dear aunt sharon, im sitting at work reading your update, and i got an image in my head of jacquies final day here. the way the hospital smelled, the way she looked, how everyone else looked and my reaction when i heard the news, how i didnt want to leave the hospital that nite and how i dont know how you did leave the hospital! i am surrounded by her pictures and pictures of tink, people still asking everyday who that beautiful girl is..and of course questions of the tattoo. although i love to tell the story its so hard when they ask how she is. i have found myself consumed of thoughts of jacquie all day everyday.i miss her terribly and hope you know that you are not alone in this sadnness that if you ever just want to scream i will scream with you!!!! i love you so much, jax i love you so much, forever in my heart, cousin angela
Sharon, Torey and TJ, Keep fighting and moving forward. You are doing amazing things. But no it is not how it should be, not at all and I don’t like it and never will. You are the Hirsch family 4, forever. It is unbearable for my heart to think about the hole in your heart. So I read on a post TJ is going to be in 80’s workout gear for Halloween. Now if I were home in Clarence Center (right around your corner) I would have to come over and Sharon you and I could dig up some old aerobic moves to show TJ and I could show him some new modernized “jazzercise” moves!! I had another lady push me out of my spot the other morning…I guess I took her area, oops. They are so territorial out here. So instead I was up front going totally opposite all others and probably messing up four lines of people behind me. Thinking of you Jacquie and that smile. Love, Sara
all of your messages here on the site show how much she means to everyone. we are all so angry that she’s not here anymore, and it shows how much she has changed everyone for the better. thank you torey and sharon for continuing to write your messages, for sharing your thoughts. i know it’s not easy for you. sharon, you are still helping jax- a daughter never stops needing her mom, even when it seems like they do. we always need our mom. it helps all of us get through this. we love you all.we love you jax. and we miss you terribly!
Good Morning, So Jacquie is everywhere!! I was getting my nails done yesterday and as I was sitting under the hand dryer I was looking at the nail polish, the new fall OPI colors, and one color (a pretty gray) caught my eye, the name of the polish was taped to the front of it. Well do you want to know the name of the polish…”You didn’t know Jacquie.” I almost lost it right there in the nail salon. How ironic, gray is not a happy color, it is a sad color. And it made me think, geez I feel bad for the people who didn’t know Jacquie…I got to know her for the better part of 10 years…Everyday I wish she was still physically here, but I found some comfort (selfishly) knowing that there are people out there who should be wearing the color gray because they didn’t get to know Jax, I did and I am thankful for everyday I got to spend with her. I agree with LaGree I am a better person for being Jacquie’s friend. Always thinking and praying and believing. xoxoxo Ashley
Sharon and Torey, I’m not sure that i ever got the chance to thank you for coming to the meet last week. I cannot express to you how much it meant for you both to be there- you have seen me through thick and thin, good days and the bad ones, and have taught me so many lessons about life, and you still continue to teach me. You are responsible for my love of gymnastics, but you are also major contributors in who i am today. I’m extremely proud and honored to say that i know you both, that you have been a part of my life, and i know jacquie feels the same. Sharon, please keep your head up, and know that Jax loved you more than anything or anyone in the entire world. You were and still are an incredible mother, and i know that she’s proud of you for being so strong in this situation. Torey, thank you for my speech, it was absolutely beautiful. There is no one else that i wanted to make my speech, and i’m so glad that you were able to do it. I know Jax must have been there on wednesday, because i think we all had a little bit of tinkerbell magic that day 🙂 I love you all so much, and tj, its been nice to see your face around school a few times these past few weeks. You are such an amazing big brother, and i’m sure jax looks down on you and smiles 🙂 Jax, i miss you and i love you, and i will always believe<3
Jax, Thanks for being there today, and thanks for the Tink dust, it did its magic. Dad knew you were there too. Love you always, and forever Believing. Casey
Hi Sharon- I feel kind of odd writing you this message because I don’t know you though I think I might have worked with you at Millard. I did sign the guest book on-line from the buffalo news to let you know a little about how your story touched me. I want to extend my deepest most sincere sympathy to you and your family. I wish there were some words someone could say. I do know that you and your daughter are inspiring so many people. But why though does it have to be through so much suffering? When I read the words you write about your daughter it makes me feel like somebody else gets it. Somebody can actually put to words how I feel about my chidren. I know everyone loves their children but I always feel like do they really understand how I feel. The word love does not seem adequate- it is used so often. That happens to be the only word we have but you really seem to know the kind of love I know with my children. I always want to be there for them every minute. I would give my life for them. I always want them to know if they can only imagine how much they are loved. As I mentioned in my note in the guest book – I have a brain tumor and started having seizures in Feb. I have three children. We are pretty hopeful the tumor is low grade and will take along time to grow. It is deep in the center of my brain too difficult and too risky to biopsy at this time. I am doing ok but many nights I feel paralyzed thinking- I HAVE to be here until they are at least grown. They need me. I sometimes want to grab my husband and say “I know you can take care of them but they HAVE to have me-you don’t understand.” I feel like you really understand what I am saying- by what you write I know you do. I cannot bear the thought of my kids having to go through the pain and greif if something were to happen. It is so hard to watch them have any difficulties. I too call my youngest girl my BFF. They are all my BFF’s but It just stuck with her. My older daughter is 9 and it is not as “cool” for her if you know what I mean. I wish I could express myself as you do. I hope my kids feel the kind of love from me that I know your daughter feels from you. I do know one thing for sure. Love is really what makes the world go round. Love deep from our souls. Our souls cannot be seen and live forever. Your daughter received more love in her lifetime then many can experience in five or more lifetimes. Even if they have lived until 100. What a lucky girl to have a Mom like you. If only everyone could get that much love what a wonderful world this would be.
I just wanted to share with you a dream I had the other night… I don’t remember a lot of detail, but I was somewhere outside with tons of people, maybe tailgating? I happened to look across the crowd and recognize TJ, and his mom and dad, all standing around a pickup truck. Then I saw Jacquie sitting inside the back of the truck, smiling and laughing. In my dream I remember being confused, wondering if it was really her, thinking it couldn’t be her. When I woke up, I realized that I had seen Jacquie. She was there in spirit, staying close to her family and enjoying the moment with them. For someone that never knew Jacquie very well, I find myself thinking about her often. I’ve worn the purple bracelet ever since paying my respect to such a wonderful person. Whenever I think about her, or look at the bracelet, I am reminded to never take anything for granted, to enjoy every moment of my life, and try to make a difference in this world . . . and I BELIEVE. Hopefully this dream brings you some comfort and assurance that Jacquie is still with you.
hey jax…so last nite your brother came to see me at dwyers, we decided for halloween we are gonna dig into the closet and pull out our 80s workout theme costumes!! thats rigtht fanny packs and legwarmers…we will be thinking of u, as we always do!! i love you so much, cousin angela
As I continue to believe in Jacquie, I realize that more than anything she has inspired me to believe in myself. Her incredible fight, her amazing family, her supportive friends make it clear that we can’t waste a minute complaining and instead need to keep pushing through the pain. Just as Jax did. She is with me when I see purple flowers blooming amidst an empty field. The Tink pencil that suddenly appeared on my desk. The sun peaking through the clouds on the gloomiest day. She is all around us, yet no where to be seen unless we truly look, and truly believe.Sharon, Torey, and TJ: You raised an incredible daughter who continues to watch over all of those who were touched by your struggle. There is no way to ever get over the loss of a loved one. I hope that believing in the love that continues to pour over your family reminds you of Jax and lets you smile–just for a moment–knowing that unlike life, love is never-ending.
Jacquie-For some reason today everything I looked at reminded me of you. I think about you all day every day and some days I can smile and think of all the good things but most days, like today, I cry and still can’t believe that you are really gone. How will our family ever go on without you. I’m so mad that you are not here. I am so mad that when Olivia says your name she is looking at a picture and not at you. I am so mad that you will never do and see all the things you should have. I too think “when will I finally see you again”. It will be much too long. The Tinkerbell movie comes out tomorrow and I get weepy every time I see the commercial. I found a quote from the movie Peter Pan. Tinkerbell: You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That’s where I’ll always love you, Peter Pan. That’s where I’ll be waiting.” I’ll be waiting there Jacquie. I love you so much!
just sending my love out to you all, keep hanging in there. i’m thinking of you guys always. if 10 minutes goes by without jacquie or one of you being on my mind, i am pretty much stunned. so although you may feel alone because no one can truly understand your pain except for you and you alone, know that we are all here for you, waiting to hold your hand, or give you a hug, or a shoulder to rest your head whenever you need. if love was worth its weight in gold you guys would be richer than donald trump, bill gates, the sultan of dubai etc. infinite amounts of lovexoxoxo <3 alicia <3 xoxoxoxo
Sharon, I read your entries and weep. I can only imagine having to live day to day missing someone as much as you miss Jacquie.I never met either of you but I definately get the sense that you and Jax had a unique relationship.She was so fortunate to have family and friends as loving and caring as she had.I pray for your family often.
well i just got back from disney world and, as you all can imagine tink was everywhere…this made it a trying trip for me, but also happy at times…i saw a shirt with a tink on it very similar to Mr. Hirsch’s painting so , of course, i had to have it…i also saw some questionable people in tink attire but i held my tongue (and thoughts) because i know that is what jax would have wanted – more patience and kindness…sharon, i am at a loss for words about your entries…the pain and honesty you are sharing with so many others takes a very strong person… i hope you are feeling he love from each of us…as a mother i do not know how you are getting through each day except that Jacquie would wish for all of us to be happy and changed by her example…i feel so far away from you right now and wish i were there…i love you all
Sharon, You are brave and you are strong. Maybe it doesn’t feel like it right now, but everything you do, and every word you write proves it. I love you so much, we all do. Remember that. God bless, Casey
good morning! what a rainy sad looking day it is out today!makes me miss you even more than i normally do! i hope you feel how much we all miss you! my gf katie got me a tink card and it is hanging on my desk next to your pictures i cant help but get a lump in my throat when i look at it! i love and miss you! cousin angela
Good Morning, Sharon, I think Jacquie will always need you. Before she got sick she needed you in ways we all need our Moms; for food, shelter, laughter, rules and of course to buy us Vera Bradley. In Roswell, Sloan and at the Hope Lodge Jax needed you to take care of her, keep her safe, give her the right meds and make sure she never felt alone. Now Jax needs you to carry her name in your heart, pass her story along, love her until the end of time and keep believing. A daughter needs her mother, not only when they are together here on earth but when they have to be apart…Jax will always need you, just as you will always need her. I love you Sharon and am constantly thinking you all of you!! xoxo Ashley
Sharon, Torey & TJ,As I sit down to write you a message, I find myself immediately turning to Jax to tell me what to write or what I could say to you guys to remind you that I am here, I pray for you all every day, I talk to Jax every moment of the day, and i dream about Jacquie more than i ever thought possible. And then I realize that it is jacquie that got me through the past 7 weeks. It is Jacquie I’m turning to right now as I try to dig up the words to say to you. How ironic? How can she do it all, how can she be so strong, how can she be the one I’m counting on after all she’s been through. What have I done to deserves to be apart of someone like Jacquie’s life? … what have I done to deserve the opportunity to try and justify this all to you? There is no justification, there is only Jax – Jax who has inspired, changed, and was true to us all. Jacquie is a part of me, sometimes I think how I owe her who I am today. When I think of everything that has shaped my life… my childhood, I think of dancing with Jacquie, basketball with Jacquie, the gym, visits with Sarah and Matt, swim team at heim, talent shows, new years parties at the gym, teaching dreams, motorcycle rides, and everything in between. I think, how can I go on without someone that has been always played such a huge role in my life. What I am trying to realize every day, is that the way I looked up to Jacquie all my life, is the way that it will forever be. I will continue to listen to her, believe her, and look at her as my role model. You have shaped this amazing person that has touched so many lives in the way shes touched mine, and for that I am forever grateful to you. I know that this gratuity will never take the place of her missing, but it is her that has placed it inside of everyone she has touched. I’m sorry because I want to do more for her and for you. I miss her everyday and bring her with me wherever I go. I love you all and miss everyone terribly.Love so much, always believing,Nicki
Torey, my mom loves Paul Simon and played this song for me and I thought I would share it with you. (Sorry if you all are saying ENOUGH WITH THE LYRICS. i find that sometimes they help a bit.) The song is called “Father and Daughter,” here are some of the lyrics”If you leap awakeIn the mirror of a bad dreamAnd for a fraction of a secondYou can’t remember where you areJust open your window And follow your memory upstreamTo the meadow in the mountainWhere we counted every falling starI believe the light that shines on youWill shine on you foreverAnd though I can’t guarantee There’s nothing scary hiding under your bedI’m gonna stand guardLike a postcard of a Golden RetrieverAnd never leave till I leave you With a sweet dream in your headI’m gonna watch you shineGonna watch you growGonna paint a signSo you’ll always knowAs long as one and one is twoThere could never be a fatherWho loved his daughter more than I love you”i love you all.xoxo <3 alicia <3
Sharon, I have started this message so many times, but never quite finished it. I guess it is mostly out of fear that I wouldnt say the “right” thing. But I feel that I really need to tell you how grateful I am for your strength. Yor ability to continue to share your feelings with all of us, when your heart is broken, is such a gift to us. This year is Molly’s senior year in high school and I am having such a hard time with it. I find myself so sad, crying at the littlest things, thinking of the day next August when she leaves our home to go to college. I know that it is time, I know she is ready, but I am not ready. I feel as if I am losing her. I wish that I could turn back the clock. But then I read your messages and you remind me that I should be enjoying her senior year with her instead of dreading every “last” – her “last” homecoming dance, her “last” field hockey game, her “last” high school everything. Sharon, you inspire me to make the most of the special moments and even just the everyday moments that I sometimes take for granted. I can only hope that I have been half the mom to Molly & Megan that you continue to be to Jacquie.
Hello everybody! The Jacquie t-shirts are in and I am picking them up tomorrow! I will start shipping them out on Tuesday or I’ll be contacting you to get them to you very soon! Thank you to everyone who has already gotten their money to me – you are very speedy 🙂 Talk to you soon! ~Sadie the t-shirt lady
Hello Hirsch’s, Someone at work left me a tinkerbell charm on my desk. I don’t know who but I know that everyone at work feels like they know Jacquie so anyone of them would have known her love of Tink. I think that is pretty cool…Now I can wear that Tink around my neck which is good because the one I bought from Claire’s gives me a rash. I mean I still wear it but I scratch a lot. This will be better. I’m thinking of you always. I feel like Jacquie is everywhere yet just not in the way we want her to be. I see her in things everyday but I just want to see her physically. To be able to give her a hug. You know this 100% more than anyone else. My heart aches for you because I know you are broken and the only one who can fix it is Jacquie. I hope that time can at least ease the pain and you can feel us holding you tight. I hope your memories of Jax bring you many smiles. Continue to live like Jacquie would want – your love and strength is inspiring. I love you guys and I hope I get to see you soon. <3 Sadie
Hirsch’s, It was nice seeing you all today-your strength continues to amaze me. I love you and I am always here for you all. Sharon, you are right, the lyrics to Borrowed Angels are so beautiful and so true. Jacquie really is our angel and always will be. She truly touched my life and the lives of sooo many others in ways no one else can. I continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers, along with all your family and friends. Stay strong and continue to Believe <3 I love you and miss you Jax, more than you know. I will ALWAYS believe in you. Love, Amanda
Hey there family 🙂 Reading the update made me cry. Keep staying strong. Jax wants you guys to be happy, and I know this. She is such an amazing lady, and I am so happy to have the chance to meet her! I love you all, and I am always thinking of you, and always praying for you. Jacquie, Life is different down here now without you. I miss you, and your family misses you so so so badly. I am angry right now. My tears say I’m sad, but I am crying because I am so frustrated. Its unfair that things ended up this way. I just want to ask you one thing okay Jax? Even though I didnt know you very well, please watch over me. I need your help sometimes. I am sometimes alone down here, and no one who understands me sometimes, and I know that you do. Thank you so much! Thank you for giving me the opportunity to learn from you, you simply have changed my life. I bought a tinkerbell t-shirt the other night, and thats how much I love you, and will never forget you. Thanks again, and I love you so much. Natalie Maranto!
Dear Sharon, Everything good. That is what comes to mind when I think Of Jacquie. And you. For as long as I have known you , you were a care giver. Weather it was listening to a problem or offering some support to a friend or pinching some ones nose closed while they were scared and bleeding all over the place. You did everything good to help. In different times in my life, weather you remember or not, you were everything good to me. You made an impact in my life at different times and probably never knew. The very first time I meet you, I was about 13,at a gymnastic competition. EVERYONE knew who you were! You had such confidence in everything you did. I was so scared it was one of my first meets! Anyway, you made a point to wish me luck and you knew my name! That gave me confidence for that big day in my life. As the years past we taught at the same place, BuffaloTurners. I watched the way you coached. Always with such genuine interest and care for your student. Your love for coaching showed, And my love for coaching grew. One Sat. morning I got kicked in the nose by a gymnast I was teaching And was bleeding ALL over the place! I Flipped out crying and You held my hand and nose pinched for an Hour to try to make it stop bleeding, all the time joking with me to try and calm me down. I thought to my self WOW she is something else! Years later I was at a meet competing, I had just did a flawless beam routine (if I do say so my self!) And got totally ripped off on my score!(you were not judging beam) My next rotation was bars and I was so upset I did not want to continue to compete! I went into the locker room crying. You WERE judging on bars and the next thing I know you were in the locker room telling me to forget about my beam score and kick a** on bars!!! WHO DOES THAT?! WHAT JUDGE WOULD EVER DO THAT?!! SHARON DEPETERS HIRSCH ,THATS WHO!! Bars was never my strong event, but your point to me was KEEP GOING!! And I did! As the years past, you demonstrated time and time again your genuine interest and care for people. I remember After trying for a while, I finally was pregnant with Corey ,in my forties, and throwing up every where. You called me one day and asked what you could do to help , then you listened…. and listened, and listened as I talked about how sick I was for the next hour. You ,just listening to me, made me feel better, it really did! I think GOD puts people in each other lives at certain times for a reason. Jacquie was one of those people and so are you. You are EVERYTHING good. Please let me do what ever you need to help you feel better. It is your turn to let people help you . Please know how hard I pray for you. Always believing Missy
Sharon and Family My thoughts are with you ..I wish that mere thoughts could ease your pain…I wish that I had the ’right’ words to say.. Sharon you are a wonderful, wonderful, wonderful Mother…How else could Jacquie have turned out so beautiful and special?? God entrusted Jacquie to two special parents..I believe that God CHOSE you… My heat broke when I read your entry…second guessing yourself..When I went through my divorce (which of course is nothing compared to this) but I ALWAYS second guessed. I was always thinking “maybe if I had done A instead of B, he would still be here”…”WHY did I do A instead of B?” etc. But now I know, I did the very best I could. IF I had done ’B’ instead of ’A”…I WOULD STILL have second guessed myself. And so would you, please don’t doubt that. You know how your life seems to be dominated by numbers now? Maybe that’s Jacquie saying “Hi Mom, I love you.” Next time you hear a number…think of it as a message from Jacquie. Numbers won’t seem so bad then. I know that we don’t know each other very well Sharon, but from the very first day that I ever met you, I knew that there was something special about you. I mean that with all my heart. Sharing your story, sharing Jacquie’s story, has brought people closer together. Has brought a cure closer. We are all borrowed angels and everything we do touches others, and we don’t even know it. I pray you sleep well tonight.
hey pretty girl, Jacquie i just want you to know I miss you, I think about you all the time. I feel like this world is a darker sader place without you. today buff state had their first meet against geneseo and they did it in honor of you. It was really nice. on my way there I was thinking about when you and your family came into my life and you know what my life wouldnt be the same without you all in it. jax you were always that older, smarter, beautiful girl that I looked up too and still do. please keep smiling down on us and showing us the way. we miss you pretty girl and we’d do anything to have you back. love you always whit
They shine a little brighter, they feel a little more They touch your life in ways no one has ever done before They love a little stronger, they live to give their best They make our lives so blessed, so why do they go so soon? The ones with souls so beautiful I heard someone say– There must be Borrowed Angels, here in this life They come along, into this world, and make this world bright But they can’t stay forever Cause they’re heaven sent And sometimes, heaven needs them back again They reach a little deeper, they see what’s in your soul And even when they leave you know, you’ll never let them go The world’s a little richer, just cause they came along Their love goes on and on, so why do they go so soon? The ones with souls so beautiful. I heard someone say– They must be Borrowed Angels, here in this life They come along, into this world, and make this world bright They can’t stay forever, cause they’re heaven sent And sometimes, heaven needs them back again How else can you explain why they’re here and not here to stay? I believe there must be, must be Borrowed Angels, here in this life They come along, into this world, and make this world bright But they can’t stay forever, cause there heaven sent And sometimes heaven needs them back again. And sometimes heaven needs them back again.
a fellow SDT shared with song with me. Its called “violet eyes” by Jewel, she wrote it about her best friend who passed away from cancer. “It’s been awhile since you’ve been aroundI’ve been drifting like a gypsy from town to townI’ve been to France and Rome I seemed to almost glitter domesI’d lay beneath the Spanish summer skiesBut I’ve seen nothing so lovely as your violet eyes Do you recall the turquoise seas?On the isles off the shore of Greece?I’ve sworn I won’t forget your exact smile or where we went Oh I’ll see you in everything And everywhere I go I see your violet eyes…Seasons come and seasons pass Time can seem as fragile as a looking glass Oh I know there must be something more constant than time For a night when I sleep I feel you near me I see your violet eyes…If I could write a postcard to you I know that somehow it would get through Not sure I could express this aching in my chest I guess that I’ll always miss you And everywhere I go I see your violet eyes…Seasons come and seasons pass Life can seem as fragile as a looking glass Oh I know there must be something more constant than time for a night when I sleep I feel you near me I see your violet eyes…It was a year ago last Christmas we spent in Hawaii We were laughing beneath the stars playing in the sand, laughing in the sea It will be a year coming this 4th of July when for the last time we held your hand and for the last time closed your violet eyes…Seasons come and seasons pass Oh Life can seem as fragile Oh as fragile as a looking glass I know that there is something more constant than time for at night when I sleep I feel you near me I see your eyes upon me I see your violet eyes.”you can also watch the video at this website: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EdFP7H-hSPwxoxo <3 alicia <3 xoxo
Hirsch Family,My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you each and every day. I constantly am checking the website for a new update and reading everyone’s messages on the guestbook. Jacquie was so lucky to have so many people that cared about her. I do not know if you remember me because it was so long ago when I took gymnastics at GBGC, but no matter how much time passes, I feel so blessed to know each and every one of you at some point in my life. Your strength is so inspiring. I went to the senior meet at North this past Wednesday to see someone very special to me, whom I consider like a little sister to me, Megan Dressel. Torey, your speeches to the girls were wonderful! I know they were very appreciated by all of them, even you just being there was important.Sharon, you being at the meet was very important to the girls as well and it was great to see you both. Your strength is so wonderful and I only hope that your days get a little easier with the wonderful memories that you shared with your most beautiful daughter.Always believing and sending warm thoughts,Cassey
Sharon, Torey and TJ< With you always...wishing, caring, supporting and just wishing for so many things for you that just cannot be put into words. Jacquie, hold your mom, somehow hold onto her...for a mom it is just harder than hard to step through the moments. She is giving it her best as she always does and as you know she is doing it and doing it remarkably....but I imagine it is just so unbearable and if you can just touch her heart somehow!!! Sharon- you are doing it and I believe in you and I send you strength and courage as you experience all that you are. Love to you and a hug. Sara
First of all, God bless the person who posted the lyrics of the Kenny Chesney song, I have heard that song so many times recently, and although it makes me sad, it brings comfort to a certain extent. Secondly, Alicia, your post is so true and so beautiful, thank you so much for sharing that with all of us Jacquie Believers. Sharon, Torey, and TJ, You’ll all be glad to know that Jax was with me every step of the day today in that Kindergarten class. She had a gift with those little ones, and she was in my head and heart the entire day (not that that is different from any other day…) But here I am in one piece after the day is through and I know I could not have done it without our angel. God bless you all, Casey ps Jax, bananas are no longer called bananas in our house…they are now called “EEEKS!”:)
Sharon, Torey, TJ- you are all in my thoughts and prayers each day. I know the pain is heavy on your hearts. But I can only hope that along with the pain, there is laughter an good memories Jax!Jacquie- Today, 2 girls who never knew you planned a bake sale to benefit and remember you. I am still amazed at how far you have reached in touching people’s lives. Many Sig Delts will be there to help keep your memory alive. We miss you beautiful girl! I will never stop believing!Love,Melissa
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Angela says:
October 29, 2008 at 2:08 pm -
dear aunt sharon, im sitting at work reading your update, and i got an image in my head of jacquies final day here. the way the hospital smelled, the way she looked, how everyone else looked and my reaction when i heard the news, how i didnt want to leave the hospital that nite and how i dont know how you did leave the hospital! i am surrounded by her pictures and pictures of tink, people still asking everyday who that beautiful girl is..and of course questions of the tattoo. although i love to tell the story its so hard when they ask how she is. i have found myself consumed of thoughts of jacquie all day everyday.i miss her terribly and hope you know that you are not alone in this sadnness that if you ever just want to scream i will scream with you!!!! i love you so much, jax i love you so much, forever in my heart, cousin angela
John says:
October 29, 2008 at 12:50 pm -
Sara (albuquerque) says:
October 29, 2008 at 12:24 pm -
Sharon, Torey and TJ, Keep fighting and moving forward. You are doing amazing things. But no it is not how it should be, not at all and I don’t like it and never will. You are the Hirsch family 4, forever. It is unbearable for my heart to think about the hole in your heart. So I read on a post TJ is going to be in 80’s workout gear for Halloween. Now if I were home in Clarence Center (right around your corner) I would have to come over and Sharon you and I could dig up some old aerobic moves to show TJ and I could show him some new modernized “jazzercise” moves!! I had another lady push me out of my spot the other morning…I guess I took her area, oops. They are so territorial out here. So instead I was up front going totally opposite all others and probably messing up four lines of people behind me. Thinking of you Jacquie and that smile. Love, Sara
Amanda Cavarella says:
October 29, 2008 at 10:58 am -
I am thinking of you all each and every day. I miss you Jacquie Amanda
the keilly’s says:
October 29, 2008 at 10:56 am -
all of your messages here on the site show how much she means to everyone. we are all so angry that she’s not here anymore, and it shows how much she has changed everyone for the better. thank you torey and sharon for continuing to write your messages, for sharing your thoughts. i know it’s not easy for you. sharon, you are still helping jax- a daughter never stops needing her mom, even when it seems like they do. we always need our mom. it helps all of us get through this. we love you all.we love you jax. and we miss you terribly!
Huer says:
October 29, 2008 at 9:01 am -
Good Morning, So Jacquie is everywhere!! I was getting my nails done yesterday and as I was sitting under the hand dryer I was looking at the nail polish, the new fall OPI colors, and one color (a pretty gray) caught my eye, the name of the polish was taped to the front of it. Well do you want to know the name of the polish…”You didn’t know Jacquie.” I almost lost it right there in the nail salon. How ironic, gray is not a happy color, it is a sad color. And it made me think, geez I feel bad for the people who didn’t know Jacquie…I got to know her for the better part of 10 years…Everyday I wish she was still physically here, but I found some comfort (selfishly) knowing that there are people out there who should be wearing the color gray because they didn’t get to know Jax, I did and I am thankful for everyday I got to spend with her. I agree with LaGree I am a better person for being Jacquie’s friend. Always thinking and praying and believing. xoxoxo Ashley
Sadie says:
October 28, 2008 at 8:53 pm -
Just wanted to say, I love you all. Always.
Natalie says:
October 28, 2008 at 7:52 pm -
I am always thinking of Tink 🙂 Natalie M.
Megan D says:
October 28, 2008 at 7:15 pm -
Sharon and Torey, I’m not sure that i ever got the chance to thank you for coming to the meet last week. I cannot express to you how much it meant for you both to be there- you have seen me through thick and thin, good days and the bad ones, and have taught me so many lessons about life, and you still continue to teach me. You are responsible for my love of gymnastics, but you are also major contributors in who i am today. I’m extremely proud and honored to say that i know you both, that you have been a part of my life, and i know jacquie feels the same. Sharon, please keep your head up, and know that Jax loved you more than anything or anyone in the entire world. You were and still are an incredible mother, and i know that she’s proud of you for being so strong in this situation. Torey, thank you for my speech, it was absolutely beautiful. There is no one else that i wanted to make my speech, and i’m so glad that you were able to do it. I know Jax must have been there on wednesday, because i think we all had a little bit of tinkerbell magic that day 🙂 I love you all so much, and tj, its been nice to see your face around school a few times these past few weeks. You are such an amazing big brother, and i’m sure jax looks down on you and smiles 🙂 Jax, i miss you and i love you, and i will always believe<3
jammarlibre says:
October 28, 2008 at 6:20 pm -
Casey Stiokas says:
October 28, 2008 at 4:16 pm -
Jax, Thanks for being there today, and thanks for the Tink dust, it did its magic. Dad knew you were there too. Love you always, and forever Believing. Casey
Jackie says:
October 28, 2008 at 4:15 pm -
Hi Sharon- I feel kind of odd writing you this message because I don’t know you though I think I might have worked with you at Millard. I did sign the guest book on-line from the buffalo news to let you know a little about how your story touched me. I want to extend my deepest most sincere sympathy to you and your family. I wish there were some words someone could say. I do know that you and your daughter are inspiring so many people. But why though does it have to be through so much suffering? When I read the words you write about your daughter it makes me feel like somebody else gets it. Somebody can actually put to words how I feel about my chidren. I know everyone loves their children but I always feel like do they really understand how I feel. The word love does not seem adequate- it is used so often. That happens to be the only word we have but you really seem to know the kind of love I know with my children. I always want to be there for them every minute. I would give my life for them. I always want them to know if they can only imagine how much they are loved. As I mentioned in my note in the guest book – I have a brain tumor and started having seizures in Feb. I have three children. We are pretty hopeful the tumor is low grade and will take along time to grow. It is deep in the center of my brain too difficult and too risky to biopsy at this time. I am doing ok but many nights I feel paralyzed thinking- I HAVE to be here until they are at least grown. They need me. I sometimes want to grab my husband and say “I know you can take care of them but they HAVE to have me-you don’t understand.” I feel like you really understand what I am saying- by what you write I know you do. I cannot bear the thought of my kids having to go through the pain and greif if something were to happen. It is so hard to watch them have any difficulties. I too call my youngest girl my BFF. They are all my BFF’s but It just stuck with her. My older daughter is 9 and it is not as “cool” for her if you know what I mean. I wish I could express myself as you do. I hope my kids feel the kind of love from me that I know your daughter feels from you. I do know one thing for sure. Love is really what makes the world go round. Love deep from our souls. Our souls cannot be seen and live forever. Your daughter received more love in her lifetime then many can experience in five or more lifetimes. Even if they have lived until 100. What a lucky girl to have a Mom like you. If only everyone could get that much love what a wonderful world this would be.
John says:
October 28, 2008 at 12:32 pm -
Amanda Parisi says:
October 28, 2008 at 11:47 am -
I miss you Jax, I’m thinking of you every single day <3
missy v. says:
October 28, 2008 at 10:50 am -
I just wanted to share with you a dream I had the other night… I don’t remember a lot of detail, but I was somewhere outside with tons of people, maybe tailgating? I happened to look across the crowd and recognize TJ, and his mom and dad, all standing around a pickup truck. Then I saw Jacquie sitting inside the back of the truck, smiling and laughing. In my dream I remember being confused, wondering if it was really her, thinking it couldn’t be her. When I woke up, I realized that I had seen Jacquie. She was there in spirit, staying close to her family and enjoying the moment with them. For someone that never knew Jacquie very well, I find myself thinking about her often. I’ve worn the purple bracelet ever since paying my respect to such a wonderful person. Whenever I think about her, or look at the bracelet, I am reminded to never take anything for granted, to enjoy every moment of my life, and try to make a difference in this world . . . and I BELIEVE. Hopefully this dream brings you some comfort and assurance that Jacquie is still with you.
angela says:
October 28, 2008 at 10:21 am -
hey jax…so last nite your brother came to see me at dwyers, we decided for halloween we are gonna dig into the closet and pull out our 80s workout theme costumes!! thats rigtht fanny packs and legwarmers…we will be thinking of u, as we always do!! i love you so much, cousin angela
Anonymous says:
October 27, 2008 at 11:12 pm -
As I continue to believe in Jacquie, I realize that more than anything she has inspired me to believe in myself. Her incredible fight, her amazing family, her supportive friends make it clear that we can’t waste a minute complaining and instead need to keep pushing through the pain. Just as Jax did. She is with me when I see purple flowers blooming amidst an empty field. The Tink pencil that suddenly appeared on my desk. The sun peaking through the clouds on the gloomiest day. She is all around us, yet no where to be seen unless we truly look, and truly believe.Sharon, Torey, and TJ: You raised an incredible daughter who continues to watch over all of those who were touched by your struggle. There is no way to ever get over the loss of a loved one. I hope that believing in the love that continues to pour over your family reminds you of Jax and lets you smile–just for a moment–knowing that unlike life, love is never-ending.
Danielle, Matt and Olivia says:
October 27, 2008 at 9:39 pm -
Jacquie-For some reason today everything I looked at reminded me of you. I think about you all day every day and some days I can smile and think of all the good things but most days, like today, I cry and still can’t believe that you are really gone. How will our family ever go on without you. I’m so mad that you are not here. I am so mad that when Olivia says your name she is looking at a picture and not at you. I am so mad that you will never do and see all the things you should have. I too think “when will I finally see you again”. It will be much too long. The Tinkerbell movie comes out tomorrow and I get weepy every time I see the commercial. I found a quote from the movie Peter Pan. Tinkerbell: You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That’s where I’ll always love you, Peter Pan. That’s where I’ll be waiting.” I’ll be waiting there Jacquie. I love you so much!
alicia says:
October 27, 2008 at 9:26 pm -
just sending my love out to you all, keep hanging in there. i’m thinking of you guys always. if 10 minutes goes by without jacquie or one of you being on my mind, i am pretty much stunned. so although you may feel alone because no one can truly understand your pain except for you and you alone, know that we are all here for you, waiting to hold your hand, or give you a hug, or a shoulder to rest your head whenever you need. if love was worth its weight in gold you guys would be richer than donald trump, bill gates, the sultan of dubai etc. infinite amounts of lovexoxoxo <3 alicia <3 xoxoxoxo
John says:
October 27, 2008 at 8:32 pm -
A mom from Clarence says:
October 27, 2008 at 6:46 pm -
Sharon, I read your entries and weep. I can only imagine having to live day to day missing someone as much as you miss Jacquie.I never met either of you but I definately get the sense that you and Jax had a unique relationship.She was so fortunate to have family and friends as loving and caring as she had.I pray for your family often.
sue says:
October 27, 2008 at 6:39 pm -
well i just got back from disney world and, as you all can imagine tink was everywhere…this made it a trying trip for me, but also happy at times…i saw a shirt with a tink on it very similar to Mr. Hirsch’s painting so , of course, i had to have it…i also saw some questionable people in tink attire but i held my tongue (and thoughts) because i know that is what jax would have wanted – more patience and kindness…sharon, i am at a loss for words about your entries…the pain and honesty you are sharing with so many others takes a very strong person… i hope you are feeling he love from each of us…as a mother i do not know how you are getting through each day except that Jacquie would wish for all of us to be happy and changed by her example…i feel so far away from you right now and wish i were there…i love you all
missy says:
October 27, 2008 at 5:40 pm -
Sending happy thoughts, strength and prayers your way. Beliveing in the strength of the Hirsch Family. Missy
Casey Stiokas says:
October 27, 2008 at 4:19 pm -
Sharon, You are brave and you are strong. Maybe it doesn’t feel like it right now, but everything you do, and every word you write proves it. I love you so much, we all do. Remember that. God bless, Casey
aunt val says:
October 27, 2008 at 4:15 pm -
alicia, i love the lyrics….and this is beautiful
angela says:
October 27, 2008 at 12:48 pm -
good morning! what a rainy sad looking day it is out today!makes me miss you even more than i normally do! i hope you feel how much we all miss you! my gf katie got me a tink card and it is hanging on my desk next to your pictures i cant help but get a lump in my throat when i look at it! i love and miss you! cousin angela
Huer says:
October 27, 2008 at 8:58 am -
Good Morning, Sharon, I think Jacquie will always need you. Before she got sick she needed you in ways we all need our Moms; for food, shelter, laughter, rules and of course to buy us Vera Bradley. In Roswell, Sloan and at the Hope Lodge Jax needed you to take care of her, keep her safe, give her the right meds and make sure she never felt alone. Now Jax needs you to carry her name in your heart, pass her story along, love her until the end of time and keep believing. A daughter needs her mother, not only when they are together here on earth but when they have to be apart…Jax will always need you, just as you will always need her. I love you Sharon and am constantly thinking you all of you!! xoxo Ashley
Nicki Lagree says:
October 27, 2008 at 2:53 am -
Sharon, Torey & TJ,As I sit down to write you a message, I find myself immediately turning to Jax to tell me what to write or what I could say to you guys to remind you that I am here, I pray for you all every day, I talk to Jax every moment of the day, and i dream about Jacquie more than i ever thought possible. And then I realize that it is jacquie that got me through the past 7 weeks. It is Jacquie I’m turning to right now as I try to dig up the words to say to you. How ironic? How can she do it all, how can she be so strong, how can she be the one I’m counting on after all she’s been through. What have I done to deserves to be apart of someone like Jacquie’s life? … what have I done to deserve the opportunity to try and justify this all to you? There is no justification, there is only Jax – Jax who has inspired, changed, and was true to us all. Jacquie is a part of me, sometimes I think how I owe her who I am today. When I think of everything that has shaped my life… my childhood, I think of dancing with Jacquie, basketball with Jacquie, the gym, visits with Sarah and Matt, swim team at heim, talent shows, new years parties at the gym, teaching dreams, motorcycle rides, and everything in between. I think, how can I go on without someone that has been always played such a huge role in my life. What I am trying to realize every day, is that the way I looked up to Jacquie all my life, is the way that it will forever be. I will continue to listen to her, believe her, and look at her as my role model. You have shaped this amazing person that has touched so many lives in the way shes touched mine, and for that I am forever grateful to you. I know that this gratuity will never take the place of her missing, but it is her that has placed it inside of everyone she has touched. I’m sorry because I want to do more for her and for you. I miss her everyday and bring her with me wherever I go. I love you all and miss everyone terribly.Love so much, always believing,Nicki
Max says:
October 26, 2008 at 11:21 pm -
alicia says:
October 26, 2008 at 10:56 pm -
Torey, my mom loves Paul Simon and played this song for me and I thought I would share it with you. (Sorry if you all are saying ENOUGH WITH THE LYRICS. i find that sometimes they help a bit.) The song is called “Father and Daughter,” here are some of the lyrics”If you leap awakeIn the mirror of a bad dreamAnd for a fraction of a secondYou can’t remember where you areJust open your window And follow your memory upstreamTo the meadow in the mountainWhere we counted every falling starI believe the light that shines on youWill shine on you foreverAnd though I can’t guarantee There’s nothing scary hiding under your bedI’m gonna stand guardLike a postcard of a Golden RetrieverAnd never leave till I leave you With a sweet dream in your headI’m gonna watch you shineGonna watch you growGonna paint a signSo you’ll always knowAs long as one and one is twoThere could never be a fatherWho loved his daughter more than I love you”i love you all.xoxo <3 alicia <3
Coakley says:
October 26, 2008 at 8:53 pm -
Sorry, That last message was written by Cindy Coakley 🙂
Anonymous says:
October 26, 2008 at 8:23 pm -
Sharon, I have started this message so many times, but never quite finished it. I guess it is mostly out of fear that I wouldnt say the “right” thing. But I feel that I really need to tell you how grateful I am for your strength. Yor ability to continue to share your feelings with all of us, when your heart is broken, is such a gift to us. This year is Molly’s senior year in high school and I am having such a hard time with it. I find myself so sad, crying at the littlest things, thinking of the day next August when she leaves our home to go to college. I know that it is time, I know she is ready, but I am not ready. I feel as if I am losing her. I wish that I could turn back the clock. But then I read your messages and you remind me that I should be enjoying her senior year with her instead of dreading every “last” – her “last” homecoming dance, her “last” field hockey game, her “last” high school everything. Sharon, you inspire me to make the most of the special moments and even just the everyday moments that I sometimes take for granted. I can only hope that I have been half the mom to Molly & Megan that you continue to be to Jacquie.
T-SHIRTS says:
October 26, 2008 at 7:10 pm -
Hello everybody! The Jacquie t-shirts are in and I am picking them up tomorrow! I will start shipping them out on Tuesday or I’ll be contacting you to get them to you very soon! Thank you to everyone who has already gotten their money to me – you are very speedy 🙂 Talk to you soon! ~Sadie the t-shirt lady
Sadie says:
October 26, 2008 at 7:08 pm -
Hello Hirsch’s, Someone at work left me a tinkerbell charm on my desk. I don’t know who but I know that everyone at work feels like they know Jacquie so anyone of them would have known her love of Tink. I think that is pretty cool…Now I can wear that Tink around my neck which is good because the one I bought from Claire’s gives me a rash. I mean I still wear it but I scratch a lot. This will be better. I’m thinking of you always. I feel like Jacquie is everywhere yet just not in the way we want her to be. I see her in things everyday but I just want to see her physically. To be able to give her a hug. You know this 100% more than anyone else. My heart aches for you because I know you are broken and the only one who can fix it is Jacquie. I hope that time can at least ease the pain and you can feel us holding you tight. I hope your memories of Jax bring you many smiles. Continue to live like Jacquie would want – your love and strength is inspiring. I love you guys and I hope I get to see you soon. <3 Sadie
Amanda Cavarella says:
October 25, 2008 at 11:45 pm -
Hirsch’s, It was nice seeing you all today-your strength continues to amaze me. I love you and I am always here for you all. Sharon, you are right, the lyrics to Borrowed Angels are so beautiful and so true. Jacquie really is our angel and always will be. She truly touched my life and the lives of sooo many others in ways no one else can. I continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers, along with all your family and friends. Stay strong and continue to Believe <3 I love you and miss you Jax, more than you know. I will ALWAYS believe in you. Love, Amanda
Natalie Maranto says:
October 25, 2008 at 11:16 pm -
Hey there family 🙂 Reading the update made me cry. Keep staying strong. Jax wants you guys to be happy, and I know this. She is such an amazing lady, and I am so happy to have the chance to meet her! I love you all, and I am always thinking of you, and always praying for you. Jacquie, Life is different down here now without you. I miss you, and your family misses you so so so badly. I am angry right now. My tears say I’m sad, but I am crying because I am so frustrated. Its unfair that things ended up this way. I just want to ask you one thing okay Jax? Even though I didnt know you very well, please watch over me. I need your help sometimes. I am sometimes alone down here, and no one who understands me sometimes, and I know that you do. Thank you so much! Thank you for giving me the opportunity to learn from you, you simply have changed my life. I bought a tinkerbell t-shirt the other night, and thats how much I love you, and will never forget you. Thanks again, and I love you so much. Natalie Maranto!
Missy says:
October 25, 2008 at 11:09 pm -
Dear Sharon, Everything good. That is what comes to mind when I think Of Jacquie. And you. For as long as I have known you , you were a care giver. Weather it was listening to a problem or offering some support to a friend or pinching some ones nose closed while they were scared and bleeding all over the place. You did everything good to help. In different times in my life, weather you remember or not, you were everything good to me. You made an impact in my life at different times and probably never knew. The very first time I meet you, I was about 13,at a gymnastic competition. EVERYONE knew who you were! You had such confidence in everything you did. I was so scared it was one of my first meets! Anyway, you made a point to wish me luck and you knew my name! That gave me confidence for that big day in my life. As the years past we taught at the same place, BuffaloTurners. I watched the way you coached. Always with such genuine interest and care for your student. Your love for coaching showed, And my love for coaching grew. One Sat. morning I got kicked in the nose by a gymnast I was teaching And was bleeding ALL over the place! I Flipped out crying and You held my hand and nose pinched for an Hour to try to make it stop bleeding, all the time joking with me to try and calm me down. I thought to my self WOW she is something else! Years later I was at a meet competing, I had just did a flawless beam routine (if I do say so my self!) And got totally ripped off on my score!(you were not judging beam) My next rotation was bars and I was so upset I did not want to continue to compete! I went into the locker room crying. You WERE judging on bars and the next thing I know you were in the locker room telling me to forget about my beam score and kick a** on bars!!! WHO DOES THAT?! WHAT JUDGE WOULD EVER DO THAT?!! SHARON DEPETERS HIRSCH ,THATS WHO!! Bars was never my strong event, but your point to me was KEEP GOING!! And I did! As the years past, you demonstrated time and time again your genuine interest and care for people. I remember After trying for a while, I finally was pregnant with Corey ,in my forties, and throwing up every where. You called me one day and asked what you could do to help , then you listened…. and listened, and listened as I talked about how sick I was for the next hour. You ,just listening to me, made me feel better, it really did! I think GOD puts people in each other lives at certain times for a reason. Jacquie was one of those people and so are you. You are EVERYTHING good. Please let me do what ever you need to help you feel better. It is your turn to let people help you . Please know how hard I pray for you. Always believing Missy
Bill says:
October 25, 2008 at 9:21 pm -
KIm says:
October 25, 2008 at 8:58 pm -
Miss you Jax!
Sharon Colasanti says:
October 25, 2008 at 5:27 pm -
Sharon and Family My thoughts are with you ..I wish that mere thoughts could ease your pain…I wish that I had the ’right’ words to say.. Sharon you are a wonderful, wonderful, wonderful Mother…How else could Jacquie have turned out so beautiful and special?? God entrusted Jacquie to two special parents..I believe that God CHOSE you… My heat broke when I read your entry…second guessing yourself..When I went through my divorce (which of course is nothing compared to this) but I ALWAYS second guessed. I was always thinking “maybe if I had done A instead of B, he would still be here”…”WHY did I do A instead of B?” etc. But now I know, I did the very best I could. IF I had done ’B’ instead of ’A”…I WOULD STILL have second guessed myself. And so would you, please don’t doubt that. You know how your life seems to be dominated by numbers now? Maybe that’s Jacquie saying “Hi Mom, I love you.” Next time you hear a number…think of it as a message from Jacquie. Numbers won’t seem so bad then. I know that we don’t know each other very well Sharon, but from the very first day that I ever met you, I knew that there was something special about you. I mean that with all my heart. Sharing your story, sharing Jacquie’s story, has brought people closer together. Has brought a cure closer. We are all borrowed angels and everything we do touches others, and we don’t even know it. I pray you sleep well tonight.
Anonymous says:
October 25, 2008 at 5:08 pm -
hey pretty girl, Jacquie i just want you to know I miss you, I think about you all the time. I feel like this world is a darker sader place without you. today buff state had their first meet against geneseo and they did it in honor of you. It was really nice. on my way there I was thinking about when you and your family came into my life and you know what my life wouldnt be the same without you all in it. jax you were always that older, smarter, beautiful girl that I looked up too and still do. please keep smiling down on us and showing us the way. we miss you pretty girl and we’d do anything to have you back. love you always whit
Anonymous says:
October 25, 2008 at 3:08 pm -
They shine a little brighter, they feel a little more They touch your life in ways no one has ever done before They love a little stronger, they live to give their best They make our lives so blessed, so why do they go so soon? The ones with souls so beautiful I heard someone say– There must be Borrowed Angels, here in this life They come along, into this world, and make this world bright But they can’t stay forever Cause they’re heaven sent And sometimes, heaven needs them back again They reach a little deeper, they see what’s in your soul And even when they leave you know, you’ll never let them go The world’s a little richer, just cause they came along Their love goes on and on, so why do they go so soon? The ones with souls so beautiful. I heard someone say– They must be Borrowed Angels, here in this life They come along, into this world, and make this world bright They can’t stay forever, cause they’re heaven sent And sometimes, heaven needs them back again How else can you explain why they’re here and not here to stay? I believe there must be, must be Borrowed Angels, here in this life They come along, into this world, and make this world bright But they can’t stay forever, cause there heaven sent And sometimes heaven needs them back again. And sometimes heaven needs them back again.
alicia says:
October 25, 2008 at 1:10 pm -
a fellow SDT shared with song with me. Its called “violet eyes” by Jewel, she wrote it about her best friend who passed away from cancer. “It’s been awhile since you’ve been aroundI’ve been drifting like a gypsy from town to townI’ve been to France and Rome I seemed to almost glitter domesI’d lay beneath the Spanish summer skiesBut I’ve seen nothing so lovely as your violet eyes Do you recall the turquoise seas?On the isles off the shore of Greece?I’ve sworn I won’t forget your exact smile or where we went Oh I’ll see you in everything And everywhere I go I see your violet eyes…Seasons come and seasons pass Time can seem as fragile as a looking glass Oh I know there must be something more constant than time For a night when I sleep I feel you near me I see your violet eyes…If I could write a postcard to you I know that somehow it would get through Not sure I could express this aching in my chest I guess that I’ll always miss you And everywhere I go I see your violet eyes…Seasons come and seasons pass Life can seem as fragile as a looking glass Oh I know there must be something more constant than time for a night when I sleep I feel you near me I see your violet eyes…It was a year ago last Christmas we spent in Hawaii We were laughing beneath the stars playing in the sand, laughing in the sea It will be a year coming this 4th of July when for the last time we held your hand and for the last time closed your violet eyes…Seasons come and seasons pass Oh Life can seem as fragile Oh as fragile as a looking glass I know that there is something more constant than time for at night when I sleep I feel you near me I see your eyes upon me I see your violet eyes.”you can also watch the video at this website: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EdFP7H-hSPwxoxo <3 alicia <3 xoxo
Cassey Stallman says:
October 25, 2008 at 11:53 am -
Hirsch Family,My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you each and every day. I constantly am checking the website for a new update and reading everyone’s messages on the guestbook. Jacquie was so lucky to have so many people that cared about her. I do not know if you remember me because it was so long ago when I took gymnastics at GBGC, but no matter how much time passes, I feel so blessed to know each and every one of you at some point in my life. Your strength is so inspiring. I went to the senior meet at North this past Wednesday to see someone very special to me, whom I consider like a little sister to me, Megan Dressel. Torey, your speeches to the girls were wonderful! I know they were very appreciated by all of them, even you just being there was important.Sharon, you being at the meet was very important to the girls as well and it was great to see you both. Your strength is so wonderful and I only hope that your days get a little easier with the wonderful memories that you shared with your most beautiful daughter.Always believing and sending warm thoughts,Cassey
Sara (albuquerque) says:
October 25, 2008 at 11:48 am -
Sharon, Torey and TJ< With you always...wishing, caring, supporting and just wishing for so many things for you that just cannot be put into words. Jacquie, hold your mom, somehow hold onto her...for a mom it is just harder than hard to step through the moments. She is giving it her best as she always does and as you know she is doing it and doing it remarkably....but I imagine it is just so unbearable and if you can just touch her heart somehow!!! Sharon- you are doing it and I believe in you and I send you strength and courage as you experience all that you are. Love to you and a hug. Sara
Anonymous says:
October 25, 2008 at 10:09 am -
I miss you Jac
Casey Stiokas says:
October 24, 2008 at 10:11 pm -
First of all, God bless the person who posted the lyrics of the Kenny Chesney song, I have heard that song so many times recently, and although it makes me sad, it brings comfort to a certain extent. Secondly, Alicia, your post is so true and so beautiful, thank you so much for sharing that with all of us Jacquie Believers. Sharon, Torey, and TJ, You’ll all be glad to know that Jax was with me every step of the day today in that Kindergarten class. She had a gift with those little ones, and she was in my head and heart the entire day (not that that is different from any other day…) But here I am in one piece after the day is through and I know I could not have done it without our angel. God bless you all, Casey ps Jax, bananas are no longer called bananas in our house…they are now called “EEEKS!”:)
Harry says:
October 24, 2008 at 8:12 pm -
Sharon, Torey, and TJ, Thinking of you always. Believing forever. Jax, Eeek, Eeek, Eeek, Eeek, Eeek-Ahey, (fishing in Canada), Eeek.
angela says:
October 24, 2008 at 3:33 pm -
thinking of you alot today jax, you have been everywhere today thank you cuz i needed it! aunt sharon, uncle torey and tj, love you all! cousin angela
Melissa says:
October 24, 2008 at 10:59 am -
Sharon, Torey, TJ- you are all in my thoughts and prayers each day. I know the pain is heavy on your hearts. But I can only hope that along with the pain, there is laughter an good memories Jax!Jacquie- Today, 2 girls who never knew you planned a bake sale to benefit and remember you. I am still amazed at how far you have reached in touching people’s lives. Many Sig Delts will be there to help keep your memory alive. We miss you beautiful girl! I will never stop believing!Love,Melissa