dear girl, i want every day to write, and then i sit down and nothing comes… some days are better than others, i call sara when it is bad and she calls me when she needs to. the other day poor ub was on a ladder outside trying to do work on the roof and i was holding the ladder for him. i was listenimg to my ipod with huge tears streaming down my cheeks……it probably would have looked odd to any passerby. i just kept thinking how unfair it is that you are gone from all our lives. happy songs made me cry, sad songs made me cry. i blow you a kiss everytime i pass the house, do you feel it? i need you to feel it. i need you to smile at all love that flows your way. michael would say i am babbling and i guess i am. i just want you to come home where you belong and you can’t and that is so hard. wrap your arms around your family and hold them closely.
Jacquie-I miss you so much, more than you know. Whenever I see Tink or Believe I know you are there with me. Please continue to let us all know you are here with us. You and your family are in my heart and on my mind always <3 Always Believing, I love you, love mandz
Everyday this site suprises me more and more..maybe suprise isn’t the word because we all know how influencial Jacquie was. Her life has had such an impact on me and I thank her everyday. But, reading the updates from Jacquies friends that I know and don’t, your family members, coaches, gym students and “the random mom’s” has me feeling lucky to have known Jacquie and so proud of her for her inspiring teaching skills under the worst circumstances. I miss her so much and have still not come to any understanding of !WHY!-like none of us have..its hard to be so angry with no one to blame, but this helps me..thank you Sharon for being our connection to your family and to Jacquie. I hope your days are filled with beautiful memories of Jacquie, we are all behind you when your strength weakens..Don’t feel disappointment in yourself Jacquie would be very proud of you no matter what 🙂 Your courage will return..Jacquie didn’t learn how to be the brave, beautiful, fearless and loving friend we all love from just anybody!!
Dear Sharon, Moving forward everyday with such strength and grace. Your doing it. I know Jax is so proud of you and I bet her smile has never been brighter. Believing in you , your courage, and your strength. Always clapping, praying , believing Missy
just sending my love, thoughts, and prayers. each day is a new struggle to overcome… you all have come so far. sharon, please don’t doubt your strength & courage. you say you aren’t strong and aren’t courageous… i don’t even know how you could come to that conclusion. don’t confuse your sadness and sometimes despair with a lack of strength or courage… bc in the face of this despair, you are still going on. you are going to events that honor and remember jacquie, even when all you want to do is stay home and cry. each trip outside of the house takes courage, and strength. each post on this website takes courage and strength. each breath takes courage and strength. don’t doubt yourself. jacquie is so proud of you, as we all are. keep hanging in therexoxoxo<3 alicia <3
Dear Sharon….I’m so sorry for your loss… I cry whenever I read about your broken heart..You have suffered and gone through so much…please be kind to yourself…I empathize with how You feel broken and beaten…each morning you feel coldness despite the sun…each day has been a struggle…because all thoughts are consumed , everything reminds you of your beautiful daughter…you miss Jackie..more than you can bear… All those feelings are normal and your doing your best… I can see that…. It sounds like your in so much pain…You don’t even know where to begin… you know what your suppose to do…but somehow you can’t make it there….I feel your pain Sharon… please understand what is happening to you is normal…All I want you to think about today is ….HOW AM I GOING TO GET OFF THE FLOOR AND INTO THE CHAIR? One step at a time Sharon…go slowly…but Please BEGIN the move….there is something about getting stuck…that is unhealthy….you need to think instead of why me? Why NOT ME? there is answer for that… there is much you still need to do… You can and will figure it out… give yourself time but start that thinking process of how you can move forward…how you can take take the challenges you’ve struggled and been face with this past year with Jacquie to figure out how you can unlock the prizes of your future…. I know right now you can’t even think about “Prizes” of the future….but OUR past experiences teach us so much of our future….You my dear friend still have so much to do …begin to think about what your passion is …. think about what Jacquie would like you to carry on with….FOCUS …and begin your baby steps to make the future matter… for you …for her… to make the WORLD better…. you have so many gifts…so much yet to do…find your passion and get off the floor …onto the chair and then OUT the door….I pray for you daily Sharon… and if you want to talk or if you need help call me.. I’ll do what ever I can… but Sharon you need to find a way…to begin the move.. the journey of living…Jacquie expects that from you because it is all she knew… You are amazing … you are strong and your work is not over.. Let Jacquie be your driving force… do it for her…do it for you…possibly you are the person who can help others who are going through this…possibly you are going to raise the funds needed to help the researchers find the cure…possibly….???? You fill in the blank…..The decisions are yours… the choice is yours…. the opportunity is yours…it will be healthier for you if you have a focus, a goal a mission….remember… God had a purpose for Jacquie’s life…it was fulfilled…he has one for you too….and your not done….don’t get stuck in the whys? or what ifs?….keep the memories within your heart lovingly…look at the challenges you’ve faced as a gift….an opportunity to have learned more than you knew before…clear your thoughts…control your thoughts…and seek wisdom from those who have suffered as well…helping you to move forward and have direction….serving others….doing what YOU love to do…I once read…”DO BATTLE WITH THE CHALLENGES OF THE PRESENT AND YOU WILL UNLOCK THE PRIZES OF YOUR FUTURE” my prayers are with you Sharon….Love, Karen
This note is to “Ramdom Mother”….I cannot thank you enough for taking time out of your busy life to think of my sister’s family and beautiful, “Angel-Niece”, Jacquie. I think I can speak for the entire family when I say that messages like yours mean so much, because you do not know any of us. I agree with you that “Angel-Jacquie” is an amazing teacher, that is still sending lessons, of love, life and appreciating family and friends, all the way from Heaven! Our pain of loosing her so young will never go away. We will always have that hole in our hearts where she is missed so much. But I believe, when we see her again, we will finally understand why she had to go to Heaven before the rest of us. (Knowing Jacquie, it’s so that she can plan the big party for when we’re all together again!) Thank you to everyone who visits this site. I know that it is such a comfort to the entire family. There are some really great things the Hirschs are planning for the Foundation, so please keep checking the “Events” section for upcoming fundraisers and events. This is the only way that we can make and sense of this awful, past year, and all that Jacquie had to endure. We need to keep raising money and awareness so that someday, in the future, another family will not have to suffer because of this horrible disease. Thank you all, again…remember to never stop believing & may God Bless you & your families.
a stoughton hug from arixona…i am trying to tyoe with out lookking qt the keys…i an doing ok so far…oopw too many soaces… i wish youa smile or two… peace mps
Sharon, After reading your post I thought I’d share a story about this family I know…2 daughters and a Dad. They lost their Mom 4 years ago this month, and you know what this year is the first time that they have all agreed that it is time to “unpack” some of their Mother’s stuff. She had so many clothes, I’m talking closets full and so many of the clothes still have tags on them. At first the girls didn’t want to move or touch a thing, now they realize that there are alot of women who could use the nice new clothes. So the family has decided to donate some of her clothes, finally four years later they are letting go of a sweater or two. It’s taken the girls and their Dad four years to muster up a little bit of courage to “unpack.” So please don’t beat yourself up if you aren’t ready to do that yet…I don’t think you are ever truly ready to move around a loved ones things. Seeing their perfume on the dresser, or their hair brush in the drawer are the things that get you through each and every day. I love you and I know that you have tremendous courage. I am a believer. xoxo Ashley
Hi Sharon,I know right now you don’t see yourself as strong and courageous as the rest of us see you, but you have to believe that you have been an inspiration to friends, family and strangers alike in ways that people dream impossible. You have gone through the best of time (with jax), and also the worst of times – and you have been brave and generous enough to share, teach, and touch us all through your own, personal experiences… everyday (more than you know).Casey and I were watching extreme house makeover tonight and they were making a house of a family with disabled children more accessible. The little 4 year old boy who has a disability had a tinker bell shirt on, and Casey and I (as usual) felt Jacquie’s presence and couldn’t help but sigh, smile and tear – because we know she is everywhere and will always be with us.It also reminded me of the the many “dates” that Jacquie, Sarah and I went. Sarah is a unique friend to Jacquie and I that we have always cherished and adored. She has taught Jacquie and I things that no one else can, and we have so many memories that I think about all the time and realize now, more than ever, the significance and “special” qualities jax has shared with me…Sarah…and SO many others.All my love, support and prayers always,Nicki
Sharon, You say you are not strong and have no courage, but by making it through each day you are showing exactly that. Do not confuse what you are feeling with a lack of courage and/or strength, it is quite the opposite. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Jacquie,I miss you so much and today has been harder for me than other days… a lot harder. I know you are watching down on me and I will try to smile through my tears for you. I love you girlfriend. Marietta
Dear Sharon Torey and T.J., Corey started selling his “claps ” this weekend. Soon I hope everyone who knows Corey will be clapping with Jacquie for ALL! Sending so much Strength your way. Clapping with Jacquie, Praying,Believing missy
I have hesitiated to post because I fear it may seem weird since I don’t know your family and I didn’t know Jax. One day in early September I was flipping through the paper and saw an obituary of a very beautiful young girl (of course this was Jax). I felt immediately saddened and wondered what could have happened to someone so young. I saw that there was a website and I went to it later on that evening. That night I stayed up very late (past 10 !) reading all of your updates which somehow seemed to pull me into Jax’s story. I don’t know exactly why, but I am pulled to your site on a regular basis to see how you all are doing. I cannot begin to tell you the impact this has had on me. I have slowed down, relaxed and appreciated my family so much more since reading Jax’s story. It has made me focus on the “now” and quit worrying about the future. I have begun to appreciate the little things, such as family dinners, everyday events, and even the masses of laundry that I do for my children. In essence, I have been trying to live as Jax would have, enjoying every moment because you just never know. So there you have it. I hope it’s not weird for you, hearing from someone you don’t know. I pray for your family and think of you often. I, too, see “Tinkerbell” everywhere and, when I do, I totally smile. I face each day with a more positive attitude and I relish every family moment I have. I know you said you feel weak, but, in a way, your posts have given me a strength I’ve never known…..the strength to look past the daily irritations in life and the strength to appreciate each and every little thing. I do think there was something so special about your daughter, almost angel-like, to have affected so many people. Here I am, a complete stranger, thinking of her and your family almost daily. And, in turn, enjoying my family more and appreciating life to it’s fullest. It’s a lesson that your daughter, obviously the greatest teacher ever, has taught me. I pray for your healing and your knowledge of the impact you have had on so many.
Sharon, Torey and TJ, Just wanted to let you know I think about you all constantly. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Keep believing. xoxo Love, Amanda
Jax– Life partner…. I try to find the right words to say, but yet, there aren’t any. No words have been said before to describe feelings like this. I still miss you so much and I find that you consume my thoughts so many times throughout the day. I know you are at peace, but I wish peace for your family, too…. I love you and miss your welcoming smile and kind laugh… In my mind and in my heart always…-MA
I saw Jacquie in two places recently. One was on the window of the Disney store on 5th Avenue in Manhattan. It was an advertisement that said “Believe in the power of Tinkerbell.” Ha…oh how we all do. The second time was when I was walking in the hallways of the middle school where I teach and I noticed that one of the girls had a Tink backpack! Whenever I see Tink, I always think of Jacquie and it’s like she visited me that day. Thinking of you always Hirsch family!<3PaulineI Still BELIEVE
You are so right that it is never ending pain and a huge hole in your heart that will always ache and hurt because it just is not supposed to be this way. I too think how and why when so many people near and far wished and prayed and believed. Those questions will forever be questions as I don’t think any answer would make sense at least not to me. Somehow through all if this you keep moving and stepping forward. Just know I and so many others are with you, behind, ahead, next to you always and forever but I know all you want is Jacquie with you… Take care of you and I send some strength from ABQ! Love, Sara
Dear Sharon and family… I continue to read your updates and hope and pray that you will find peace in your heart. I was sent a website by a friend, read it, and was taken back by the meaning and beauty in this passage. I would like to share it with you, and hope that it brings you some peace. Be well, Sharon, and don’t stop believing in yourself and all that you did and all you shared with your beautiful daughterJacquie. God Bless, be well.The website is http://www.pixiesplace.com/trainride/
Sharon, you have every right to continue to feel the way you do. I didn’t know Jacquie, only of her and her wonderful story. And yet not a day goes by where I don’t see a tinkerbell and think of Jacquie, or read or hear “Believe” and close my eyes and say that I still do believe, rub the purple bracelet that continues to rest on my wist, then say a prayer for you to become at peace with the parting of your beautiful daughter. Never stop Believing in yourself and your abilities. If you let go of that, so much more goes with it. When you get around to reading this, remember Jacquies poem and begin your next day (or sooner) knowing it will be a good day, make it a good day and it will be. You can still be sad or angry at points, but wake up in the morning and say, I want today to be a good day. I will end with this for now, yesterday I was running and happened to stop by a bench, mounted on this bench was a little plack with a quote. “Always missed, Never forgotten”. In the middle of reading that I thought about Jaqcuie, and I know you will always know that of her. May God bless you and give you peace.
Sharon and family- You don’t have to be strong, you don’t have to have courage. You just have to be. It is so hard to imagine all this suffering could possibly be part of “his plan” I struggle with that notion regularly. Reading the impact your family has had on so many people makes me believe that maybe it’s true. Maybe little by little, all in your own time, some of your tormenting memories of the suffering your beautiful daughter had to endure will slowly and more easily be replaced by all of the wonderful time you had together. I pray this for you.
Dear Sharon, There isn’t a selfish bone in your body!! You have every right to all the different feelings racing through your head. And you are strong, you are moving forward every day. Each day taking another step forward! You are brave! You really are. Please know of all the good you continue to do for people. Please take care of yourself. Sending strength and love. Clapping with Jacquie, Praying Believing Missy
Natalie Maranto, Paige Pedini, and Stephanie says:
Hi Torey, Sharon, and TJ. We all were just hanging out, and we began to think about Jax, and you guys. We were looking through our gymnastics scrap books, and it reminded us of Jacquie. We all want you to know that we all are always thinking of her. She was a great woman, and you should be proud to have a daughter like her! We are always believing! With all of our love, Natalie, Paige, and Stephanie 🙂
it’s amazing to me…i have been having a really difficult time lately and when i read the site, it seems like many are struggling at this time…at least there is company in miserable times…love to all
Sharon, I love you dearly, as do ALL of us. Please know that. And please know that no matter how awful or scared you feel, we still love you and will never ever stop. Its okay to always miss Jax, I don’t think a day will ever go by that I don’t miss her too, and your bond was a million times stronger (if not more!) When you need to feel love, touch the necklace, there is a great deal of love from this Believer tucked away in there just for you. and Alicia, know you have our love too, and that I will be thinking about you as that day in November comes closer. You will definitly be in my thoughts and prayers. and of course, Torey and TJ, Not a day goes by that I don’t think about how blessed Jax was to have a wonderful father and brother to support her. God bless you both. forever sending my love and prayers, Casey
hi all… Jacquie truly is all around! the other day i was in Target, and at the end of an aisle, i saw a Tinker Bell tin candy container. It was all alone, and at first I passed by it quickly. Then, thinking of Jacquie, i went back and took a second look. not only did the tin can have a picture of “Tink” on it, it also said “Believe” in purple lettering. more proof that Jacquie is sending us all little messages! i also thought of your family on All Soul’s Day. At church, the priest’s homily mentioned parents having to deal with the death of a child that was taken from them too young. you are all in my thoughts. sara (albuquerque), i love that you are STILL tripping over mats! do you still try to pull it off as if it didn’t happen? miss you!
I just want to scream at the TOP of my lungs. I want to scream how much I EFFING HATE CANCER! And believe me, I don’t want to use the term “eff” either, this time only the real word will do. My boyfriend BJ and I just found out that his next door neighbor growing up and his childhood best friend’s sister was diagnosed with ALL a few days ago. She is in her early 30’s and is a Mom. WHAT THE EFF! Why can’t ALL and cancer in general just leave us all alone??? This infuriates me to no end… but it also has made the fire that is in my heart and my chest even brighter and stronger… the fire that is in me (and I know that is buring in ALL of us) to extinguish ALL and other cancers! This is more reason for us to keep on fighting in Jacquie’s name, as her soldiers we must continue to do all we can. I know we ALL have been having a lot of hard, downtrodden days (to say the least) lately. Life without Jacquie can seem pretty grey, dull, and without heart. I have been struggling lately, a lot. The two year anniversary of my Father’s passing is coming up very fast (its on the 23rd of this month), and since he passed on Thanksgiving, the thought of another Thanksgiving approaching is just looming like a black cloud over my head… and not having Jac here to talk with about it makes it that much worse. Whenever missing my Dad hurt so bad and I felt like I couldn’t go on,Jacquie was ALLWAYS one of the very few people that I could truly express all of my thoughts and feelings to, and she would be such a great listener and have something to say that made it a little better. I still do talk to her though, as I talk to my Dad… everyday when something happens that I want them to know about or wish they could have seen, I say it to them in my head. It might sound a little crazy but I think it works. So even when these days can seem their darkest, we must continue to FIGHT. I love you all so much. Sharon, Torey, TJ keep your heads up and keep pushing on… you have made it so far, we are all so awed and amazed by your strength.xoxoxoxxoxo <3 alicia <3 xoxoxoxo
Hi Hirsch Family,I am so happy to hear that so many people are honoring Jacquie in their own way. I think about you all every day. I know Jacquie is so proud of you and the strength you have shown. Still Believing.Liz
Thinking of you all, all of you- Sharon, Torey, TJ and Jacquie! I think I just sent my note incomplete…sorry. So I will try again. I just read Sadie’s note and she put down in words the exact thoughts that I had go through my mind this morning as I was driving down the road. It still seems so very unreal and yet it is so strongly wrong that it often is difficult to catch a breath when thinking of all that has occurred in the past year. You are in my heart and I send you more strength and courage. I know it is not much, but I care always! Sara
Two months today, and it just doesn’t seem possible. I miss you terribly Jax, I wish you were around so I could tell you all the stories about my crazy kids that I have to teach and how beautiful it is in Cali… somedays I just wish, that you were here so you could wipe the tears from your mom’s eyes. Hugs and kisses from Cali. Julie
i just had to say that it hurts like hell right now, how bad i miss you. sometimes i feel like it’ll never get better. i just miss you so much. i love you forever and always. in my heart forever beautiful angelxoxo <3 alicia <3
Hirschs, I love you. I am thinking of you always and especially today. It takes strength and courage to get through everyday, and I can’t imagine how much more it takes to get through the 6th day of every month. You are in my prayers. xoAlwaysBelievingxo Ashley
I can’t believe it’s been 2 months… some days it still doesn’t seem real, and others it’s so real that you can’t even breathe. We miss you Jax. Thinking of you all – always and especially today. Love you <3 Always believing, <3 Sadie
Sharon, Torey, and TJ, I think about you guys every day. I miss Jacquie so much, but she continues to inspire me and motivate me to live my life to the fullest. I hope knowing what a positive impact she has had on so many lives has provided some solace.
2 months. still not any easier. on this day that marks 2 months, jacquie sent us beautiful sunny skies and warm weather. once again reminding us that she is okay and trying to brighten and warm our days. i miss you so much beautiful girl. keep shining down on us, keep giving us signs. in our hearts and minds always. xoxoxo<3 alicia <3
That was a beautiful card your mom gave you sharon. The words read so true, and i think especially us young mothers with little ones strive by those every day. you all are never far from my thoughts and prayers, and i tell savannah about jax and all she has done for each of us all the time. and just as much as a daughter needs her mom, a mom needs her daughter. you are blessed with a beautiful family and friends, and we are all incredibly blessed to have you in our lives. i love you all. keesha
TJ, Sharon, and Torey, Believing forever. Thinking of you always. Jax, the “Eeeek” machine is back in business on Robinson Road. Thanks again for the Tink dust, I really needed it.
Jax, I am going to need you BIG time tomorrow! I got a call today for a long term sub job in kindergarten…which starts tomorrow! If you have some Tink dust please send it my way! (Or at least sprinkle it on the kids to make them not entirely crazy!) And thanks for helping me find my way yesterday when I was lost in the middle of no where. Your tiny little rainbow (that I don’t think anyone else saw because I know it was just for me 🙂 ) helped me find my way and made me smile knowing you are up there watching over all of us. Sharon, Torey, and TJ, I think of you every single day. Everytime I check the website it brings me to tears. So I continue to send all my love, prayers, and strength your way to help you get through this. Always believing, Amanda
Dear Sharon, What beautiful words your mothers card wrote. And how very true. Please, always remember you are that kind of mother to Jacquie. Always clapping with Jacquie, praying and believing Missy
Good Morning, Just reading the posts and saw Caitlin’s, I have to agree Jax is everywhere. I mean a movie all about TINKERBELL…what are the odds, seriously?? It’s a gift for us, a constant reminder of Jacquie. It’s supposed to be unseasonably warm and sunny today, I thank JAX for that! I love you guys and hope you find some peace today. xoxoAlways believingxoxox Ashley
Whatever your politics, you can’t help but notice that all around the country in the past 48 hours, people have been stating how much they believe: in their electoral process, in American voters, in the future with a new President. I can’t help but think that Jacquie played a key role in building up this army of believers; her story and the love of her supporters gives me belief that people really can work together and build a better tomorrow. Just another life lesson from one of the world’s great teachers.
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aunt val says:
November 11, 2008 at 3:43 pm -
dear girl, i want every day to write, and then i sit down and nothing comes… some days are better than others, i call sara when it is bad and she calls me when she needs to. the other day poor ub was on a ladder outside trying to do work on the roof and i was holding the ladder for him. i was listenimg to my ipod with huge tears streaming down my cheeks……it probably would have looked odd to any passerby. i just kept thinking how unfair it is that you are gone from all our lives. happy songs made me cry, sad songs made me cry. i blow you a kiss everytime i pass the house, do you feel it? i need you to feel it. i need you to smile at all love that flows your way. michael would say i am babbling and i guess i am. i just want you to come home where you belong and you can’t and that is so hard. wrap your arms around your family and hold them closely.
Amanda Cavarella says:
November 10, 2008 at 10:59 pm -
Jacquie-I miss you so much, more than you know. Whenever I see Tink or Believe I know you are there with me. Please continue to let us all know you are here with us. You and your family are in my heart and on my mind always <3 Always Believing, I love you, love mandz
Caitlin Burgher says:
November 10, 2008 at 10:34 pm -
Everyday this site suprises me more and more..maybe suprise isn’t the word because we all know how influencial Jacquie was. Her life has had such an impact on me and I thank her everyday. But, reading the updates from Jacquies friends that I know and don’t, your family members, coaches, gym students and “the random mom’s” has me feeling lucky to have known Jacquie and so proud of her for her inspiring teaching skills under the worst circumstances. I miss her so much and have still not come to any understanding of !WHY!-like none of us have..its hard to be so angry with no one to blame, but this helps me..thank you Sharon for being our connection to your family and to Jacquie. I hope your days are filled with beautiful memories of Jacquie, we are all behind you when your strength weakens..Don’t feel disappointment in yourself Jacquie would be very proud of you no matter what 🙂 Your courage will return..Jacquie didn’t learn how to be the brave, beautiful, fearless and loving friend we all love from just anybody!!
missy says:
November 10, 2008 at 8:59 pm -
Dear Sharon, Moving forward everyday with such strength and grace. Your doing it. I know Jax is so proud of you and I bet her smile has never been brighter. Believing in you , your courage, and your strength. Always clapping, praying , believing Missy
alicia says:
November 10, 2008 at 8:44 pm -
just sending my love, thoughts, and prayers. each day is a new struggle to overcome… you all have come so far. sharon, please don’t doubt your strength & courage. you say you aren’t strong and aren’t courageous… i don’t even know how you could come to that conclusion. don’t confuse your sadness and sometimes despair with a lack of strength or courage… bc in the face of this despair, you are still going on. you are going to events that honor and remember jacquie, even when all you want to do is stay home and cry. each trip outside of the house takes courage, and strength. each post on this website takes courage and strength. each breath takes courage and strength. don’t doubt yourself. jacquie is so proud of you, as we all are. keep hanging in therexoxoxo<3 alicia <3
Karen Kacko Calandra says:
November 10, 2008 at 3:47 pm -
Dear Sharon….I’m so sorry for your loss… I cry whenever I read about your broken heart..You have suffered and gone through so much…please be kind to yourself…I empathize with how You feel broken and beaten…each morning you feel coldness despite the sun…each day has been a struggle…because all thoughts are consumed , everything reminds you of your beautiful daughter…you miss Jackie..more than you can bear… All those feelings are normal and your doing your best… I can see that…. It sounds like your in so much pain…You don’t even know where to begin… you know what your suppose to do…but somehow you can’t make it there….I feel your pain Sharon… please understand what is happening to you is normal…All I want you to think about today is ….HOW AM I GOING TO GET OFF THE FLOOR AND INTO THE CHAIR? One step at a time Sharon…go slowly…but Please BEGIN the move….there is something about getting stuck…that is unhealthy….you need to think instead of why me? Why NOT ME? there is answer for that… there is much you still need to do… You can and will figure it out… give yourself time but start that thinking process of how you can move forward…how you can take take the challenges you’ve struggled and been face with this past year with Jacquie to figure out how you can unlock the prizes of your future…. I know right now you can’t even think about “Prizes” of the future….but OUR past experiences teach us so much of our future….You my dear friend still have so much to do …begin to think about what your passion is …. think about what Jacquie would like you to carry on with….FOCUS …and begin your baby steps to make the future matter… for you …for her… to make the WORLD better…. you have so many gifts…so much yet to do…find your passion and get off the floor …onto the chair and then OUT the door….I pray for you daily Sharon… and if you want to talk or if you need help call me.. I’ll do what ever I can… but Sharon you need to find a way…to begin the move.. the journey of living…Jacquie expects that from you because it is all she knew… You are amazing … you are strong and your work is not over.. Let Jacquie be your driving force… do it for her…do it for you…possibly you are the person who can help others who are going through this…possibly you are going to raise the funds needed to help the researchers find the cure…possibly….???? You fill in the blank…..The decisions are yours… the choice is yours…. the opportunity is yours…it will be healthier for you if you have a focus, a goal a mission….remember… God had a purpose for Jacquie’s life…it was fulfilled…he has one for you too….and your not done….don’t get stuck in the whys? or what ifs?….keep the memories within your heart lovingly…look at the challenges you’ve faced as a gift….an opportunity to have learned more than you knew before…clear your thoughts…control your thoughts…and seek wisdom from those who have suffered as well…helping you to move forward and have direction….serving others….doing what YOU love to do…I once read…”DO BATTLE WITH THE CHALLENGES OF THE PRESENT AND YOU WILL UNLOCK THE PRIZES OF YOUR FUTURE” my prayers are with you Sharon….Love, Karen
Anonymous says:
November 10, 2008 at 2:47 pm -
Just wanted to let you know I’m thinking about you and I love you all <3 Whitney
sue says:
November 10, 2008 at 11:29 am -
the day is gray here in san antonio…hope your weather looks brighter…you are all in my thoughts and prayers…much love
Sara (albuquerque) says:
November 10, 2008 at 11:05 am -
Caring, thinking, loving, missing, wishing, supporting you always.Love, Sara and family Amber- thanks for making me smile!
Aunt Sheryl says:
November 10, 2008 at 9:59 am -
This note is to “Ramdom Mother”….I cannot thank you enough for taking time out of your busy life to think of my sister’s family and beautiful, “Angel-Niece”, Jacquie. I think I can speak for the entire family when I say that messages like yours mean so much, because you do not know any of us. I agree with you that “Angel-Jacquie” is an amazing teacher, that is still sending lessons, of love, life and appreciating family and friends, all the way from Heaven! Our pain of loosing her so young will never go away. We will always have that hole in our hearts where she is missed so much. But I believe, when we see her again, we will finally understand why she had to go to Heaven before the rest of us. (Knowing Jacquie, it’s so that she can plan the big party for when we’re all together again!) Thank you to everyone who visits this site. I know that it is such a comfort to the entire family. There are some really great things the Hirschs are planning for the Foundation, so please keep checking the “Events” section for upcoming fundraisers and events. This is the only way that we can make and sense of this awful, past year, and all that Jacquie had to endure. We need to keep raising money and awareness so that someday, in the future, another family will not have to suffer because of this horrible disease. Thank you all, again…remember to never stop believing & may God Bless you & your families.
Michael Stoughton says:
November 10, 2008 at 9:07 am -
a stoughton hug from arixona…i am trying to tyoe with out lookking qt the keys…i an doing ok so far…oopw too many soaces… i wish youa smile or two… peace mps
Huer says:
November 10, 2008 at 9:02 am -
Sharon, After reading your post I thought I’d share a story about this family I know…2 daughters and a Dad. They lost their Mom 4 years ago this month, and you know what this year is the first time that they have all agreed that it is time to “unpack” some of their Mother’s stuff. She had so many clothes, I’m talking closets full and so many of the clothes still have tags on them. At first the girls didn’t want to move or touch a thing, now they realize that there are alot of women who could use the nice new clothes. So the family has decided to donate some of her clothes, finally four years later they are letting go of a sweater or two. It’s taken the girls and their Dad four years to muster up a little bit of courage to “unpack.” So please don’t beat yourself up if you aren’t ready to do that yet…I don’t think you are ever truly ready to move around a loved ones things. Seeing their perfume on the dresser, or their hair brush in the drawer are the things that get you through each and every day. I love you and I know that you have tremendous courage. I am a believer. xoxo Ashley
Nicki LaGree says:
November 10, 2008 at 2:30 am -
Hi Sharon,I know right now you don’t see yourself as strong and courageous as the rest of us see you, but you have to believe that you have been an inspiration to friends, family and strangers alike in ways that people dream impossible. You have gone through the best of time (with jax), and also the worst of times – and you have been brave and generous enough to share, teach, and touch us all through your own, personal experiences… everyday (more than you know).Casey and I were watching extreme house makeover tonight and they were making a house of a family with disabled children more accessible. The little 4 year old boy who has a disability had a tinker bell shirt on, and Casey and I (as usual) felt Jacquie’s presence and couldn’t help but sigh, smile and tear – because we know she is everywhere and will always be with us.It also reminded me of the the many “dates” that Jacquie, Sarah and I went. Sarah is a unique friend to Jacquie and I that we have always cherished and adored. She has taught Jacquie and I things that no one else can, and we have so many memories that I think about all the time and realize now, more than ever, the significance and “special” qualities jax has shared with me…Sarah…and SO many others.All my love, support and prayers always,Nicki
Anonymous says:
November 9, 2008 at 9:31 pm -
Sharon, You say you are not strong and have no courage, but by making it through each day you are showing exactly that. Do not confuse what you are feeling with a lack of courage and/or strength, it is quite the opposite. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Lauren Schilling says:
November 9, 2008 at 9:31 pm -
Hi Hirsch’s. I just wanted to send my love and let you know I’m thinking about you guys <3 Love, Lauren
Marietta Bennett says:
November 9, 2008 at 8:40 pm -
Jacquie,I miss you so much and today has been harder for me than other days… a lot harder. I know you are watching down on me and I will try to smile through my tears for you. I love you girlfriend. Marietta
missy says:
November 9, 2008 at 5:00 pm -
Dear Sharon Torey and T.J., Corey started selling his “claps ” this weekend. Soon I hope everyone who knows Corey will be clapping with Jacquie for ALL! Sending so much Strength your way. Clapping with Jacquie, Praying,Believing missy
A Random Mom says:
November 9, 2008 at 10:55 am -
I have hesitiated to post because I fear it may seem weird since I don’t know your family and I didn’t know Jax. One day in early September I was flipping through the paper and saw an obituary of a very beautiful young girl (of course this was Jax). I felt immediately saddened and wondered what could have happened to someone so young. I saw that there was a website and I went to it later on that evening. That night I stayed up very late (past 10 !) reading all of your updates which somehow seemed to pull me into Jax’s story. I don’t know exactly why, but I am pulled to your site on a regular basis to see how you all are doing. I cannot begin to tell you the impact this has had on me. I have slowed down, relaxed and appreciated my family so much more since reading Jax’s story. It has made me focus on the “now” and quit worrying about the future. I have begun to appreciate the little things, such as family dinners, everyday events, and even the masses of laundry that I do for my children. In essence, I have been trying to live as Jax would have, enjoying every moment because you just never know. So there you have it. I hope it’s not weird for you, hearing from someone you don’t know. I pray for your family and think of you often. I, too, see “Tinkerbell” everywhere and, when I do, I totally smile. I face each day with a more positive attitude and I relish every family moment I have. I know you said you feel weak, but, in a way, your posts have given me a strength I’ve never known…..the strength to look past the daily irritations in life and the strength to appreciate each and every little thing. I do think there was something so special about your daughter, almost angel-like, to have affected so many people. Here I am, a complete stranger, thinking of her and your family almost daily. And, in turn, enjoying my family more and appreciating life to it’s fullest. It’s a lesson that your daughter, obviously the greatest teacher ever, has taught me. I pray for your healing and your knowledge of the impact you have had on so many.
Amanda Cavarella says:
November 9, 2008 at 8:47 am -
Sharon, Torey and TJ, Just wanted to let you know I think about you all constantly. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Keep believing. xoxo Love, Amanda
MA says:
November 9, 2008 at 1:33 am -
Jax– Life partner…. I try to find the right words to say, but yet, there aren’t any. No words have been said before to describe feelings like this. I still miss you so much and I find that you consume my thoughts so many times throughout the day. I know you are at peace, but I wish peace for your family, too…. I love you and miss your welcoming smile and kind laugh… In my mind and in my heart always…-MA
Bill says:
November 8, 2008 at 9:00 pm -
Pauline Cantatore says:
November 8, 2008 at 8:41 pm -
I saw Jacquie in two places recently. One was on the window of the Disney store on 5th Avenue in Manhattan. It was an advertisement that said “Believe in the power of Tinkerbell.” Ha…oh how we all do. The second time was when I was walking in the hallways of the middle school where I teach and I noticed that one of the girls had a Tink backpack! Whenever I see Tink, I always think of Jacquie and it’s like she visited me that day. Thinking of you always Hirsch family!<3PaulineI Still BELIEVE
Sara (albuquerque) says:
November 8, 2008 at 1:12 pm -
You are so right that it is never ending pain and a huge hole in your heart that will always ache and hurt because it just is not supposed to be this way. I too think how and why when so many people near and far wished and prayed and believed. Those questions will forever be questions as I don’t think any answer would make sense at least not to me. Somehow through all if this you keep moving and stepping forward. Just know I and so many others are with you, behind, ahead, next to you always and forever but I know all you want is Jacquie with you… Take care of you and I send some strength from ABQ! Love, Sara
marlene says:
November 8, 2008 at 12:42 pm -
Dear Sharon and family… I continue to read your updates and hope and pray that you will find peace in your heart. I was sent a website by a friend, read it, and was taken back by the meaning and beauty in this passage. I would like to share it with you, and hope that it brings you some peace. Be well, Sharon, and don’t stop believing in yourself and all that you did and all you shared with your beautiful daughterJacquie. God Bless, be well.The website is http://www.pixiesplace.com/trainride/
Joe Browning says:
November 8, 2008 at 9:40 am -
Sharon, you have every right to continue to feel the way you do. I didn’t know Jacquie, only of her and her wonderful story. And yet not a day goes by where I don’t see a tinkerbell and think of Jacquie, or read or hear “Believe” and close my eyes and say that I still do believe, rub the purple bracelet that continues to rest on my wist, then say a prayer for you to become at peace with the parting of your beautiful daughter. Never stop Believing in yourself and your abilities. If you let go of that, so much more goes with it. When you get around to reading this, remember Jacquies poem and begin your next day (or sooner) knowing it will be a good day, make it a good day and it will be. You can still be sad or angry at points, but wake up in the morning and say, I want today to be a good day. I will end with this for now, yesterday I was running and happened to stop by a bench, mounted on this bench was a little plack with a quote. “Always missed, Never forgotten”. In the middle of reading that I thought about Jaqcuie, and I know you will always know that of her. May God bless you and give you peace.
Jackie says:
November 8, 2008 at 1:16 am -
Sharon and family- You don’t have to be strong, you don’t have to have courage. You just have to be. It is so hard to imagine all this suffering could possibly be part of “his plan” I struggle with that notion regularly. Reading the impact your family has had on so many people makes me believe that maybe it’s true. Maybe little by little, all in your own time, some of your tormenting memories of the suffering your beautiful daughter had to endure will slowly and more easily be replaced by all of the wonderful time you had together. I pray this for you.
missy says:
November 7, 2008 at 10:09 pm -
Dear Sharon, There isn’t a selfish bone in your body!! You have every right to all the different feelings racing through your head. And you are strong, you are moving forward every day. Each day taking another step forward! You are brave! You really are. Please know of all the good you continue to do for people. Please take care of yourself. Sending strength and love. Clapping with Jacquie, Praying Believing Missy
Natalie Maranto, Paige Pedini, and Stephanie says:
November 7, 2008 at 9:48 pm -
Hi Torey, Sharon, and TJ. We all were just hanging out, and we began to think about Jax, and you guys. We were looking through our gymnastics scrap books, and it reminded us of Jacquie. We all want you to know that we all are always thinking of her. She was a great woman, and you should be proud to have a daughter like her! We are always believing! With all of our love, Natalie, Paige, and Stephanie 🙂
sue says:
November 7, 2008 at 9:08 pm -
it’s amazing to me…i have been having a really difficult time lately and when i read the site, it seems like many are struggling at this time…at least there is company in miserable times…love to all
Casey Stiokas says:
November 7, 2008 at 9:03 pm -
Sharon, I love you dearly, as do ALL of us. Please know that. And please know that no matter how awful or scared you feel, we still love you and will never ever stop. Its okay to always miss Jax, I don’t think a day will ever go by that I don’t miss her too, and your bond was a million times stronger (if not more!) When you need to feel love, touch the necklace, there is a great deal of love from this Believer tucked away in there just for you. and Alicia, know you have our love too, and that I will be thinking about you as that day in November comes closer. You will definitly be in my thoughts and prayers. and of course, Torey and TJ, Not a day goes by that I don’t think about how blessed Jax was to have a wonderful father and brother to support her. God bless you both. forever sending my love and prayers, Casey
amber from geneseo says:
November 7, 2008 at 4:39 pm -
hi all… Jacquie truly is all around! the other day i was in Target, and at the end of an aisle, i saw a Tinker Bell tin candy container. It was all alone, and at first I passed by it quickly. Then, thinking of Jacquie, i went back and took a second look. not only did the tin can have a picture of “Tink” on it, it also said “Believe” in purple lettering. more proof that Jacquie is sending us all little messages! i also thought of your family on All Soul’s Day. At church, the priest’s homily mentioned parents having to deal with the death of a child that was taken from them too young. you are all in my thoughts. sara (albuquerque), i love that you are STILL tripping over mats! do you still try to pull it off as if it didn’t happen? miss you!
alicia says:
November 7, 2008 at 11:48 am -
I just want to scream at the TOP of my lungs. I want to scream how much I EFFING HATE CANCER! And believe me, I don’t want to use the term “eff” either, this time only the real word will do. My boyfriend BJ and I just found out that his next door neighbor growing up and his childhood best friend’s sister was diagnosed with ALL a few days ago. She is in her early 30’s and is a Mom. WHAT THE EFF! Why can’t ALL and cancer in general just leave us all alone??? This infuriates me to no end… but it also has made the fire that is in my heart and my chest even brighter and stronger… the fire that is in me (and I know that is buring in ALL of us) to extinguish ALL and other cancers! This is more reason for us to keep on fighting in Jacquie’s name, as her soldiers we must continue to do all we can. I know we ALL have been having a lot of hard, downtrodden days (to say the least) lately. Life without Jacquie can seem pretty grey, dull, and without heart. I have been struggling lately, a lot. The two year anniversary of my Father’s passing is coming up very fast (its on the 23rd of this month), and since he passed on Thanksgiving, the thought of another Thanksgiving approaching is just looming like a black cloud over my head… and not having Jac here to talk with about it makes it that much worse. Whenever missing my Dad hurt so bad and I felt like I couldn’t go on,Jacquie was ALLWAYS one of the very few people that I could truly express all of my thoughts and feelings to, and she would be such a great listener and have something to say that made it a little better. I still do talk to her though, as I talk to my Dad… everyday when something happens that I want them to know about or wish they could have seen, I say it to them in my head. It might sound a little crazy but I think it works. So even when these days can seem their darkest, we must continue to FIGHT. I love you all so much. Sharon, Torey, TJ keep your heads up and keep pushing on… you have made it so far, we are all so awed and amazed by your strength.xoxoxoxxoxo <3 alicia <3 xoxoxoxo
Max says:
November 6, 2008 at 9:51 pm -
Liz Fassl says:
November 6, 2008 at 9:22 pm -
Hi Hirsch Family,I am so happy to hear that so many people are honoring Jacquie in their own way. I think about you all every day. I know Jacquie is so proud of you and the strength you have shown. Still Believing.Liz
Sara (albuquerque) says:
November 6, 2008 at 8:18 pm -
Thinking of you all, all of you- Sharon, Torey, TJ and Jacquie! I think I just sent my note incomplete…sorry. So I will try again. I just read Sadie’s note and she put down in words the exact thoughts that I had go through my mind this morning as I was driving down the road. It still seems so very unreal and yet it is so strongly wrong that it often is difficult to catch a breath when thinking of all that has occurred in the past year. You are in my heart and I send you more strength and courage. I know it is not much, but I care always! Sara
Julie Wallenhorst says:
November 6, 2008 at 7:55 pm -
Two months today, and it just doesn’t seem possible. I miss you terribly Jax, I wish you were around so I could tell you all the stories about my crazy kids that I have to teach and how beautiful it is in Cali… somedays I just wish, that you were here so you could wipe the tears from your mom’s eyes. Hugs and kisses from Cali. Julie
alicia says:
November 6, 2008 at 6:34 pm -
i just had to say that it hurts like hell right now, how bad i miss you. sometimes i feel like it’ll never get better. i just miss you so much. i love you forever and always. in my heart forever beautiful angelxoxo <3 alicia <3
Huer says:
November 6, 2008 at 4:35 pm -
Hirschs, I love you. I am thinking of you always and especially today. It takes strength and courage to get through everyday, and I can’t imagine how much more it takes to get through the 6th day of every month. You are in my prayers. xoAlwaysBelievingxo Ashley
Sadie says:
November 6, 2008 at 4:11 pm -
I can’t believe it’s been 2 months… some days it still doesn’t seem real, and others it’s so real that you can’t even breathe. We miss you Jax. Thinking of you all – always and especially today. Love you <3 Always believing, <3 Sadie
Rory says:
November 6, 2008 at 12:15 pm -
Sharon, Torey, and TJ, I think about you guys every day. I miss Jacquie so much, but she continues to inspire me and motivate me to live my life to the fullest. I hope knowing what a positive impact she has had on so many lives has provided some solace.
Angela says:
November 6, 2008 at 10:40 am -
Hello family i am just sending you all my love this morning!!!! Forever in my heart jax, love cousin angela
alicia says:
November 6, 2008 at 10:36 am -
2 months. still not any easier. on this day that marks 2 months, jacquie sent us beautiful sunny skies and warm weather. once again reminding us that she is okay and trying to brighten and warm our days. i miss you so much beautiful girl. keep shining down on us, keep giving us signs. in our hearts and minds always. xoxoxo<3 alicia <3
Amanda Cavarella says:
November 5, 2008 at 11:11 pm -
Thinking of you all and always believing <3 Miss you a lot Jax. love, mandz
Keesha says:
November 5, 2008 at 9:15 pm -
That was a beautiful card your mom gave you sharon. The words read so true, and i think especially us young mothers with little ones strive by those every day. you all are never far from my thoughts and prayers, and i tell savannah about jax and all she has done for each of us all the time. and just as much as a daughter needs her mom, a mom needs her daughter. you are blessed with a beautiful family and friends, and we are all incredibly blessed to have you in our lives. i love you all. keesha
Bill says:
November 5, 2008 at 8:59 pm -
Harry says:
November 5, 2008 at 8:25 pm -
TJ, Sharon, and Torey, Believing forever. Thinking of you always. Jax, the “Eeeek” machine is back in business on Robinson Road. Thanks again for the Tink dust, I really needed it.
Amanda Sachs says:
November 5, 2008 at 6:42 pm -
Jax, I am going to need you BIG time tomorrow! I got a call today for a long term sub job in kindergarten…which starts tomorrow! If you have some Tink dust please send it my way! (Or at least sprinkle it on the kids to make them not entirely crazy!) And thanks for helping me find my way yesterday when I was lost in the middle of no where. Your tiny little rainbow (that I don’t think anyone else saw because I know it was just for me 🙂 ) helped me find my way and made me smile knowing you are up there watching over all of us. Sharon, Torey, and TJ, I think of you every single day. Everytime I check the website it brings me to tears. So I continue to send all my love, prayers, and strength your way to help you get through this. Always believing, Amanda
missy says:
November 5, 2008 at 4:51 pm -
Dear Sharon, What beautiful words your mothers card wrote. And how very true. Please, always remember you are that kind of mother to Jacquie. Always clapping with Jacquie, praying and believing Missy
Huer says:
November 5, 2008 at 8:51 am -
Good Morning, Just reading the posts and saw Caitlin’s, I have to agree Jax is everywhere. I mean a movie all about TINKERBELL…what are the odds, seriously?? It’s a gift for us, a constant reminder of Jacquie. It’s supposed to be unseasonably warm and sunny today, I thank JAX for that! I love you guys and hope you find some peace today. xoxoAlways believingxoxox Ashley
Anonymous says:
November 5, 2008 at 7:49 am -
Whatever your politics, you can’t help but notice that all around the country in the past 48 hours, people have been stating how much they believe: in their electoral process, in American voters, in the future with a new President. I can’t help but think that Jacquie played a key role in building up this army of believers; her story and the love of her supporters gives me belief that people really can work together and build a better tomorrow. Just another life lesson from one of the world’s great teachers.