Dearest Jacquie, There’s not a day that goes by that I do not think of you and your family. I remember last fall when I was up for alumni weekend and we talked at 14 Court. I could have never guessed (or wanted to guess) what would occur with the next year. At times I feel regret because I didn’t see you after that night, but at others I feel blessed because I saw you in your last moments of “normal” life. I guess it was meant to be that the lasting memory that I’ll have of you is being your happy, go- lucky self. As has been stated by so many, you have a lasting effect on all that you meet. Many of my co-workers at school know of you and even some of my former students have asked about you. I know that your effect on the world will never end. I wanted you to know that even though we didn’t have much time together in college, I am always grateful for the time we did. I will always claim you as my pseudo little-little, and will do so very proudly. Spread your wings Tink. There’s much for you to see at your angel’s eye view. Love and miss you, Krystal
Hirsch Family,I just wanted to let you know that I think about you every day. I carry Jacquie’s picture in my wallet so I can have a constant reminder of her courage and strength. Please know that she has changed my life and the lives of so many others. I miss her and all of you so much. Sharon-I can’t wait for our girls day this thanksgiving break! Love,Liz
aunt sharon, uncle torey and tj….i havent seen or talked to you guys in awhile and i am hoping you know that i am here for you for anything you may need!!!! i love you all so much and am missing jax still everyday! love, cousin angela
Bills 3-0… this is like an unprecedented event for the past 10 or so years…Jacquie is their ANGEL IN THE ENDZONE.if you think about it, who really needs a litlte more faith & a little something to BELIEVE in more than that Bills? hahai love you family, keep holding tight to one another. keep crying when you need. scream too, it’ll get a lot of the stuff you’ve been holding in really there out. in my heart & on my mind ALLwaysI ALLways BELIEVE.<3 alicia <3
Hirsch Family, I hope this week brings you happy memories of Jacquie and lots of laughter while you think of those memories…and if you are feeling down go to Mighty and get a Nachos deluxe (minus the salsa) and think of Jax the whole time you are eating it! I love you guys!! Always a believer! xo Ashley
You guys are constantly in my thoughts. I will cherish my memories of Jacquie forever. I do my best to treat people with as much kindness, happiness, and respect as Jacquie did every day. I just want you to know that your daughter and sister was the type of person who’s impact will never be forgotten.- Rory
Yesterday I went into work, and let me tell you I did not want to be there. I was only back for the day to help my boss in a pinch and it was the first time working since August, so I was slightly miserable. A customer came in and when she cashed out she paid with a credit card, and who was on that credit card? Well, none other than the fabulous Tinkerbell. It made me smile, and eventually when the customer left shed a tear or two, but I knew that it was Jax, telling me to be happy and to smile more often. And the othe day while I was mowing the lawn, I saw a banana peel (that very well may have been my dads) but it made me laught none the less. As you know (even more than I do) it has been very hard to smile and be happy these past few weeks, but it is the little things like Tinkerbell popping up somewhere or seeing a rainbow like Alicia did, or finding a banana peel on the side of the road, and it makes you know that it is okay to start to feel some sort of emotion other than sadness and not be so numb anymore. Sharon, your posts are beautiful and I find myself looking every day for an update, I don’t think I will stop doing that for quite some time. Thank you so much for writing them, and know that we care about all of you and love you and pray for you every day. Every thing that we do will be for Jax and the amazing Hirsch family who taught us so much this past year, but most importantly, to keep Believing. God bless you all, Casey
Dear Sharon, I can never even begin to know the pain you are bearing. I pray ever day for you ….I wish so hard I knew what to say to help you. But what I do know and BELIEVE is that nothing, can break the bond and the love between a mother and her child. Love is stronger than anything and everything. You both had such a special relationship, one that a lot of moms only wish they had with their child. Jacquie is your daughter and you her mom. Nothing will ever change that, nothing. I also know you are one of the strongest people I know. You have always been strong. Even as kids, for as long as I have known you, the strength inside of you has amazed me. Jacquie was her mothers daughter in that respect as well. I also believe with everything that is in me , Jacquie is always with you. She will be giving you strength, and you will always feel her love. You are so very loved by so many people who want to be there for you and help you in any way we can. Please know I am here any time of day or night for you . Also know I believe in you. Missy
You’ve already given us one gift through the lessons of Jacquie’s life. Now you’re inspiring us all over again by sharing the (in some ways more difficult) battle of a family trying to move on without her. There may be nothing we can say to make it easier, but do know that you’re making it easier for others who share your pain. Thank you.
OK Jacquie….I am convinced now! You see, I always thought I believed in fairies and angels. Tonight while the kids and I were at “Light the Night Walk” here in downtown Albuquerque, holding our balloons, I looked up toward this very small patch of sky that was between 2 of the very few tall buildings here in Albuquerque. And guess what was there, yep, a beautiful rainbow. I was holding it together until then and then my eyes filled with tears. I for sure believe in fairies and angels and I do believe you are one of the most beautiful of angels. I smile inside when I think of you and your family, but I also have such a sad and empty spot in my heart that will never go away. And that is OK because it means that you meant something special to all of us. Thinking of you Sharon and sending a hug your way. Love, Sara
Dear Jacquie, i am having such a hard time just getting through each day… as others have said it does not seem to be getting any easier…and i am so very worried for your BFF…i pray that your can give her the strength to get through each day-just putting one foot in front of the other for now…i am so thankful for the time i did get to spend with you over the last year, but it wasn’t nearly enough…please know that i will always and forever BELIEVE and that each time i see that word i think of you (which at the moment is not the most useful because i spend a bit of time crying)…i love you always sweet angel…sue
i just wrote a whole long post and i somehow deleted it. argh. i will try my best to recreate it soon.i love you all. keep hanging in there. i BELIEVED (and still do BELIEVE) in Jacquie and i BELIEVE in you Sharon Torey & TJ… to come out of this, bruised, but stronger all the same. <3 alicia <3 p.s. apparently bursting into tears in the middle of the gym when the "stand up to cancer" song comes on will award you tons of strange looks.
Sharon, TJ, and Torey: Each and every day I am thinking about all three of you, and how life is without Jax. I know that deep in your hearts, she will always and forever be there. She is a wonderful woman. She has taught me so much over this past year. Now she is not in pain anymore, and she is happy, and I know that all you want is for Jax to be happy, and not suffering. You all cared for her so much, and you all loved and still do love her so much. She is such a great role model to me. Everything she has accomplished and everything she has been through, made my life. My life is now changed because of your daughter. You are such a lucky family to have a wonderful daughter like Jax. There is simply no better daughter than her. Again, I am thinking always of her and you guys, and I pray every night that God guides her up in heaven and gives her strength and courage. Sharon, I pray for you, that you can get through this. That God will look over you and give you that strength. You are such a great mother and a wonderful lady. Every girl needs her mother, to tell all her secrets to, and just be a great friend, and you were more than that to Jacquie. TJ, I really cannot explain how much Jacquie loved you, and you probably already know that. You are her big brother, and nothing can change that. You guys grew up together, and have been best friends since birth. Torey, you are an awsome dad. Again, every girl needs there daddy. A person to talk to and have fun with. You are such an incredible man, and whenever I saw Jax talk to you, i could see the happiness in her. She loves you, TJ, and Sharon, beyond belief. Sorry this is so long 🙂 I just want to tell you how I feel, and I will FOREVER AND ALWAYS BELIEVE, NO MATTER WHAT! I love all of you guys! ~Natalie Maranto~
Dear Sharon and Torey, I know that both Jacquie and T.J. are laughing at me because I couldn’t get these three messages all together. How can I thank you for the gift of two wonderful grandchildren and for letting me so involved in their lives? You all have given me so much joy–sports events, special days, trips to Geneseo–I could never count them all. My heart broke when I learned of Jacquie’s diagnosis but I knew that the two of you would make sure she would get the best care and everything that could be possibly be done would be. I am so proud of the strength, courage and love you both have shown throughout these unbelievably hard months. I wish I could ease you heartache. You know I will do anything you ask. Jacquie will help all of us and always be with us. She is the miracle I prayed so hard for. I love you both so much. Mom
T.J., My wonderful Grandson. I have always been so proud of you and so happy to be your Grandmother, but never more so than during these last 11 months. You were Jacquie’s rock and I will always remember how her face would light up when you walked into her room–no matter how bad she felt. You’d kiss her head, check to make sure she was comfortable and stay near her. And what a gift you gave her with this web site! Because of you, Jacquie touched and inspired uncountable lives. Jacquie will always be with you sharing jokes noone else can understand, going to car shows, sharing favorite food and I’m sure she’ll be giving you a kiss on your head often to remind you she will always be with you. I love you so much and will always be here for you. Your Bree
My Precious Granddaughter. How proud I have always been to be your grandmother and a part of your life and that pride keeps growing every day. I loved every minute I spent with you or talked with you. I loved the sleepovers, the trips to Vidler’s, bowls of chili, watching musicals and dishes of chocolate-peanut butter ice cream. You will always be with me and I will always see your beautiful, smiling face and hear your cheery “Hi, Bree”. I will love you and keep you in my heart forever.
Dear Sharon: I am one of many who have followed your family’s heartache from the beginning. As do others, I continue to check Jackie’s website. Last night I read your post asking Jackie to help you. So I would like to share with you my belief and what I have experienced from loved ones who are in heaven. There is more power in heaven than on earth, when you ask for help or strength they will find a way to grant your wish, when you talk to them aloud, you will feel them around you, when you cry they find a way to comfort you. Sometimes it happens through dreams, a scent, a memory. Whatever the experience may be, Jackie loves you and wants you to know. Sharon, grieving is a heartache, it hurts so bad, please know your family, friends, Jackie’s friends and me too, a stranger believes in you. Thank you.
Always loving and thinking of you guys. Sharon your posts are so amazing. So real and so heartfelt – they remind me of Jax. I know she’d be the first one to want to heal your heart right now. I also know she is the only one that could… I wish she was here to do that but I hope you can feel her hand on your shoulder as she smiles on you – so proud of the Mother that you are to her. I love you guys and you are always on my mind. Always loving and still believing, <3 Sadie
Sharon, I read your messages and my heart breaks for you. I don’t know how you go on. I haven’t lived through anything like you are going through now, and I pray to God that I never have to. So, my advice doesn’t mean much.. but it seems that you need to just work on breathing in and out, and getting through each minute and then each day.I would bet that there are times you don’t want to get through a day – another day without your beautiful Jacquie, but you have to – for your son and husband and all the people who love you. And I think ,maybe, to start getting through each day you just have to breathe and get through the next minute, next hour, next day.I pray that God will help you. Barb
sharon…. I have thought about you and your family daily…I have thought about Jacquie and her stuggle and how her stuggle has helped me. When you are in the fight yourself and then things start to get better you try to run as fast as you can to hide..but in reading your site still your messages continue to remind me everyday of my gift of life. Jacquie is so lucky to have you to continue her work and be able to help those remeber what the gift of life is all about!! Jacquies strenght I believe she has pasted on to you in order to get you though this and have us a BELIEVE
Jax- i think about you every single day…i wear my tinkerbell necklace all the time and people always tell me how much they love it. Its my way of keeping you close to my heart…i want you to know i will always believe, and thank you for everything you have taught all of us. torey, sharon and tj- the three of you never cease to amaze me…how you have managed to stay strong through all of this is a mystery to me. Please know that we are all here for you, and don’t hesitate to ask. i love all four of you.
Jacquie’s Mom-Sharon- Since I have been Brooks’ mom on all my post I figured that you should be Jacquie’s mom on my post…I just wanted to let you know that I think of you each day and I pray that you are well….I worry about you….I only look at Brooks and know the pain you feel….I so wish I could do something to help ease your pain…but all I can do is say….I care…I send you my hugs….Losing someone to cancer just sucks…I lost my mother last year….and like you, I am somedays not certain how to deal….I wanted to call her so badly yesterday to tell her something….she was one of my very BFF’s…I am only hoping that Jacquie has had fried chicken, blackeyed peas, green beans and southern style corn bread(my very favorite meal)…I know that my momma was just waiting to feed that girl….(her favorite thing to do!)…you might not know but southern women take cooking for their family very seriously!Please know that Jacquie is thought of in our home so often…Brooks and I were at Target getting things for the newest SDT’s(her little-little??) and everywhere I looked there seemed to be Tinkerbell stuff…I smiled each time I saw another…please smile up tonight and hug Torey and TJ too for me….know that I wish you and your boys my best….You are in my Heart Jacuqie’s MOM!!Fondly,Brooks’ Mom
ive been staring at the computer screen for the last few minutes not knowing what to write but feeling that i should write something. i guess this is a somewhat of a way to talk to you jax, and somehow a way aunt sharon, uncle torey and tj will feel that we are all keeping you alive through the site! but i dont know how to talk to you like this and tell you that i miss you so very much and why it seems each day gone by has yet to get any easier! i think about you all the time and wish i could hear that laugh of yours again!i hope you are watching us somehow…seeing how much you are loved and are so dearly missed by sooooo many people! i will love you always… cousin angela
Sharon, please keep your updates coming if you have the strength. I cannot imagine your pain and sorrow but I think it might help to share it with all of us. Please know that we all share your pain (although ours cannot ever compare to the magnitude of yours). Its true that the connection between a mother and daughter is one that transcends the boundaries of distance and time, even this. She is with you. Please take care.
Thank you Sharon for expressing to the whole world such heartfelt intimate feelings about your family. Today would have been my parent’s 55th wedding anniversary, but my dad lived only 41 years of them. He has stayed with us every day since, and everyday it is sad, but everyday we see him in something beautiful around us. Dr. Elizabeth Kubler-Ross’ last book, the one she wrote when she was dying, expresses these ideas very clearly. There is a butterfly on the cover. It’s a wonderful book 🙂
Hi Jacquie…I see your smile!Sharon,sending some strength and courage your way…I believe in all that YOU are. You and Torey have raised two of the most impressive and remarkable human beings I have encountered in my life. They are both special and the love and bond your family shares is magical. I wish I had words, but I know there are none, I wish I had a magic wand!!! Thinking of you and with you always. Sara
i wish that there was something that i could do to ease the pain in your heart…i hope you know what an amazing mother and woman you are. keeping writing and we all will keep listening, just like jax is and always will be. sneding many hugs and thoughts your way today. 0:)
Sharon, Not a day has passed that I don’t think of you and Jacquie. I’ve never been a Mom so I can’t even begin to understand the pain you are feeling. I won’t try and say I understand. I’ll only tell you that everyday is going to be different and someday’s you are going to be angry and want to scream (so go ahead and SCREAM), someday’s you are going to be sad (so go ahead and CRY), nd someday’s you are going to remember something, or hear a story and it’s going to make you smile (so go ahead and SMILE). I don’t think losing someone ever gets easier, I think it just changes. Sharon try and stay strong, we all BELIEVE and we all are praying. xoxo, Ashley
good evening all. jax we love you and i still can’t believe it’s real. sharon, torey, tj thank you for allowing us to say goodbye to jax. she was and is well loved and she was a true teacher. you are all amazing people and have been my “second” family for many years now, so if there is anything i can do, please let me know. i do not know how to say goodbye to one of your kids, but i do know that my heart hurts for what you are now enduring. you are truly inspirational and i continue to learn much from each of you every day on the true meaning of family. lean on us now, for each of us is family and that’s what we are here for. i love you all dearly. sharon i hope to see you soon, okay? if there is anything i can do please let me know, even if it is just to be someone to hold your hand. love always keesha
Sharon, Your messages help me/us. They help everyone who wants to give you a hug, or do anything you need. They just help us. I am not sure how, but maybe just still being allowed to be a part of your continued fight – a new fight- to wake up and just breath. We cry, we get mad but we still feel connected to all of you through your messages. Thank you for keeping us a part of your life. Everytime one of the kids or myself catch ourselves not smiling or being kind, we say “Is that what Jacquie would do”. Jacquie is helping myself and my family to be better people!! You are in our thoughts and prayers daily. Trish/Patti
Jacquie,”If tears could build a stairway, and memories were a lane, I would walk right up to Heaven to bring you home again.” i miss and love you so much beautiful.and i love you all hirsch’s et al. hang in there.xoxxo <3 alicia <3
TJ, Sharon, and Torey, and Jax A new day, another walk, another “eeek” and a banana peel “planted”. I’m thinking of you always. We all visit the guest book everyday. I’ll be in touch soon with an update on my Memphis project. Still and always “Believing” Harry PS – our bracelets are never coming off, need to order more.
Sharon, Not sure if you know this song, but it was one of Jacquie’s favorites and she used to listen to it especially when she was having a bad day. Needless to say, it would always cheer her up and paint a big smile on her face. It’s called “Float On” by Modest Mouse and here are some of the more relevant lyrics I think Jacquie would want you to hear: “And we’ll all float on alright We’ll all float onDon’t worry, even if things end up a bit too heavyWe’ll all float on alrightWe’ll all float onAlright already we’ll all float onOk don’t worry we’ll all float onEven if things get heavy we’ll all float onAlright already we’ll all float onDon’t you worry we’ll all float on”
Although none of you know me, I know a friend of Jacquie. This friend’s love for Jacquie seeps from within. How blessed you are to have had her in your lives. My heart goes out to you.
Sharon, Torey, TJ and Jacquie ( as I do believe Jacquie you are still reading our messages), Yesterday, I heard a blurb on the local radio station here in ABQ about “light the night” but missed all the details. I then stumbled across the same words under events on this site. I was able to track down an event here in NM scheduled for this Saturday. Since then, I have registered for the walk. Elise and I plan to wear our “Jacquie” shirts and we will carry a balloon and walk out here in NM, in honor and memory of Jacquie Hirsch’s beautiful life. So once again thank you to your wonderful website. I wish Jacquie was physically with your family, I wish that more than anything else, but one thing I know…we will all always remember Jacquie. The emptiness in the heart will always be there, but so will her spirit! Love and strength being sent your way. Sara and family
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Krystal says:
September 22, 2008 at 8:44 pm -
Dearest Jacquie, There’s not a day that goes by that I do not think of you and your family. I remember last fall when I was up for alumni weekend and we talked at 14 Court. I could have never guessed (or wanted to guess) what would occur with the next year. At times I feel regret because I didn’t see you after that night, but at others I feel blessed because I saw you in your last moments of “normal” life. I guess it was meant to be that the lasting memory that I’ll have of you is being your happy, go- lucky self. As has been stated by so many, you have a lasting effect on all that you meet. Many of my co-workers at school know of you and even some of my former students have asked about you. I know that your effect on the world will never end. I wanted you to know that even though we didn’t have much time together in college, I am always grateful for the time we did. I will always claim you as my pseudo little-little, and will do so very proudly. Spread your wings Tink. There’s much for you to see at your angel’s eye view. Love and miss you, Krystal
missy says:
September 22, 2008 at 7:22 pm -
Dear Sharon Tory and T.J., Know we are thnking of you. Always Believing Missy
Liz Fassl says:
September 22, 2008 at 6:57 pm -
Hirsch Family,I just wanted to let you know that I think about you every day. I carry Jacquie’s picture in my wallet so I can have a constant reminder of her courage and strength. Please know that she has changed my life and the lives of so many others. I miss her and all of you so much. Sharon-I can’t wait for our girls day this thanksgiving break! Love,Liz
sue says:
September 22, 2008 at 6:33 pm -
just thinking of you- sharon, torey,tj and jax. wish i could say something to take away the hurt but there aren’t any words in my mind…i miss you
Natalie M says:
September 22, 2008 at 5:15 pm -
Stay Strong 🙂 -Natalie
Sadie says:
September 22, 2008 at 3:11 pm -
Always thinking of you everyday. Love you guys. <3 Sadie
Angela says:
September 22, 2008 at 1:00 pm -
aunt sharon, uncle torey and tj….i havent seen or talked to you guys in awhile and i am hoping you know that i am here for you for anything you may need!!!! i love you all so much and am missing jax still everyday! love, cousin angela
alicia says:
September 22, 2008 at 9:57 am -
I’m missing you extra bad today Tink. 🙁 Smile down from up there today if you can.i love you beautiful. <3 alicia <3
alicia says:
September 22, 2008 at 8:43 am -
Bills 3-0… this is like an unprecedented event for the past 10 or so years…Jacquie is their ANGEL IN THE ENDZONE.if you think about it, who really needs a litlte more faith & a little something to BELIEVE in more than that Bills? hahai love you family, keep holding tight to one another. keep crying when you need. scream too, it’ll get a lot of the stuff you’ve been holding in really there out. in my heart & on my mind ALLwaysI ALLways BELIEVE.<3 alicia <3
rita says:
September 22, 2008 at 8:33 am -
Thinking of you today.
Huer says:
September 22, 2008 at 8:10 am -
Hirsch Family, I hope this week brings you happy memories of Jacquie and lots of laughter while you think of those memories…and if you are feeling down go to Mighty and get a Nachos deluxe (minus the salsa) and think of Jax the whole time you are eating it! I love you guys!! Always a believer! xo Ashley
Rory says:
September 22, 2008 at 12:07 am -
You guys are constantly in my thoughts. I will cherish my memories of Jacquie forever. I do my best to treat people with as much kindness, happiness, and respect as Jacquie did every day. I just want you to know that your daughter and sister was the type of person who’s impact will never be forgotten.- Rory
Casey Stiokas says:
September 21, 2008 at 10:58 pm -
Yesterday I went into work, and let me tell you I did not want to be there. I was only back for the day to help my boss in a pinch and it was the first time working since August, so I was slightly miserable. A customer came in and when she cashed out she paid with a credit card, and who was on that credit card? Well, none other than the fabulous Tinkerbell. It made me smile, and eventually when the customer left shed a tear or two, but I knew that it was Jax, telling me to be happy and to smile more often. And the othe day while I was mowing the lawn, I saw a banana peel (that very well may have been my dads) but it made me laught none the less. As you know (even more than I do) it has been very hard to smile and be happy these past few weeks, but it is the little things like Tinkerbell popping up somewhere or seeing a rainbow like Alicia did, or finding a banana peel on the side of the road, and it makes you know that it is okay to start to feel some sort of emotion other than sadness and not be so numb anymore. Sharon, your posts are beautiful and I find myself looking every day for an update, I don’t think I will stop doing that for quite some time. Thank you so much for writing them, and know that we care about all of you and love you and pray for you every day. Every thing that we do will be for Jax and the amazing Hirsch family who taught us so much this past year, but most importantly, to keep Believing. God bless you all, Casey
Anonymous says:
September 21, 2008 at 8:37 pm -
i will always believe<3
missy says:
September 21, 2008 at 12:13 pm -
Dear Sharon, I can never even begin to know the pain you are bearing. I pray ever day for you ….I wish so hard I knew what to say to help you. But what I do know and BELIEVE is that nothing, can break the bond and the love between a mother and her child. Love is stronger than anything and everything. You both had such a special relationship, one that a lot of moms only wish they had with their child. Jacquie is your daughter and you her mom. Nothing will ever change that, nothing. I also know you are one of the strongest people I know. You have always been strong. Even as kids, for as long as I have known you, the strength inside of you has amazed me. Jacquie was her mothers daughter in that respect as well. I also believe with everything that is in me , Jacquie is always with you. She will be giving you strength, and you will always feel her love. You are so very loved by so many people who want to be there for you and help you in any way we can. Please know I am here any time of day or night for you . Also know I believe in you. Missy
Anonymous says:
September 21, 2008 at 4:35 am -
You’ve already given us one gift through the lessons of Jacquie’s life. Now you’re inspiring us all over again by sharing the (in some ways more difficult) battle of a family trying to move on without her. There may be nothing we can say to make it easier, but do know that you’re making it easier for others who share your pain. Thank you.
Anonymous says:
September 21, 2008 at 2:48 am -
just wanted to let you know im thinking about you all and that i love you very much. <3 Whitney
Sara (albuquerque) says:
September 20, 2008 at 10:50 pm -
OK Jacquie….I am convinced now! You see, I always thought I believed in fairies and angels. Tonight while the kids and I were at “Light the Night Walk” here in downtown Albuquerque, holding our balloons, I looked up toward this very small patch of sky that was between 2 of the very few tall buildings here in Albuquerque. And guess what was there, yep, a beautiful rainbow. I was holding it together until then and then my eyes filled with tears. I for sure believe in fairies and angels and I do believe you are one of the most beautiful of angels. I smile inside when I think of you and your family, but I also have such a sad and empty spot in my heart that will never go away. And that is OK because it means that you meant something special to all of us. Thinking of you Sharon and sending a hug your way. Love, Sara
sue and family says:
September 20, 2008 at 10:27 pm -
Dear Jacquie, i am having such a hard time just getting through each day… as others have said it does not seem to be getting any easier…and i am so very worried for your BFF…i pray that your can give her the strength to get through each day-just putting one foot in front of the other for now…i am so thankful for the time i did get to spend with you over the last year, but it wasn’t nearly enough…please know that i will always and forever BELIEVE and that each time i see that word i think of you (which at the moment is not the most useful because i spend a bit of time crying)…i love you always sweet angel…sue
alicia says:
September 20, 2008 at 6:01 pm -
i just wrote a whole long post and i somehow deleted it. argh. i will try my best to recreate it soon.i love you all. keep hanging in there. i BELIEVED (and still do BELIEVE) in Jacquie and i BELIEVE in you Sharon Torey & TJ… to come out of this, bruised, but stronger all the same. <3 alicia <3 p.s. apparently bursting into tears in the middle of the gym when the "stand up to cancer" song comes on will award you tons of strange looks.
Natalie M. says:
September 20, 2008 at 3:22 pm -
Sharon, TJ, and Torey: Each and every day I am thinking about all three of you, and how life is without Jax. I know that deep in your hearts, she will always and forever be there. She is a wonderful woman. She has taught me so much over this past year. Now she is not in pain anymore, and she is happy, and I know that all you want is for Jax to be happy, and not suffering. You all cared for her so much, and you all loved and still do love her so much. She is such a great role model to me. Everything she has accomplished and everything she has been through, made my life. My life is now changed because of your daughter. You are such a lucky family to have a wonderful daughter like Jax. There is simply no better daughter than her. Again, I am thinking always of her and you guys, and I pray every night that God guides her up in heaven and gives her strength and courage. Sharon, I pray for you, that you can get through this. That God will look over you and give you that strength. You are such a great mother and a wonderful lady. Every girl needs her mother, to tell all her secrets to, and just be a great friend, and you were more than that to Jacquie. TJ, I really cannot explain how much Jacquie loved you, and you probably already know that. You are her big brother, and nothing can change that. You guys grew up together, and have been best friends since birth. Torey, you are an awsome dad. Again, every girl needs there daddy. A person to talk to and have fun with. You are such an incredible man, and whenever I saw Jax talk to you, i could see the happiness in her. She loves you, TJ, and Sharon, beyond belief. Sorry this is so long 🙂 I just want to tell you how I feel, and I will FOREVER AND ALWAYS BELIEVE, NO MATTER WHAT! I love all of you guys! ~Natalie Maranto~
Mom says:
September 20, 2008 at 2:10 pm -
Dear Sharon and Torey, I know that both Jacquie and T.J. are laughing at me because I couldn’t get these three messages all together. How can I thank you for the gift of two wonderful grandchildren and for letting me so involved in their lives? You all have given me so much joy–sports events, special days, trips to Geneseo–I could never count them all. My heart broke when I learned of Jacquie’s diagnosis but I knew that the two of you would make sure she would get the best care and everything that could be possibly be done would be. I am so proud of the strength, courage and love you both have shown throughout these unbelievably hard months. I wish I could ease you heartache. You know I will do anything you ask. Jacquie will help all of us and always be with us. She is the miracle I prayed so hard for. I love you both so much. Mom
Bree says:
September 20, 2008 at 1:51 pm -
T.J., My wonderful Grandson. I have always been so proud of you and so happy to be your Grandmother, but never more so than during these last 11 months. You were Jacquie’s rock and I will always remember how her face would light up when you walked into her room–no matter how bad she felt. You’d kiss her head, check to make sure she was comfortable and stay near her. And what a gift you gave her with this web site! Because of you, Jacquie touched and inspired uncountable lives. Jacquie will always be with you sharing jokes noone else can understand, going to car shows, sharing favorite food and I’m sure she’ll be giving you a kiss on your head often to remind you she will always be with you. I love you so much and will always be here for you. Your Bree
Bree says:
September 20, 2008 at 1:32 pm -
My Precious Granddaughter. How proud I have always been to be your grandmother and a part of your life and that pride keeps growing every day. I loved every minute I spent with you or talked with you. I loved the sleepovers, the trips to Vidler’s, bowls of chili, watching musicals and dishes of chocolate-peanut butter ice cream. You will always be with me and I will always see your beautiful, smiling face and hear your cheery “Hi, Bree”. I will love you and keep you in my heart forever.
rita says:
September 20, 2008 at 9:53 am -
Dear Sharon: I am one of many who have followed your family’s heartache from the beginning. As do others, I continue to check Jackie’s website. Last night I read your post asking Jackie to help you. So I would like to share with you my belief and what I have experienced from loved ones who are in heaven. There is more power in heaven than on earth, when you ask for help or strength they will find a way to grant your wish, when you talk to them aloud, you will feel them around you, when you cry they find a way to comfort you. Sometimes it happens through dreams, a scent, a memory. Whatever the experience may be, Jackie loves you and wants you to know. Sharon, grieving is a heartache, it hurts so bad, please know your family, friends, Jackie’s friends and me too, a stranger believes in you. Thank you.
Sadie says:
September 20, 2008 at 12:44 am -
Always loving and thinking of you guys. Sharon your posts are so amazing. So real and so heartfelt – they remind me of Jax. I know she’d be the first one to want to heal your heart right now. I also know she is the only one that could… I wish she was here to do that but I hope you can feel her hand on your shoulder as she smiles on you – so proud of the Mother that you are to her. I love you guys and you are always on my mind. Always loving and still believing, <3 Sadie
Sadie’s Mom says:
September 19, 2008 at 10:38 pm -
Sharon, I read your messages and my heart breaks for you. I don’t know how you go on. I haven’t lived through anything like you are going through now, and I pray to God that I never have to. So, my advice doesn’t mean much.. but it seems that you need to just work on breathing in and out, and getting through each minute and then each day.I would bet that there are times you don’t want to get through a day – another day without your beautiful Jacquie, but you have to – for your son and husband and all the people who love you. And I think ,maybe, to start getting through each day you just have to breathe and get through the next minute, next hour, next day.I pray that God will help you. Barb
christine seiders cornwell says:
September 19, 2008 at 9:55 pm -
sharon…. I have thought about you and your family daily…I have thought about Jacquie and her stuggle and how her stuggle has helped me. When you are in the fight yourself and then things start to get better you try to run as fast as you can to hide..but in reading your site still your messages continue to remind me everyday of my gift of life. Jacquie is so lucky to have you to continue her work and be able to help those remeber what the gift of life is all about!! Jacquies strenght I believe she has pasted on to you in order to get you though this and have us a BELIEVE
Megan Dressel says:
September 19, 2008 at 9:54 pm -
Jax- i think about you every single day…i wear my tinkerbell necklace all the time and people always tell me how much they love it. Its my way of keeping you close to my heart…i want you to know i will always believe, and thank you for everything you have taught all of us. torey, sharon and tj- the three of you never cease to amaze me…how you have managed to stay strong through all of this is a mystery to me. Please know that we are all here for you, and don’t hesitate to ask. i love all four of you.
Siber says:
September 19, 2008 at 8:47 pm -
Brooks’ Mom says:
September 19, 2008 at 6:49 pm -
Jacquie’s Mom-Sharon- Since I have been Brooks’ mom on all my post I figured that you should be Jacquie’s mom on my post…I just wanted to let you know that I think of you each day and I pray that you are well….I worry about you….I only look at Brooks and know the pain you feel….I so wish I could do something to help ease your pain…but all I can do is say….I care…I send you my hugs….Losing someone to cancer just sucks…I lost my mother last year….and like you, I am somedays not certain how to deal….I wanted to call her so badly yesterday to tell her something….she was one of my very BFF’s…I am only hoping that Jacquie has had fried chicken, blackeyed peas, green beans and southern style corn bread(my very favorite meal)…I know that my momma was just waiting to feed that girl….(her favorite thing to do!)…you might not know but southern women take cooking for their family very seriously!Please know that Jacquie is thought of in our home so often…Brooks and I were at Target getting things for the newest SDT’s(her little-little??) and everywhere I looked there seemed to be Tinkerbell stuff…I smiled each time I saw another…please smile up tonight and hug Torey and TJ too for me….know that I wish you and your boys my best….You are in my Heart Jacuqie’s MOM!!Fondly,Brooks’ Mom
Angela says:
September 19, 2008 at 4:59 pm -
ive been staring at the computer screen for the last few minutes not knowing what to write but feeling that i should write something. i guess this is a somewhat of a way to talk to you jax, and somehow a way aunt sharon, uncle torey and tj will feel that we are all keeping you alive through the site! but i dont know how to talk to you like this and tell you that i miss you so very much and why it seems each day gone by has yet to get any easier! i think about you all the time and wish i could hear that laugh of yours again!i hope you are watching us somehow…seeing how much you are loved and are so dearly missed by sooooo many people! i will love you always… cousin angela
Anonymous says:
September 19, 2008 at 4:41 pm -
Sharon, please keep your updates coming if you have the strength. I cannot imagine your pain and sorrow but I think it might help to share it with all of us. Please know that we all share your pain (although ours cannot ever compare to the magnitude of yours). Its true that the connection between a mother and daughter is one that transcends the boundaries of distance and time, even this. She is with you. Please take care.
Sigma Delta Tau mom says:
September 19, 2008 at 4:10 pm -
Thank you Sharon for expressing to the whole world such heartfelt intimate feelings about your family. Today would have been my parent’s 55th wedding anniversary, but my dad lived only 41 years of them. He has stayed with us every day since, and everyday it is sad, but everyday we see him in something beautiful around us. Dr. Elizabeth Kubler-Ross’ last book, the one she wrote when she was dying, expresses these ideas very clearly. There is a butterfly on the cover. It’s a wonderful book 🙂
Sara (albuquerque) says:
September 19, 2008 at 3:14 pm -
Hi Jacquie…I see your smile!Sharon,sending some strength and courage your way…I believe in all that YOU are. You and Torey have raised two of the most impressive and remarkable human beings I have encountered in my life. They are both special and the love and bond your family shares is magical. I wish I had words, but I know there are none, I wish I had a magic wand!!! Thinking of you and with you always. Sara
hugs to you sharon says:
September 19, 2008 at 2:47 pm -
i wish that there was something that i could do to ease the pain in your heart…i hope you know what an amazing mother and woman you are. keeping writing and we all will keep listening, just like jax is and always will be. sneding many hugs and thoughts your way today. 0:)
aunt val says:
September 19, 2008 at 12:25 pm -
with love
Rory says:
September 19, 2008 at 12:12 pm -
Sharon, Torey, and TJ I think about Jacquie and all of you everyday. – Rory
Huer says:
September 19, 2008 at 10:56 am -
Sharon, Not a day has passed that I don’t think of you and Jacquie. I’ve never been a Mom so I can’t even begin to understand the pain you are feeling. I won’t try and say I understand. I’ll only tell you that everyday is going to be different and someday’s you are going to be angry and want to scream (so go ahead and SCREAM), someday’s you are going to be sad (so go ahead and CRY), nd someday’s you are going to remember something, or hear a story and it’s going to make you smile (so go ahead and SMILE). I don’t think losing someone ever gets easier, I think it just changes. Sharon try and stay strong, we all BELIEVE and we all are praying. xoxo, Ashley
Argent_court says:
September 19, 2008 at 8:15 am -
keesha says:
September 18, 2008 at 9:57 pm -
good evening all. jax we love you and i still can’t believe it’s real. sharon, torey, tj thank you for allowing us to say goodbye to jax. she was and is well loved and she was a true teacher. you are all amazing people and have been my “second” family for many years now, so if there is anything i can do, please let me know. i do not know how to say goodbye to one of your kids, but i do know that my heart hurts for what you are now enduring. you are truly inspirational and i continue to learn much from each of you every day on the true meaning of family. lean on us now, for each of us is family and that’s what we are here for. i love you all dearly. sharon i hope to see you soon, okay? if there is anything i can do please let me know, even if it is just to be someone to hold your hand. love always keesha
The Coakley’s says:
September 18, 2008 at 9:47 pm -
Thinking of you……
Trish/Patti says:
September 18, 2008 at 8:59 pm -
Sharon, Your messages help me/us. They help everyone who wants to give you a hug, or do anything you need. They just help us. I am not sure how, but maybe just still being allowed to be a part of your continued fight – a new fight- to wake up and just breath. We cry, we get mad but we still feel connected to all of you through your messages. Thank you for keeping us a part of your life. Everytime one of the kids or myself catch ourselves not smiling or being kind, we say “Is that what Jacquie would do”. Jacquie is helping myself and my family to be better people!! You are in our thoughts and prayers daily. Trish/Patti
missy says:
September 18, 2008 at 8:39 pm -
Dear Sharon Torey and T.J., Always sending love , strength and prayers your way.Believing Missy
alicia says:
September 18, 2008 at 7:07 pm -
Jacquie,”If tears could build a stairway, and memories were a lane, I would walk right up to Heaven to bring you home again.” i miss and love you so much beautiful.and i love you all hirsch’s et al. hang in there.xoxxo <3 alicia <3
Harry says:
September 18, 2008 at 6:24 pm -
TJ, Sharon, and Torey, and Jax A new day, another walk, another “eeek” and a banana peel “planted”. I’m thinking of you always. We all visit the guest book everyday. I’ll be in touch soon with an update on my Memphis project. Still and always “Believing” Harry PS – our bracelets are never coming off, need to order more.
Amanda Cavarella says:
September 18, 2008 at 5:53 pm -
Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers. Love, Amanda
Anonymous says:
September 18, 2008 at 2:43 pm -
Sharon, Not sure if you know this song, but it was one of Jacquie’s favorites and she used to listen to it especially when she was having a bad day. Needless to say, it would always cheer her up and paint a big smile on her face. It’s called “Float On” by Modest Mouse and here are some of the more relevant lyrics I think Jacquie would want you to hear: “And we’ll all float on alright We’ll all float onDon’t worry, even if things end up a bit too heavyWe’ll all float on alrightWe’ll all float onAlright already we’ll all float onOk don’t worry we’ll all float onEven if things get heavy we’ll all float onAlright already we’ll all float onDon’t you worry we’ll all float on”
Hannah Belsito says:
September 18, 2008 at 2:16 pm -
Although none of you know me, I know a friend of Jacquie. This friend’s love for Jacquie seeps from within. How blessed you are to have had her in your lives. My heart goes out to you.
Sara (albuquerque) says:
September 18, 2008 at 1:27 pm -
Sharon, Torey, TJ and Jacquie ( as I do believe Jacquie you are still reading our messages), Yesterday, I heard a blurb on the local radio station here in ABQ about “light the night” but missed all the details. I then stumbled across the same words under events on this site. I was able to track down an event here in NM scheduled for this Saturday. Since then, I have registered for the walk. Elise and I plan to wear our “Jacquie” shirts and we will carry a balloon and walk out here in NM, in honor and memory of Jacquie Hirsch’s beautiful life. So once again thank you to your wonderful website. I wish Jacquie was physically with your family, I wish that more than anything else, but one thing I know…we will all always remember Jacquie. The emptiness in the heart will always be there, but so will her spirit! Love and strength being sent your way. Sara and family