you. I’ve never written a message because I’ve never known the right words to take away even some of the pain you must feel. I was a friend of Jacquie’s, I didn’t know her as well as many others seem to, but I can honestly say she was truly beautiful inside and out. Sharon-I read your recent post about not feeling strong..you are SO strong, so much stronger than you even realize and that strength is what I am sure helped Jacquie on so many days when perhaps maybe she didn’t feel so strong on her own. -A daughter needs a mother to help them stand on days they would rather stay in bed!-I am sure you more than did this for Jacquie..not just while she was sick but through her entire life!!! You are very courageous, and I know your strength will get you through this difficult time, and on the days you don’t feel so strong you must know there is an army of friends, family, and strangers ready to help carry you through. I heard the most beautiful quote this week for the first time and I just have to share it… “The will of God will never take you where the grace of God will not protect you”. Though so many things in this world seem to make no sense at all, and though none of us can understand WHY this had to happen…there is a lot of comfort in that quote and I feel that in it holds some truth. Thank you again, Hirsch family for sharing your family and your thoughts with us.I know it is far from easy, but I think your family is teaching all of us how to live better lives, to be better friends, parents, siblings and people. Your family has touched me in a way too powerful for words. I’m thinking of you guys all of the time, try to smile at the littlest things or at happy memories of Jacquie because you are amazing people and certainly deserve to smile once in a while :o) I don’t think I ever saw Jacquie without a smile on her face and I am sure she wouldn’t want you walking around without smiles on YOUR faces!